#zyvv

Glitch glitched and had no cup to sip from 😔

I have no explanation for this other than "it was funny"

Asura collection because why not? Näppylä's intense stare kinda jumpscared me when I looked back at the screen

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14. It is said that the Inquest view the Eternal Alchemy as "a thing to be mastered and used, rather than merely understood, for the ultimate purpose of establishing asuran dominion over other species". Do they believe this-- is there a psuedo-religious/philosophical element to their Inquest loyalty? How do they feel towards other races?

They fully believe in the Eternal Alchemy, but it had no bearing on them joining the Inquest If anything, the Eternal Alchemy did give Zyvv a bit of strength to keep working in the Inquest, as there was probably a reason for it beyond bad timing and worse luck. They do find the goal of mastering it admirable, but they can't shake off the feeling that the very idea of doing that is a tad scary and likely "profane" in some bad way.

As for other races, they were fairly ignorant and a product of their environment, never having really interfaced with any non-asura directly. Everyone made fun of other races and called them names and slurs, especially in the Inquest, so that's what they were used to and tried to fit into. It all gets quickly dismantled as they're forced on the run. Sure, many are not that better than what they knew before, but so many of other races helped them out just because and offered kindness they were not used to. [and who knows what will happen going forward]

Zyvv was pretty close to their father, Pliff, and had a pretty nice life growing up with him, at least until it was upturned when he and half of his krewe got killed while out on a job. They were written off as casualties in a lab break-in unrelated to them, and Zyvv found out what happened only after joining the Inquest over a decade later, when one of his superiors casually mentioned the Arcane Eye as the culprit. Knowing did nothing but make Zyvv hurt more. With the rest of the krewe disbanding and no mentor lined up for them, little Zyvv was sent to their mother, angry and heartbroken that his family was taken away from them for no reason and that they had to leave all they knew behind.

Nowadays, Zyvv barely remembers their father's voice and face, and they feel terrible about it.

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🎶 Waiting In The Wings (Reprise) from Rapunzel's Tangled Adventure

Guess by now I oughta know my place Do your humble duty with a smile on your face Mother knows how much I love her But she's always doing other things So I'll keep waiting in the wings I crave so much And yet I kept on waiting One glance, one touch And I just kept on waiting And when it came, it came with strings So I kept waiting in the wings

Nijji, Zyvv's mother, had wanted nothing to do with them since before their birth. She had to be pretty much forced to take in that 7 years old she didn't even consider as her son [before puberty kicked in, Zyvv still presented as a boy], and only agreed to it because some of her krewe promised to look after them as well. Nijji was extremely controlling and abusive towards Zyvv, treating them as a browbeaten apprentice, but was also extremely controlling and rarely let them out of her sight, even interjecting when someone of her krewe did more than the bare minimum for them.

Zyvv took that reunion pretty badly, but was still too hurt to really process it until much later, and with the little support they got as they mourned their father and the krewe that was like family to them, they ended up becoming quiet, shy and pretty much invisible. Still, even after giving up on hoping Nijji could be a mother to them, they kept trying to win at least her approval in any way possible. The only way to interact with her in a vaguely positive manner was to ask her to teach them biology (she was a botanist/plant biologist), and when she did that, she was almost nice to them, but it still did nothing in the long run.

3 years later Zyvv found a mentor and left, returning to Rata Sum. Their mother barely aknowledged them even then, and that jumpstarted a full rejection of everything she taught them, pushing them to pursue a career in magic-related studies, at least until someone in the Inquest pushed them back into it and they specialized in magibiology.

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8. a song lyric that would make them feel Seen

🎶 Better Version of Me by Autoheart

A broken heart, a broken soul, a broken everything My inability to mend is at the root of it If I could find a fix If I could find a fix To be a better me I've got a feeling that I'm losing my mind Cannot deny this is a difficult time (Time) And yet I'm telling everybody I love That I'm fine (That I'm fine) I have to pull myself back together again - I wanna be a better version of me I have a vision that one day I'll be free I'm gonna prove that I'm not already gone