Our therapist just told us that we only have 16 sessions left (this would last until aproximately october, depending on how many holidays etc will be inbetween) and after that, weâll have to wait two full years until we can get more sessions, and in those two years we will only have one session a month (Zwangspause). One a month. thatâs⊠not enough. One A WEEK doesnât feel like itâs enough right now!
It wonât really be therapy at all. It will be âtrying to put the worst of the fires outâ
And just the prospect of that already messes me/us up. Putting time constraints on therapy is really counter-productive and I mean REALLY, EXTREMELY counterproductive!!!!
:âC We donât really know what to do about his. We feel stressed and panicked and like a failure for still being sick and still needing all this help and GUILTY for needing/wanting more than we deserve and especially more than others get and why are we so slow and why do we cry so much and why donât we pull ourselves together :âC
Weâll try to get money from the fonds for survivors of abuse but apparently they take 1.5 years to even decide one way or the other so⊠thatâs only marginally useful. Although if we manage to do it RIGHT NOW then it might mean the difference between 2 years Zwangspause and 1 year. idk. (GUILT!!!!)
Weâll also look into going inpatient again. Apparently thereâs a good clinic on the other side of the country, perhaps. It will cost the insurance company more, and wonât really be a substitute for regular therapy once a week, but idk what else to do.
Weâll have to ask how much a session costs but Iâm pretty sure we couldnât afford to pay for it ourselves.
I just feel like crying but it feels like I can no longer afford to that :(
