I am sitting here working from home in a very thick and wet diaper that feels so amazing! It's crazy that something so irrational so much contentment, pleasure, joy and yes, sexual excitement. I am of an older generation but still grew up with disposable diapers. I have long since given up feeling guilty or ashamed for my love of diapers. This fetish is an integral part of who I am nowadays and I am unapologetic for that. Now that does not mean I openly wear in public, but I do discreetly and love it. In my vanilla world I have a great career, my own home, car and freedom. My family and friends do not know but I am slowly getting out into the ABDL community and even have tickets to CAPCONS side quest in January. I have been to a couple pro mommies and have a session scheduled this weekend with a new mommy dom.
My love for diapers goes back to toddler age, I vividly remember asking my mom to diaper me after potty training, she said yes, opened the bottom drawer of the dresser and pulled out a left over pamper and proceeded to diaper me. I have a few of these memories from around this time.
Later in my early teens I would get up the nerve to buy pampers toddler size in the purple box, anyone who had the pleasure knows EXACTLY what I am talking about! That wonderful scent and crinkle! I would tape them together and wear them, just an amazing sensation! Then Depends and Attends? Now while the Depends diaper was crap, the were BY FAR the loudest diaper ever. I loved wearing them under my clothes in public to see if anyone noticed, to my knowledge I think it only happened once lol. Now, the Attends 6 blue tape diapers? Man I thought I had died and gone to heaven but man they were hard to find as internet sales not really happening back then. Now I get to live in this wonderful time of ABDL diapers, clothing, bottles, pacifiers...etc. just an amazing time to be an ABDL!
I have also embraced my sissy side of being ABDL in a big way! About a month ago I was in a cuckold situation with a local woman and her BBC bull. Mommy and me orally serviced him and then he had his way with her while I watched. Just before climax he pulled out and finished on my face and in my mouth! I was dressed in thick diapers, satin rhumba panties, wearing a pink bonnet and sucking on my pink pacifier the entire time unless my mouth was otherwise occupied lol. Man what an amazing time that was, definitely a bucket list moment. We have plans to do it again but for him to use me fully. This makes me nervous as he is HUGE, I kid you not, like 10 inches minimum and thick as hell! Can only imagine what it will be like bent over, diaper pulled down and taking that monster in my backside?
I have no idea what possessed me to write all this other than to scream from the rooftops; I love being a submissive sissy ABDL and I hope to have many more sissy baby adventures in the foreseeable future.
