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I am currently hyperfixated on: Project: Hail Mary
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ID: video of a lone frog on the edge of a patio facing a grass lawn in the dark of night while it rains heavily. Halo 3 ODST's track 'Deference for Darkness' plays over the video, giving a deep melancholic feel, as the frog jumps into the grass.
Iām watching that documentary āBefore Stonewallā about gay history pre-1969, and uncovered something which I think is interesting.
The documentary includes a brief clip of a 1954 televised newscast about the rise of homosexuality. The host of the program interviewed psychologists, a police officer, and one āknown homosexualā. The āknown homosexualā is 22 years old. He identifies himself as Curtis White, which is a pseudonym; his name is actually Dale Olson.
So I tracked down the newscast. According to what I can find, Dale Olson may have been the first gay man to appear openly on television and defend his sexual orientation. He explains that thereās nothing wrong with him mentally and heās never been arrested. When asked whether heād take a cure if it existed, he says no. When asked whether his family knows heās gay, he says that they didnāt up until tonight, but he guesses theyāre going to find out, and heāll probably be fired from his job as well. So of course the host is like ā¦why are you doing this interview then? and Dale Olson, cool as cucumber pie, says āI think that this way I can be a little useful to someone besides myself.ā
1954. 22 years old. Balls of pure titanium.
Despite the pseudonym, Daleās boss did indeed recognize him from the TV program, and he was promptly fired the next day. He wrote into ONE magazine six months later to reassure readers that he had gotten a new job at a higher salary.
Curious about what became of him, I looked into his life a little further. It turns out that he ultimately became a very successful publicity agent. He promoted the Rocky movies and Superman. Not only that, but get this: Dale represented Rock Hudson, and he was the person who convinced him to disclose that he had AIDS! He wrote the statement Rock read. And as we know, Rock Hudsonās disclosure had a very significant effect on the national conversation about AIDS in the U.S.
It appears that no one has made the connection between Dale Olson the publicity agent instrumental in the AIDS debate and Dale Olson the 22-year-old first openly gay man on TV. So I thought Iād make it. For Pride month, an unsung gay hero.
Itās just a short blurb before the Dr. Lokken interaction in chapter 8 but I liked the implication of how much time they spent together probably like this- Ā
so do people know that multiple trans people across the US have reported that their pharmacists have arbitrarily denied them testosterone prescriptions, either because "you need authorization" or "company policy" or, in states where its legal, because they don't feel comfortable giving it to them.
i wouldn't be surprised if its also common for this to happen with estrogen, i found one news story on a trans woman experiencing this, but looking it up there seems to be a LOT of cases of this happening with testosterone. which makes me suspect people feel empowered to do this with T in particular because of its criminalized status. regardless, i do not see this brought up much! and i think we should discuss it more, at the very least to prepare people in case they experience this, so they know how to handle the situation.
examples below the cut for length:
Walgreens says pharmacist was uncomfortable with injection method
For Tristan Martin, a 34-year-old trans man living in North Austin, that fear became a reality last week when a Walgreens pharmacist refused to fill his testosterone prescription.
Martin says his pharmacistās explanation for not filling his prescription was that she was uncomfortable with the doctorās instruction that the medicine be administered subcutaneously, meaning as a shallow injection under the skin. But, as Martin explained to the pharmacist, heās taken the same meds for four years, with the same method, and never heard such an objection. Plus, Martin said that the pharmacist was only being asked to provide the testosterone itself, not the equipment necessary to administer it. He later attempted to reach Walgreensā pharmacy department and store manager to ask about the situation but wasnāt able to reach anyone and never got any calls back.
