#zeons thoughts

Trying to doodle.... I wish I could be more active but.. my family is treating my feelings like garbage and telling me I ruined their summer just because I needed help financially. Apparently them trying to improve and support me more was simply hot air It's always me begging for money when I'm hungry and broke or telling me I'm as horrible as my bro because I asked for help.

I am apparently the worst person to exist. I don't deserve anything. I'll just render this drawing to vent out my feelings in the coming days.

If I am randomly not posting for longer durations, it's currently because I'm just completely out of touch with reality

Too many relapses in such short intervals. Work stressed me out, stayed at home for numerous times because I slowly just developed the thoughts of ending it. Even tho it's the most illogical thing to think.

I just feel empty having to deal with ... same issues in my current workplace like what I had with the last job. Will it just continue with every new job in the future? Even tho it's not my fault and often the other person who wants to have power over me? Because they're too insecure to feel lesser than me, after only causing bad things to said workplace?

People appreciate my hard work but the closest person is always the one that hates my good work and tries to find ways to feel better about themselves. Just so they can continue treating everyone who works hard and honestly like garbage.

Man, what is this?

I don't think I posted this drawing

I can't show any art yettt raaaaaaaaaa, I worked so much on my feather collection and that always drags me into doing more of that and then I forget art and then suddenly I get so interested in watching videos that I ""waste"" so much time doing that, resulting in me drawing until 4AM

It's not really a waste of time spent I just have the disease known as overworking herself for no reason.

(My friends think I have adhd and autism, but I can't confirm nor deny that, so it's whatever, I am too broke to get diagnosed, that shit expensive *opens empty wallet*)

Either way, I love that tiny sketch of Heatwave foaming at the mouth up there djannxkanxjd

One of the Heatwaves from my AU is also getting pushed into spending more time to draw against his will. So it made me wonder what kind of art Heatwave would ever draw if he were an artist?

Have birb, I think he has a quest for you.

Small TW down below, pet passing away

Idk, I wish I could help the community more, but I can't and it makes me sad. Not sure if sending another email would do anything or be counted as annoying.

Never in four million years did I think I had the opportunity to ask someone who used to work at Spongebob for a DRAWING. WHAAAT

Bdjsbdjendjsndnd

IT'S TWO PAGES EVESNKQSNWKSNKS

I can't wait to frame them!! Tho I need to buy something to protect them from UV rays.

Always love going to art events, I wish I had the budget to attend more this year ;a; I don't know who of you guys live in the region, but if you ever want to do something cool in the Netherlands, visit tAD in Eindhoven next year!

A bunch of talks included Spongebob this year and I'm just shdjsjsjjs

Sponge;;;;;

I get yelled at for doing my job, because they want to feel important and be an authority above me, even tho they yap nonsense.

My current workspace is definitely way better than my old one, that basically made my depression extremely bad and just made my anxiety worse.

This workplace is, chill. I basically have to make sure the adult baby that is my coworker accepts the fact that his private belongings don't belong in the collection rooms I'm managing. I found food and chewing gum at some point (the room is full of toxic chemicals that can be found inside the dust on tables etc).

Just imagine you're at work and one of your coworkers decides the entire workplace is their living room. So they bring all their private belongings and get angry if you throw something out or shove it back to them.