Anne

You're losing sleep over a man who's probably sleeping just fine with another woman on his mind.

You're staring at your phone, waiting for a text from a man who's probably having deep conversations with another woman.

You're posting about him, hoping he'll see it, while he's busy with someone else.

You're crying over a man who's probably making another woman smile right now.

If you're not the woman he gives his all to, then he's not the man you should be stressing over.

Hinayaan kitang huminga ng ilang araw. Dinistansya ko ang sarili. Hindi kita kinulit, kahit walang oras na 'di kita ginustong makausap.

Pinanghawakan kong kapag binigyan kita ng espasyo, doon mo makikita ang halaga ko.

Sinubukan kong hindi magparamdam, pero hindi mo 'ko hinanap. Hinintay mo lang pala 'kong mapagod. Hinayaan mo 'kong umabot sa pagkaubos.

Mas ayos na siguro 'to—dito sa puwesto na 'di na ako nalilito. Malinaw nang 'di ka na interesado. Klaro nang wala kang planong bumalik pa tayo.

I was so down on you that even if you fooled me a hundred times, I would still love you with everything I have. I've been treated poorly, disrespected, and betrayed over and over again. But I was so in love with you that I was willing to turn myself blind to all the bad things that you had done to me. I was literally the one who would willingly die for you. No matter how painful it was to love you, I would always choose to stay. I was so stupid to think that you would also do the same for me. I was stupid to think that you could love me right too.

But today, I want to say thank you for hurting me again. Not because I deserve it, but because I realized that I do not deserve any less. That I do not deserve you. I do not deserve all the heartbreaks that you gave me. It took me a lot of pain before I realized that I'm already tired of putting up with something that I do not deserve. I've cried a lot, hated myself for so long, and told myself that I wasn't enough so many times— all because I wasn't treated properly. You robbed my happiness and self-respect from me, yet I was still there for you, thinking that you were the only one who could make me happy.

Thank you for making me realize that you are not good for me. Thank you for hurting me so badly that I learned to realize that I deserve better.

— Shiori X

I thought forgiving people would make them realize how worthy I am to be loved. I thought they would finally see my worth and they would treat me better. But one day, I realized that the more I forgive them, the more they abuse my emotions. I wish I could tell them how I lost all my confidence because of them. I wish I could tell them that I question my worth every night. That I spend all my night thinking that I am worthless, and that's all because of the way they treat me. It's just so sad how I wait for the moment that I would be loved right without realizing that I am slowly losing myself because of all the pain that I've been enduring for a very long time.

— Shiori X

But was she toxic before you lied to her about another woman? Was she toxic before you took advantage of the trust she had for you? Was she toxic before she kept forgiving you for hurting her over and over?

She wasn't toxic. You drained the life out of that woman, you hurt that woman, you lied to her and continued to hurt her, making her question her worth, and then you expect her to be the same person she was in the beginning?

Minsan kahit gaano natin kamahal o kagusto yung isang tao, aabot talaga tayo sa punto na mapapagod tayo...

Mapapagod tayo kakaintindi sa mga bagay na paulit-ulit nalang nangyayari...

Mapapagod tayong isalba yung relasyong yung partner mo walang ginawa para isalba kung anong meron kayo...

It's hard to let go,

it's hard to move forward lalo na kung minahal natin yung tao ng husto, but loving someone so hard is not enough kung hindi naman ito nasusuklian ng tama...

Loving someone is painful kung palagi nalang ikaw ang nag-aadjust at umiintindi just to keep things working...

Never be so confident enough na mahal na mahal ka, at hindi ka niya kayang pakawalan dahil minsan pag yung tao naabuso at napagod na, wala kanang babalikan pa...

To all of the girlies na hindi na reciprocate ang love na deserve nila, to someone na puro sakit at trauma nalang ang nararamdaman sa isang relationship...

Hayaan mo lang, dahil darating sa punto na yung taong di mo kayang pakawalan, nakaya mo nang hayaan dahil naubos ka, dahil nasagad ka, at pag dumating yung point na yun, kataposan niyo na...

Huwag niyong i take for granted yung taong mahal na mahal kayo...

Never niyong saktan ng paulit-ulit yung taong walang ibang inintindi kundi ang mapabuti kayo, dahil one day you'll realize kung gaano sila ka importante, at once alam na nila ang worth nila, you can never have them back dahil inabuso niyo sila...

Salahat ng mga sinaktan, pinaglaruan, ginawang rebound palaging tandaan na mahalaga ka and you deserve a kind of love that is pure and genuine..

Even if the world will go against us.

You'll always have me.

Even if distance separates us.

You'll always have me.

Even if we don't communicate often.

You'll always have me.

And even if, my heart is partially filled with disappointment for not being with you everyday, you'll always have me.

