2017. A year of reflections I must say. So many things happened. Things that bring me up and things that pulled me down. Not the heartbroken down ones but humbled kind of down. I learnt about the fragility of life. The precious thing about life is actually life itself. That’s a huge Nikmah. Where often we all take for granted. Life is a rollercoaster too, always full of surprises - be it good or bad. It is hard to be happy because I realised everything is temporary and I could lose the things that I love, the people that I love or perhaps I leave this Dunya at any second. Yet, despite learning that life is a sad place - a place that we will part one day, I learnt how to be content. Being content teaches me to be happy.
This year, I witnessed few deaths, few critical illness, closure of the school I worked for and saying goodbyes to the people I dearly care about. And this happen without any warning. It just happened. A death of a volunteer the mosque today touched my heart again because the overwhelming people praying for his Jenazah at the mosque. I envy and began to pray that one day I will receive that kind of “farewell” or perhaps more. And seeing all those tears, I realised that my heart is too “small” to even be ready for a loss of any loved ones and it hit me hard, I should really start to run to Him and pray that my heart will be fine for any farewells. Because clearly, I am just a weak soul. #ZLfromtheheart #ZLwrites
