I think I might just rant a bit today. The past few days Iāve been very hyper,feeling... absolutely insane, and I think Iām having a spiritual awakening that I am not sure what it is about yet, except for the past life things Iāve been working on and...
I just worry itās all in my head. That itās because Iām an american with no culture.
Great grandmother was native, but my great grandfather divorced her before I was born, so I donāt know anything about that. And thus it would be appropriation if I tried to dive into it. (I also donāt know which tribe she is from so I canāt even research it properly just to be informed.)
My other side is mixed European and scandanavian. But, Itās all so diluted that I donāt feel connected to that either.
I think I started doing witchcraft because I wanted to feel connected to something bigger, and I worry all the things I figure out about myself are just me wanting to be āspecialā? When Iām not, and I just donāt belong anywhere.?
I donāt know, maybe all this is to make me aware that I feel lost and need to look inward as to what I really want.
