I've had to cancel on him three times now. I feel absolutely fucking horrible. I want to hang out with him, and I want to get out of my house! I haven't gone out at all this vacation! My mom is sick I get that. I've been here all this time with her. Cooking, cleaning everything. Getting her medicines, doing everything I possibly can for her. I even drove her around without a license. I just want to go out for an hour or two. Jesus Christ. Its vacation! I've been such a good student this year. My parents have no reason to complain about me this year. I just want to go out. I'm tired of being home. A fucking zombie could show up at my door and I'd go with it. #rant #imdone