Mas mahirap pala kapag alam mo kung saan ka dapat papunta, pero nawala ka sa kalagitnaan. Hindi mo ngayon alam kung babalik ka ba sa simula, o patuloy na mangangapa.

Mas mahirap pala 'yong alam mo kung saan ka magiging masaya, pero may kailangang unahin na mas mahalaga. Wala, magpapaubaya, maghihintay, aasa na may kasunod pa.

Hindi sa ayaw mong umusad— kung anuman, sino ba naman ang ayaw may marating?

Hindi sila. Hindi ako. At lalong hindi ikaw. Nagkataon lang na may mga dagat na sadyang hindi mababaw.

—Markx

Hindi natin kailangang lumayo para masulit ang bawat minuto. Hindi kailangang suyurin ang bawat sulok ng mundo para mapatunayang buo ang pag-ibig mo. Hindi natin kailangang pilitin ang hindi at hindi pa kaya. Ayos na ako. Kahit d’yan lang sa may kanto. Sa paresan na paborito mo. Sa turo-turo. Kahit dito lang sa tabi mo.

Mahal, pakatandaan mo sana na hindi mahalaga sa akin kung gaano kagara ang bawat tagpuan natin. Dahil saan man tayo makarating, mananatiling iisa ang paborito kong tanawin—ikaw at ikaw pa rin.

—Ali

Minsan sa buhay natin kasi, all we need is acceptance kasi hinding hindi ka makakausad kung patuloy mong panghahawakan yung bagay na matagal na dapat binitawan.

You deserve peace of mind at makakamtan mo lang yung peace na yon kung bibitawan mo na yung pain na dinadala mo for so long.

Cheese is more valuable than both yoghurt and milk.

And if grape juice turns sour, it transforms into wine, which is even more expensive than grape juice.

You are not bad because you made mistakes. Mistakes are the experiences that make you more valuable as a person.

Christopher Columbus made a navigational error that made him discover America. Alexander Fleming’s mistake led him to invent Penicillin.

puwede ba ’yon? na paborito ko lang ang dilaw dahil iyon ang paborito mo? kumikislap ang mga mata ko tuwing nakakakita ako ng bagay na dilaw ang kulay, ikaw kasi ang naaalala ko. alam kong magugustuhan mo, alam kong masisilayan ko ang ngiti mo. kaya nga binibili ko kaagad, kahit pamasahe na lang ang pera ko.

wala rin akong paboritong pagkain—lahat naman basta puwedeng nguyain. pero simula noong nalaman kong mahilig ka sa ginataan, parang araw-araw ko ng cini-crave iyan.

“uy ginataan!”

alam ko kasing lalapitan mo ako at manghihingi ka. tatabihan mo ako, at sabay na naman tayong kakain. kaya ba ganado ako kumain?

hindi ako mahilig sa chocolate—nauumay ako agad. pero noong nalaman kong paborito mo ang combi, naging sweet tooth ako bigla. na para bang kaya kong kumain ng isang pack sa isang upuan, at kahit araw-arawin kong kainin ay hindi ako masusura.

“paano mo nalamang iyan ang paborito ko?”

“kasi paborito ko rin.”

pero ang totoo, wala naman talaga akong paboritong bagay. sadyang natutunan ko lang mahalin ang mga bagay na mahal mo rin. kasi mahal kita. at paborito ko ang bawat detalye ng ikaw—sa hibla ng buhok mo, sa paborito mong kulay, sa hairclip na suot mo, sa paborito mong almusal. paborito kita, at paborito ko ang lahat ng tungkol sa iyo.

kaya kung tatanungin mo ako kung ano ang paborito ko?

regardless of the context, ikaw ang isasagot ko.

Binura ko na.

Ang tagal ko ring hinintay ang araw na 'to. Ilang beses akong nanghinayang sa mga bagay na magpapaalala sa'yo. Natatakot akong burahin 'yong mensahe natin, dahil ito na lang 'yong puwede kong balikan sa tuwing susumpungin ako ng pangungulila sa atensyon mo, sa mahigpit na yakap, sa mga araw na mahal mo pa 'ko.

Sa wakas, kaya ko na.

Salamat sa ilang beses mong pag-iwas noong gustong-gusto kita makausap. Buti na lang, hinayaan mo 'kong maghabol, hanggang sa ako na lang mismo ang huminto dahil sa pagkahapo.

Binura ko na, hindi lang ang mensahe nating dalawa—pati ikaw na mas matimbang ang bigat na dala kaysa pagpapahalaga.

Aaminin ko, nawawalan na ako ng interes, medyo pinipilit ko na lang ituloy at baka sariling problema ko lang ito, pero ewan ko.

Mahal pa siguro kita, pero sa totoo lang, 'di na kita makita sa kinabukasan ko."

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