“This is all in preparation for when daddy fucks you” Eli mumbled, hugging him a little tighter. “I think you’ll really enjoy it though, even if you do feel it”

“Are you going to say I won’t feel when that happens too?” He chuckled, more than just a little nervous about that. He just let himself be hugged, enjoy the sort of comfort it gave him. “You can’t know for sure though.”

“Shh, they’re gonna be really tiny baby and you won’t feel them I promise” Eli whispered, squeezing him lightly. “Can we please try them?”

“It’s impossible not to feel them, Eli,” he rolled his eyes and chuckled. “And when you say we, you mean me.” 

“I mean, I’ve never really bottomed babe” Eli admitted, looking down at the boy. “I do know though, that I can always pull them out if they hurt too much…it’ll be like those tiny balls that you get at the arcade going inside of you”

“I see,” he nodded. He had actually assumed as much, Eli seemed to like to keep the positions very defined. “I’m pretty sure those tiny balls are not supposed to go inside me though,” he raised an eyebrow. 

“It won’t hurt as bad baby” Eli shook his head, turning Sam around in his lap so they could make eye contact. “The beads are smaller love, they won’t hurt” 

“Have you ever tried then?” He had always been curious about just how many of those Eli had tried, if any. “I just don’t know how this will feel, you know?” It was part curiosity and part nerves. 

“It’s only a few…sometimes I get new ones delivered for us to play with” Eli shrugged, reaching out for the toy. “I won’t break the promise babe, I know you’re not ready to play with all of the toys yet”

“I don’t think you know what few mean, Eli,” the boy chuckled, clearly getting back to his normal self. “I had to wait years for my ps4, but I bet your toys arrive in hours, don’t they?” He raised an eyebrow, but the accusation was a playful one. “I know you want me too, but it’s a lot. The plug one always leave me sore,” he sighed running and through his dark hair. 

“No baby, it’s not gonna hurt…they’re little beads and it’ll hurt a lot less than the plug” Eli assured,rubbing Sam’s back. “It’s gonna be okay, I promise”

He looked at Eli, a little suspicious. “You can’t break a promise, you know?” Well, people broke those every day, but he would make sure Eli didn’t. “How many toys do you have hidden here, by the way? It’s like you’re always showing up with something new.”

“No not today, but I will eventually want you to try them out” Eli grinned, holding Sam close to him as he imagined what the boy was thinking. “Baby, do you like the look of the beads?”

He shrugged at the questions. “It looks weird, Eli. I’ve never seen that before, or heard about it.” He still had the toy in his hands, fingers rolling over the beads. “It’s going to hurt, isn’t it?”

“Aw baby, not right now but later on I want to try them out…”Eli mumbled, kissing his cheek to calm him down. 

“Not today though, right?” He asked a bit tiredly. “You’ve already done enough for one day, Eli. “Where do you keep my stuff, like the meds, I mean? In case I need, I should know, right?”

“They’re anal beads” Eli smiled, allowing Sam to hold them in his hands. “Well, what do you think about them?”

He took the toy in his hands, still frowning. “I think they look weird, and that they’re not going anywhere near anything anal.” 

“Always gonna protect you, need you to know that” Eli nodded, he reached into the drawer pulling out a set of anal beads. “Here love, take a look at these.”

He felt a little calmer at the words, everything was changing too fast, and sometimes it was hard for him to keep the smiling front. His attention shifted to the toy though, brow furrowed. “What is that?”