Failure to Launch... into Sleep
Ugh. I need to get my butt into bed earlier. I’ve been exhausted for the last few days, and for some reason I cannot make myself get ready for bed before 11:00. I’m not usually IN bed until 11:30 and then it usually takes me a good 20-30 minutes to actually fall asleep (and that’s the best-case scenario--often I’m up later than that). I wake up at 7:00 pretty much every morning, sometimes earlier if the dog barks at something outside.
I don’t know WHY I’m doing this to myself. We’re having the busiest week at the flower shop that we’ve had in months (two weddings on the same day, fun fun), we’re still trying to get our house put together, I have articles to write, a second half of a novel to plan, events to attend both tonight and tomorrow (and tomorrow is gonna be a late one because bitchin’ birthday party). My last relatively free weekend is this one. I have something to do each weekend until the end of November--if it’s not an event, it’s NaNo--and I really can’t be screwing myself over like this.
And yet... my dumb brain keeps trying to find reasons to stay up. Watch more tv/youtube. Play the dumb game on my phone. Open Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter, just in case there’s a new post to entertain me. Reread some old writing just before bed, because reasons.
It’s nuts. I know it’s my brain railing against the season change and my biological clock trying to tick on a different schedule than the one on my wall, but damn. I’ve got to kick the bad habit.
Fortunately, I have a bunch of sleep-ease teas to help me chill, and I’m going to start implementing the alarm on my phone again, to help remind myself I need to be getting ready for bed at least by 10:00, if not earlier. My mother-in-law also has suggested that after dinner, I do all my brushing and clean my mouthguard and such, so that way when I decide I’m tired enough to go to bed, I can just grab the guard and climb in (wise woman, my mother-in-law).
I’ve also got to avoid naps. I caved and took one yesterday just to get back to a functioning level, but I’m pretty sure it’s why I didn’t just go to sleep when I needed to last night. So no naps.
I’m hanging out with a friend tonight, though, so hopefully that’ll help me both stay up and wear me out enough that I go to bed when it’s time. We’re going to a “Taste of ThisCity” sort of event, which ought to be delicious. We haven’t hung out just the two of us in a while, so I’m looking forward to catching up and sharing our struggles and successes, as we often do. :)
Time to get ready for work, though. 48 total centerpieces need to be knocked out today.
Eep.
