#yoon jun

A jester and a pushover sitting at a bar drinking soju. I feel like both of them so quite often

They're almost invisible, taken for granted. They're always there though. Performers of the group. Yoon-jun's role is providing psychological support, guidance, comfort, protection. He's like that comfy old couch you liked taking naps on as a kid, only with a boring voice of reason, which is why he bites his own tongue so often. Hye-seong's role is only seemingly of a lighter kind, but she is the space filler, energy provider, the background noise, someone to laugh at, but also someone to kill the solitude with, and most importantly, she is someone whose absence echoes a little too loud. They both agree to these terms completely voluntarily, playing the roles comes naturally for both.

My dearest. Their interactions are e v e r y t h i n g. It took some time to get to this point, but it's worth it. 🌹

Both are givers in their nature, but when they're together, something magical happens. It's no longer about one sided giving or providing of any kind. It's like a solved puzzle with no missing pieces. Yoon-jun has a terrible need to lead and be seen as a leader. Hye-seong has a terrible need to endearingly follow and be cherished for doing so. Sometimes, they gladly exchange these roles, Yoon-jun submits to her easily and follows for as long as Hye-seong needs it. In those simplest of yearnings they found each other so complementary. When they're all alone, they reveal their true nature without playing any additional roles or games; in comfort of their tiny universe they suddenly feel completely seen by each other.

Time is never a valid indicator of quality of relationships. That's why I find their friendship much more profound in comparison to other displayed friendships. Drama implies that he's been there for her through her every break up, which means she continually exposed her most wounded self, her most embarrassing parts right there for him to see. He works his wonders of just being a shoulder to cry on. It's not explicitly said, but drama implies that Hye-seong is the first person Yoon-jun opens up to about his family's dynamics and the burden of being a black sheep among them. She gets to experience that cold atmosphere firsthand. His family rejecting her, like they would have done to Jun if only he showed his true face, and Jun insisting she is still valuable to him with or without their approval, probably pushed her towards him even more. As the show suggested she grasped at every display of affection, no matter if it isn't quite genuine or even directed towards her (like when Suho gave her a first drink).

I'd die (live) for a friendship like theirs. If there's no deeper understanding, if our souls haven't stared at each other despite all the shame and inner ugliness, I don't want it.

What i like from these episodes are:

I really like how the director finally shows more dynamic between the two.

On my previous post, I mentioned about Jun on how he is not having any emotional baggage and I hope to see more of his character development. It turns out that he has some commitment issues and he feels co - dependent towards the people he's close with (Shim siblings)

Based on the latest episodes, seems like his family dynamic and his parent's relationship makes him less interested in building family life together with someone. Added with the fact that he grew up with Shim siblings together and he knew all their hardships. Who knows maybe he's had his heart broken before?

Meanwhile Haesung still believes in things like happy ending. But she always attracts the wrong guy and based on the previous diss from Jun in previous episodes ( where they met at the restaurant with the lead), Haesung is also attracted with bad boys and the boys who seem to readily give her all the attention she craves.

I like the fact that the youngest brother noticed Jun and Haesung's relationship instead of his and Woojo. Probably he has already thought if both of them kissing and that is why he said "i would not even care if you both kissing"

I wished we could have more interaction between Haesung and his parents. Perhaps in the next episode, she could at least help to repair their relationship?

Seems like when Haesung and the father cleared their throat, probably Haesung will be closer to his father instead of Mom?

Mom might be wary of Haesung especially since she supposedly treats Jun as her precious son. She said about wearing Yellow is not good maybe because she views Haesung as a bright person to Jun (different from Woojo and his family dynamic) and when she said see you again , she expects to see her more. Even though Mom finds out that Jun lied about his relationship with Haesung.

Jun's Mom represents all the viewers feeling who are confused about his feeling for Woojo or Haesung. But it goes to show that he cares for both girls with the intent of having different purpose (one cares as a friend and one cares the other as a girl). Jun explains in the episode to his Mom that he cares for Haesung despite his brashness towards her

I think that when Jun asked her for a drink after their family lunch, is when she knew that Jun needs alone time the most. Since she is an empath, she decides not to accept the call from the security guy because she knows that Jun needs someone to talk to. So she gladly hears his thought.

I feel bad at Haesung, she knows that she used the security guy as the rebound to forget her ex. She remembers Jun's word to about being more transparent with her feeling and emotion. She really tries to make the relationship work despite incompatibility. She starts being honest about her mental health and the prescribed medicine she took.  However since the guy seems immature and does not know much about mental health, he just casually acts as if its nothing. Meanwhile, this scene could be a key point of both Jun and Haesung's relationship. Because shit gets real now when Jun hugs Haesung back and feels her sadness.

