update #3: i broke up with him and now i’m still held up on the guy i’ve liked for three years

update #2: we’re dating now and he is amazing and makes me VERY happy :)))

update: my crush just told me that he likes me back :))

i don’t know what’s happening with my feelings, but old ones are coming back and it’s not good. you don’t deserve my love after all you’ve done to me. there are too many people and too many feelings. i want my heart to stop because it’s leading me in the wrong direction.

i think i’m finally ready to tell you. i’ve spent so many sleepless nights thinking about you for the past two years and i think it’s finally time to let that go. unless, by some chance, you decide you like me too.

i know i’ve said this a lot, but this time i think it might actually be it. this might be our chance. i’ve been waiting for this for so long and all i hope for, is that i don’t ruin it.

how the fuck do you manage to keep coming back into my life and fucking with my feelings

please come back.