@technodorifto

Well she could just say mean words to me so that I'll be easily over her.

I don't know what's wrong but for the past years the same things are reoccuring I always end up heartbroken.

I mean can someone just finish me now. LOL but yeah as of the moment I'm frustrated, depressed and still wishing I was someone else just like the old me.

I know I should be thankful I'm surviving but yeah I'm sick and tired of having false hopes and rejections. (Is this karma? Is this because I did a lot things that I shoudn't have done?)

Will I ever reach that point in time that I will be totally happy? (Not just to fill the void) or maybe at that point I'm already dead?

I mean I think I suck in all aspects of life. Probably because of my physical appearance?

I don't know anymore. Man FML!

I mean look if you're reading this, yes YOU! (Even if you're hurting me I still believe that deep down the innards of your heart I have a chance LOLJK as if can I ask you a favor and shoot me in the head?)

I don't know what's wrong?

I don't know anymore in general.

I'm losing my passion.

Not sure who should I talk to so I'll just type it here I guess?

(Well I think there's only a few people in here soooo)

Is this what it feels like to have High EQ than High IQ?

I'm so screwed at the moment or probably feeling lost?

Maybe if I hadn't fxked up in the past I'd be happier today?

I'm anxious, I've lost confidence, I'm tired. I'm sad and frustrated.

Hindi ko na alam.

Di pa rin ako makatulog sabog kasi body clock.

Bakit ba kasi wala akong kwenta?

I don't even know what's special about me.

Will things be better in the long run?

So many damn questions.

So many heartbreaking/disappointing instances.

I can't wait when all of this is over.

Puro nalang mali.

Puro nalang palpak.

Kelan kaya yung panahon na ako naman.

Everything is tiring but the only option is to survive.

I'm not that too broke but my heart and my body clock is way too f*cked up.

I always kept on making wrong decisions.

Ayoko na muna mag-isip.

Medyo sumipa na yung antok so end rant na.

Survive lang kahit masakit.

Di ko kasi alam ano ba talaga eh been ghosted twice (one last march and etong recent april 30 sineen nalang ako hahaha)

Maybe di talaga meant na magka-lovelife ako (hindi sa nagmamadali ah pero yung point na nakita mo yung gusto mo and mukang things are running smoothly kaso ang ending either aayawan ka or i-seen lang)

Hayys kung pwede sana mag shutdown nalang sa life no (yung tipong wala kang kasalanan sa religion/ethics and walang mga taong malulungkot.)

Kung kelan nagpapakatino ka na sa buhay dun pa palaging palpak.

Dumating sa point na parang lagi akong galit kasi parang defense mechanisim ko siya pero deep inside siguro sobrang lungkot ko lang and frustrated ewan.

Bumalik na ulit HS me na hopeless hahaha tanginang yan.

*End rant*

If anyone would read this don't worry I won't do anything.