His reaction on Ep 10 is different from the one had in the first episode where he accompanied Haesung to the karaoke and sing her heart out. Sure, he feels protective - but at that moment , it just feels like " Again? Crying about guys? Okay then, I will accompany you since your sister is nowhere to be found" . On the other hand, This time I think that this is where Jun is scared and pained when he saw Haesung crying. Because it just feels different, its not just a normal heartbreak. Even Haesung's cried is different. Seems like Haesung never hugs him/ rarely hugs him so if it happens the situation might be serious

Dong-jin x Woo-joo shippers

The previous episodes have been confusing me about Joon's character feeling. Does he have a feeling for Woojoo or Haesung?

At first I assumed that he does not have a feeling for Woojoo, instead he actually has a crush on the sister. The interesting thing that I found are:

His tone of voice when talking to Woojo and Haesung is different. With Woojo, his tone of voice is very flat , like he is just talking casually with a friend. In fact, I don't think he sees Woojo as a female and he knows really well that Woojo is stubborn and can take care of herself. However, when he is talking with Haesung - there were some occasion where his tone of voice is slower and sweet (the key takeaway was when he accompanied the sister to the karaoke or when the sister cooked a rice and he took a dirt on her eye) . It almost feels like he takes care of Haesung more instead of Woojo knowing that the sister is too naive and always has a constant of failed relationship

When Haesung invited the male lead to have a dinner with her. In that scene, Woojoo and Joon arrived at the restaurant. If he had a bit feeling for Woojo - the person that he was supposed to see is Woojo because she took the male lead's hand. In fact, he only glanced at them walking past him. Joon only focused on Haesung and then he came on her just to complain why she has no shame in getting closer to the guy etc etc

The scene where Joon was talking to Woojo about the male lead (this was when Woojo confessed her reason of working there) . Joon casually asked Woojo "is he handsome?" I thought at that point he knew that Woojo has a tiny bit feeling towards Dongjin, because he knew Woojo was not straightforward with her feeling. Woojo is a straightforward person, so if he thinks this guy is not handsome - then she should have just said no, but Woojo keeps saying "why do you think, that I saw him handsome". When Joon knew about the plan, the only thing he did was telling her to be careful. He reminded her that in his own way, knowing that Woojo will get explosive when someone reminded her (because it feels like critics to her)

When Joon walked with Woojo towards office building and he looked back at Dongjin. His expression was more of curious and wanting to know Woojo's reaction as to silently admitted to himself that the Dongjin is handsome

When Joon and Haesung had a dinner together and they were talking about wand and spells on how to make the Suho likes her . Joon's eyes follows her hand and smiles a bit which means when he saw that action - his heart fluttered. But knowing how Joon is someone who is not expressive about his feeling but interjects his feeling by talking bluntly to others - he said to Haesung that he could not take it anymore. However, I know in this scene is also confusing especially when Haesung said that " Woojo will finally find someone else to date earlier than you". He was quite about it, but I assumed that the reason of why he was quiet is because he knew the real reason of why Woojo got closer to the male lead. And then , I assumed that it was because if Woojo finally dates someone, then he will be alone because Woojo is the only friend he had. Possibly, he might mistaken his feeling for Woojo for crush/love because Woojo is the only female friend he's close with  (I feel like when Haesung kept saying 'why dont you have any friends' etc etc, I think there might be some layered to Joon's character and hopefully we can see it in the upcoming episodes)

The scene where he walked past Haesung talking at the park with Suho. Joon stayed there for a while and ended up leaving when Haesung looked at him. And this time, he followed her wish and he saw them kissing in front of the house. 

I think Joon's character is someone who is not expressive with his feeling. He's actually the only character that has no emotional baggage (as of now) and silently watches & observes everything surround him. He is the type of character that tries to divert his feeling by constantly talking with no filters around other. However, Joon is very protective and caring towards everyone close to him and I can see him being somebody who takes the lead in relationship , but at the some time he is someone who can fall harder for the girl he likes and becomes a puppy for her.

I think relationship wise, he is not quite compatible with Woojo - because Woojo is already dominant and the male lead (Dongjin) compliments her by knowing when to lead and when to allow her take a charge. Dongjin is already used being around strong woman so he is not easily intimidated by it. Of anything, male lead is always being protected by the Woojo. 

That is why I think he is compatible with Haesung, because she is too naive and always believe in fairytale. And Joon finally has some sense of protective mode towards her because Haesung cannot really judge someone by instinct. 

That is why when Joon complained with Woojo when she did not come home for a night (assuming he spent a night with the male lead), is not because he had feeling for her. But more of like being worried of her for her plans (that it will be ruined) and he wants it to stop because if she falls in love with the male lead. something will happen to her. He knows Woojo by hand and mind, so he's worried about her

But I dont know lets see the upcoming episodes to see whether he likes Woojo or Haesung. Because I still think that he might mistaken his feeling for Woojo as like/crush, but actually deep down he knows he likes the sister but he does not want to admit it. I think the director/ writer tries to make his character development as a flavoured bait to keep us entertained and keep watching the drama to find out whether he likes Woojo or Haesung

Side note: it might take some time for him to realize his feeling. and I think their story progress might be slow especially since Haesung is now having a prescribed medicine