JustSoYouKnow.

I’m feeling so down these days.. Or months rather. I have found out I was pregnant 4 months ago. Of course, I expected it. I was actually.. deep inside.. anticipating it. But then, the father of my child.. well we were in a complicated relationship. So when I told him, he doubted that he’s the father. At first, our agreement was okay.. He’d continue communicating with me, but just for the child. I was fine with that. At least this child had a father, that’ll support him/her. Unlike my eldest.. Unlike Brianne. Although deep inside I wanted them both to have a family. A complete family. Then his ex-live-in partner went back to him.. or I don’t really exactly know what happened. But she told me to stay away, because the father of my child will never choose me. And even asked if he’s really the father. I have told him he is, thousand times before.. That he was the only one. I guess it’s my fault though, I won’t deny that. His ex also told me to stop contacting him, that they got back together. What do I do then? Should I just let it go? Should I get mad? Yes, I should just let it go. And no, I can’t, I have no right to be mad. I’m rather feeling pity for myself. I pity that I just ended up this way. I pity my child that even if his/her father knows that he/she exists, he won’t choose to be there. He’d rather cut our communication.. He’d rather choose to be a douche, a jerk.. An asshole. 

I have been on hiatus, wow. Parang sikat lang eh no? Just like what I have said on the title, it has been almost a year since my last post. Well, I guess I’m back to blogging since I have no one to talk to. Or maybe I do. I just can’t say everything I want to say to anyone. 

So yeah, been feeling a bit.. –No scratch that.. Been feeling so depressed these past weeks. Because of circumstances, situations. I’m okay now. I guess.

Given that I have no money, I don’t have any gift for Mark. *O* Omg. 

Still not sure if I’ll be able to go to the fan meet. But I’m sure, I’ll be going to Manila, ‘cause I bought the tickets already. 

I just wish I could.... I really want to see Mark and the rest of GOT7. :(

It’s been like almost 2 years since my last personal post. And I’ve missed tumblr. I missed sharing my thoughts and problems and whatnots here. In two years, there were obviously many things that happened. 

After my last post which was on October 2013, well.. Yolanda/Haiyan happened (Nov. 8, 2013). That’s why I stopped blogging and etc. I really can’t explain how petrified we were because of what happened. Seeing dead bodies and everything. But thank God we survived that monstrous calamity. We went to Manila and stayed there for about 2 months. Got to see my other relatives and best friends. We went back to Tacloban before Christmas, of course we wanted to celebrate Christmas here in Tacloban even after the typhoon, even when there was no electricity. To thank the Lord for everything.

Brianne Leigh, my baby is already 2 years old now. After Yolanda she was always sick, it broke and still breaks my heart to see her getting injected and everything. But now she’s healthy and quite talkative now. Thank you Lord. She loves dancing and lip syncing. Lol, I don’t know why. She’s becoming a Kpop fan ofc because of me. And she loves Luffy!!!! Hihi. Yes, Luffy of One Piece. Well, it’s because I was watching the whole anime for almost a month now.

About me, I stopped schooling. I worked at a Korean Restaurant for 3 months, and at a Lotto Outlet for a week. Lol. Hmm, that’s about it. Since I didn’t have like anything to say about my lovelife. Lol. 

Since I blogged. Anyways, how y'all doing? I'm definitely having a hard time now. I feel nervous 'cause of my grades. Ain't sure if I passed my Psych, College Algebra and Bio Sci classes </3 Breaks my heart.

Plus these KPOP concerts keep on coming. Kpop Republic, SS5 and next will be Infinite OGS on November 3. Next year DKFC and EXO's Solo Con. The hell. Wae? Wae nao?