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Huhuhu please stop, lord stop me from overthinking, stop this pain please. I don't want this again, stop. I can't function properly. I don't want to cry again.

Wahaha bruh I can't function, all i think is why I ruined it, It will never be the same, the closeness, the mood, vibe and everything. Fuck with my decisions, I can't even talk to my own cof, I decided na aalis nalang ako sa cof ko cause I can't be comfortable na, awkwardness ay mangingibabaw. And I'm jealous hahahaha, i know it's wrong to feel that way towards her cause wala naman sya ginawa but I can't control it. Same cof pa kami, so i rather iwasan ko na silang lahat than staying there and ease the pain what i have been looking. It's going to hurt so bad, na alam kong hindi ko mahahandle wahahahaha. I'm fine, it's going to be okay, masasanay rin ako, let's do our best! I'm going to do it. I'm sorry for my cof and for him, I need to do it. And I think hindi na ko babalik pa don. It's my home yeah, but i need to go out now. Thank you so much for the love, joy and happiness. I will take my lead now.

Wahahaha bruh tf with that TAKE A RISK OR LOSE A CHANCE, I'm crying tf it's ruined for real. The closeness will never comeback, I miss him so much. Why did i confessed, i should not do that. I should wait till but no bruh, I can't even go near him.

I dunno if it's love or infatuation or just i admire him or lagi lang sya nandyan for me. I do the iwas challenge sakanya and I'm okay naman I miss him but not too much cause siguro accept ko na that there is one girl na nasa heart nya and I can't compete don cause she had everything na rin wahahahha. I just want to feel relieved na rin e kaso i dunno if confession yung dapat ko gawin or iba. Just please make a move na makakaturn off for me, so i can stop this shit.

Waaaaaaa! I think I'm gonna cry, i hate this shit. Why i am craving for his attention, i hate this shit. I want to stop this one, inde ko sya mapigilan tangina HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH, bruh please let me distance from him. Lord don't make me fall deeper, i hate this shit.

Hahaha bruh I'm drained, I'm having mental breakdown rn. I have dysmenorrhea and it hurts a lot and having this scene that triggers my trauma, i thought this scene will never happen again cause we all grow apart but no, its not. I happened to see both of my younger siblings arguing and i was like i think i just go and argue as an elder sister. But no, worst things worst, my sister started grabbing a knife and started stabbing my brother and i was just shocked and just cried I don't have any strength left on me. I'm glad, he avoided the knife. I just remember the scene where my mom and dad are fighting and my mom suddenly collapses and the scene where my moms crying. Am i bad daughter or a sister nor a family member to them? I just need to rest i think, can i wish it to be permanent?

Am i hurt? Or nah. I don't know, i hate this. Stfu, should i hate him? Should i kill myself. I forgot my purpose.

Ohhh I made a mistake, I don't want to make an assumption that saac and I can be mutual friends with same interest. I just stalk him and assume that he will have a same humor and personality that I have. Fuck.

I feel empty and I know why. I need to accept it and heal faster, I don't want to experience it ever again. Fuck, I hate falling in love, I'm being obsessed with that person and I know I should stop earlier but still hahaha Fuck I'm dumb. Need him to erase from my world, I know I can do it, I just need to distract myself. Don't want to talk to him, no more. I want to block him but I can't so I just unfollow him, once again I really like you but you like someone new and I think that's my queue to stop. It really hurts for almost 7 months I have a crush on you. Now I still support you but as a friend and that's all. I'm not gonna pay attention to you to quicken my moving on phase.