stupid in love w/ a bunch of asian men

in the past few months i have left my abusive job and tried to commit suicide. there have also been two deaths in my family and we have not been in a good financial position to pay for the funeral i scrambled as much as i could to fly my parents back to our homeland to attend their loved ones funerals

im a bit better now and sort of getting my life back on track i have just started a new job which looks promising but because of everything that has happened im so behind on my bills and rent and i am struggling with everything right now. ive been getting panic attacks daily again but im trying not to take days off work because then i wouldn’t get paid

if you are able to, please help me https://www.paypal.me/tomanj