Thoughts of a DOT

I was hoping to lead my own team for several years now since I shifted careers. It had been a constant dream and I have literally leaped acres to acquire more training and equip myself with the right tools. And now that opportunity presented itself, thinking of backing down and giving it all up. I am an undecided fool on a midlife crisis.

Should really be thinking about what I need to prioritize. This is not what I taught my elementary kids back then. Giving up had never been an option.

I guess I really need to think on the level of a leader. I need a leader who could direct me to that road and guide me without too much spoonfeeding

Will stop on this and sleep it off. Maybe, tomorrow can bring more clarity to the questions I have right now.

It had been years since I last posted. My last post literally talks about keeping up with this Tumblr account and never give up on writing.

Now, it seems that that passion for writing had escaped me and warrants a new training. I wish I could be back on the game and it could be that easy.

It just had been a crazy year. I was given a bigger responsibility at work. I now had to worry about the team's scores as the average would be my own score. An underperforming team would reflect on my own performance and I hate sloppy performances.

The new work drived me to extend help to everyone on the team and see what are our misses and celebrate our wins.

It had not been an easy year after all.

Now, I'm moving on to a much more bigger role and I have never been not ready for this new opportunity to success.

What I wish to work on right now as I'm occupying a bigger mantel is my communication skills. I admit that speaking without a script on hand was something I'm practicing over the years.

As I am typing this post right now on my phone, I wish I could have layout a more concrete content. That I would do on another day.

Merriam-Webster’s website decided that today’s word would be debilitate.

I remember once when I was also struggling to getting back into writing, I made a recurring calendar note/reminder that I would use the word featured in the Merriam android app in five sentences on a Starbucks planner -- that went on for two days.

As I am struggling now, it came into mind. 

Debilitate comes from the Latin word debilis which means weak. It’s definition according to Merriam-Webster is “to impair the strength of”. For example, “Working overtime everyday debilitates my spirit.” Please correct me if I had used the word incorrectly. 

Renowned Mathematician Dr. Ian Malcolm aptly stresses that “Life, uh, finds a way.” Haven’t he made his point clear in 3 installments of Jurassic Park and another 3 coming our way?

Sorry to disappoint you but this is not another Jurassic Park or a Jurassic World review. There are plenty of people out there who would gladly lay out to you their theories and thoughts on this franchise complete with subtitles and give-aways (Remember to click the like button below.)

I was a teacher for a private school in our hometown for 2 consecutive years but got drag to the bustling streets of Manila to slave for a foreign telecom company. Don’t get me wrong, I love every job I was given. I have this knack of getting used to any given work in time. 

The teaching life never fails to call me back every day. It’s the career that I promised to cherish and withstand despite the meager salary it offers. No gadget or instagrammable travel can beat the fulfillment one feels in making a child learn and adapt in life. I was ready to give my life to teaching then.

However, I was exposed to a world where every hour you spend working converts into cash. I get to buy myself things that I don’t have the privilege to own when I was a kid and when I was teaching. I get to travel using my own money and not being dependent to donations from my kids’ parents.

The change of career turned my life around. I was no longer contented with the usual stuff I buy when I was living a simple life. My lifestyle changed and so are my habits. I haven’t had the time to write a decent piece ever since I took this job. Yes, I work as an email support for a business process outsourcing company but the words I used are straight to the point and creativity is not needed.

I was used to weaving long sentences to provide a bigger picture for my stories. Now, that is not the case.

I don’t even know if I can still remember how to write a decent News and Feature story. Two things that I was brilliant on before. 

I had a dream then. I dreamt of being the teacher of the next SOMEBODY the world will know. I don’t think that dream is vivid on my memories anymore. As I am working on this comeback piece, I sporadically glance on the paragraphs above but lost interest when I notice that my thoughts are everywhere on the piece with no coherent idea. I don’t even spot-checked if I used “sporadically” correctly or if I spelt “dreamt” correctly as the software is not recognizing it on my desktop (looks like I even misspelled “spelt”). Or is “spelt” the American past tense for spell? Or does it even exist as a word?

What I know right now is I’ll be using this Tumblr account to express what I feel anonymously. Hopefully.