#yubdot

        For a person who provided a lot of leverage in other people’s lives, it was always difficult for the older woman to see that similarly reciprocated into hers. It was likely due to her facade of pretending to be okay, and the other aspects of being too ‘cool’ for any affection provided by anyone other than herself. Even then, Yoobin could barely tolerate anything other than genuine worry for whomever that she cared about. Things like aegyo and PDA were never quite things she could comfortably wrap her head around.

        It wasn’t often that she lit a cigarette, but in times of immense stress, it was always a great alternative at easing her stress. She had almost gotten into a catastrophic car accident due to some drunk driver, and as a result, her phone had been blowing up. Despite her hermit tendencies, Yoobin always kept up with the majority of her friends. Whether it was simple check-ups or the desire to hang out, proving that her lack of presence wouldn’t simply go unnoticed.

        Playing with the almost empty box of cigarettes in her hand, she flipped it one-eighty, slid it past the grip of her index and thumb, and then repeated this for five minutes prior to being interrupted. The tan woman, who had been lightened slightly due to the lack of sun, had been sitting just in front of her home. On a sudden urge to leave and stretch her limbs with a walk, the curator had risen and begun her walk. Not even thirty seconds had passed from the moment she got up to the point she was passing a small alleyway before quickly being pulled back from nearly being hit by a vehicle. A loud gasp muffled by her hand had lifted into the air, eyes widening in shock. “Jesus Christ…” Yoobin mumbled under her breath.

      Two incidents. Both of them in the span of a week.

       The curator turned, facing the person who’d been much quicker on her feet than she was. “God, Mina…Where did you come from?” It was likely she was coming to check up on her due to her lack of activity on sns (among other things). “Shit, that would’ve been so traumatizing for you…Are you alright?” But before Yoobin could blurt out another worry for the younger girl, she was cut off with the girls own concerns.  “I don’t know what I would do if something happened to you.” Suddenly she was speechless and completely taken aback. It was then she knew that with Mina, she could relax a little more than she normally did.

—- mina had seen signs of these kind of things too many times. many idols were doing it as well, hiding the heaviness on their shoulder’s and rarely showing their own feelings as they lived underneath the beliefs that they needed to live with their dedication to their job and be some kind of superhuman. mina didn’t know how they did that, as she often found herself crying whenver going to bed when she needed to relive some of the stress she was carrying inside of her. however, she had the tendency of never being the one to force people to tell her what was going on, rather than that she would prefer to give them a warm hand and make sure that they were feeling okay. in the end that was the thing that mattered. 

she wasn’t one to get close to people easily. these days people had a difficult time to understand that she sometimes couldn’t always reach out to people. her schedules were often filling out most of her days and her mind. but that didn’t mean that she didn’t care nor think of the friends she had, she was often very worried about their well-being, and the easiest way for the japanese idol to check up on them was via their sns and social media. whenever she saw a lack of activity within it, she would feel a stone form inside of her stomach and worry about everything and nothing that they mentioned over it. 

her eyes watched the woman’s silouette for a moment before she made herself known that she had managed to get inside the room. she had recieved a key from yoobin not too long before their comeback with their song ‘cheer up’, mina remembered how she had recieved how much the elder had told mina that it was ‘just to show up whenever she needed someone to talk to’ and despite this not being her to need someone to talk to but merely check up on someone she cared for. she was still getting in there for a good thing. 

                         ❝ i’m good, don’t worry about me...❞