A store employee told the Chronicle they could not address the dispute. Tristanās wife, Hayden Martin, said she received an apology from a Walgreens regional healthcare supervisor, after the supervisor contacted her on May 23. āHe said there was absolutely wrongdoing and that itās going to get figured out,ā Hayden said. āHe said he was going to reach out to the higher-ups and heās going to let me know by Friday what happens.ā
Hayden Martin told us she was able to contact the pharmacist in question two days after the refusal to fill the prescription. āShe would not give a reason as to why she felt the doctor was wrong,ā Hayden said. āAnd she said, āIām not comfortable filling it for āher.ā So automatically the assumption is that itās just an issue of her not being comfortable with the fact that itās testosterone for a trans man. So I, of course, asked her if this was the reason ā because heās a trans man ā and she got very defensive and denied it. And then I tried asking for her name and her license number and she said, āWell, thatās not important information.āā
Walgreens Pharmacist Denies Gender Affirming Meds, But Other Options Exist
Recently, one of our readers, who wishes to go unnamed, sent us the following email:
On the 24th when I went to pick up my testosterone prescription at the Walgreens on Lomas & Carlisle, I was asked by the pharmacist why I took it, and when I told him it was gender affirming, he told me he wouldnāt fill it going forward⦠I want other trans+ folks in our neighborhood to know that this is not a safe pharmacy (I donāt regret reacting by sobbing loudly in the middle of a Walgreens, but I donāt want anyone else to have to go through that), and I want all our cis neighbors to know that this is a thing that is happening.
We reached out to the Walgreens location, and the person who answered (and who we will keep anonymous) confirmed that there is a pharmacist on staff who refuses to fill prescriptions for gender affirming medication due to their beliefs. However, they clarified that other pharmacists at the location would fill a gender affirming prescription if they were on duty, or the prescription could be filled at other Walgreens locations. Unfortunately, they were not able to provide further information as to the pharmacistās name or when their shifts might be.
A year after KC investigation, another trans customer turned away from Costco pharmacy
The cityās Civil Rights and Equal Opportunity Department launched an investigation in October 2022 after a Star report about five transgender and nonbinary people who said they were denied their prescribed testosterone at the pharmacy. Costco denied the allegations. [...]
Dave, whose name has been changed in this story to protect his identity as a transgender man, was grocery shopping at the Linwood Boulevard Costco on Monday when he decided to pick up some syringes.
Dave has used insulin syringes for years to take his prescribed testosterone ā their thin needles make his regular injections less painful.
These small syringes donāt require a prescription, making them easy to obtain ā and Costco offers a bulk pack of 100 at a nice discount compared to other pharmacies.
At first, the transaction was painless: Dave asked for a pack of syringes and an employee asked him his preferred size and gauge. But when he mentioned that he uses them to inject testosterone, the tone of the conversation shifted abruptly.
āThey got weird about it,ā Dave said. āThe pharmacist, I guess, overheard and she came out and sheās like, this wonāt work for testosterone.ā
Dave explained that he has used these syringes for his testosterone injections for years ā and has even bought the same syringes at that Costco pharmacy before for the same purpose.
Insulin syringes are regularly used to inject low doses of testosterone. But despite being an over-the-counter product, the pharmacist insisted that Dave needed a prescription before she would sell them to him.
āSheās like, well, we wonāt sell it to you unless you have your doctor call it in,ā Dave recalled. He stepped aside to call his doctorās office, but they were closed for Mondayās holiday. āI didnāt feel like arguing (with the pharmacist). So I just left.ā
An assistant general manager at the Linwood Costco said Wednesday that he was not aware of the incident and couldnāt comment on it.
A pharmacy employee said that she and her coworkers are not authorized to speak to the media. A request for comment from Costcoās corporate office was not immediately answered.
Dave called the Missouri Pharmacy Board Tuesday and was told that syringes only require a prescription if they bear the label āfor Rx only,ā which his syringes didnāt.
Beyond that, he said he was told that the state gives pharmacists discretion over what they choose to dispense, as long as they donāt violate federal anti-discrimination laws.
On a Saturday night two years ago, Stann Fransisco was driving back home to New Mexico after visiting their parents ...
āCriminalization has made it easy for pharmacists to deny my [testosterone] prescription, which has happened to me many times,ā Artemis McGettigan, a trans student in Dearborn, Michigan, told Filter. ā[Pharmacists] have told me in the past that āItās corporate policy, theyāre not allowed to fill that type of prescription ⦠but I knew that was false because other CVS locations, for example, were able to fill it.ā A CVS media representative told Filter that its policies ādo not prohibit our pharmacies from filling testosterone prescriptions.ā
CVS Pharmacist refused to fill my T
I have been on T for coming up on 3 years. Iāve never had any problems with any pharmacy Iāve gone to. I recently had to switch pharmacies and for over two weeks this pharmacist at CVS has given me the run around. āI need to talk with your doctor about why you need itā (which Iāve never had happen before). And then the next day would say āI need prior authā. Itās been so long without my T that my period came back today and I am freaking out. So I sent a very frantic message to my doctors office. They called me about an hour later telling me the pharmacist sounded fishy and said āIām not comfortable filling this prescription.ā Ok? Your job isnāt to judge my prescription your job is to give me the medication my doctor decided I needed. The doctors office was nice enough to transfer everything to a different CVS close by and even apologized for not getting the pharmacists name. We did call to get his name. My partner is very nice and called corporate to file a complaint and the corporate pharmacist on the phone said that they do have grounds to deny a prescription only if there is not enough info or itās fake. So they reported it as discrimination. Unfortunately I canāt take legal action or I would. Sorry this is more of a rant than anything. This should be illegal and nobody should work in healthcare if theyāre going to gate-keep health. I truly hope this man gets fired. Iām trying to file a report to the state board of pharmacists because he can have his license revoked for discrimination. Thanks for listening.
My pharmacy tried to deny me my testosterone
So I called in my prescription on the 2nd and they told me that it would be ready on the 5th. Itās the 8th today so I called and asked if it was ready yet and the pharmacist told me I needed prior authorization and that my insurance wouldnāt cover it. Thing is, my insurance has covered it for the past two months, which is when I first started T. The pharmacist told me to call my doctor and get the authorization so I did and my doctor said that thereās no issues on her end, no authorization needed, and that my insurance still covers my prescription so sheās not sure why he would say that. I end up calling them back and end up speaking to the lady who took my original prescription and she was like āOh my god. I donāt know why he said that to you. Iām seeing a refill request but nothing that requires an authorization. Iām gonna send this in today and it should be ready by Fridayā. I think itās hilarious too that when I told him my name, he was like āoh youāre (my grandparentās names) granddaughter!ā
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| mary has joined the crew š°ļøš« based off priya kansara ā”
iām calling her mariya to match rocktiz! sheās an android / walking ARMando with added piloting programming, so the crew is now complete of its scientist, pilot, and engineer! inspired by the cast pic of the three of them in the cockpit ā”
The best way I can describe to an allo person how you feel about sex as a topic as a sex-repulsed or averse asexual is that it feels like a hype that never ends. As though Despicable Me came out and everyone around you was sending minion facebook memes to each other for years to come. The stores are full of minion themed products; they're in ads and your friends talk about them all the time. And deep in your heart you're like "I'm glad that they're able to enjoy something I personally don't like and am not interested in :3". But there is always this little voice in the back of your head that's like "If I have to see ONE MORE of these little yellow FUCKERS today then God help us all." You make an active choice to communicate only the former.
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Dying right now because youtube lagged out and mixed up 2 videos.
I clicked on a seal video but the title, description and evcerything else are from a cosmic/liminal space horror video that was underneath it.
The fucking comments in the wrong context are sending me.
EVERYONE IS SO SCARED OF THIS BABY SEAL
sorry, I mean enormous sea monster.
I don't think this could have happened with a funnier combination. This is the hardest I've laughed in a while and I had a psychotic laughing fit yesterday.
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My hot take on the finale for Good Omens is that too many people wanted grandiose displays of physical affection when that isnāt really in character for Crowley and Aziraphale.