#yjagap

Summary:

Laura Lee runs a daycare center for babies of single mothers.

Jackie Taylor got pregnant at 16 by her stupid boyfriend, had a baby at 17, and was finishing her high school studies at 18.

Both feel alone, both remember someone whose cowardice caused them to lose.

Jackie was happy for 10 years. She met Shauna when she was 6, and nothing else mattered in her life until she was 16, when she got pregnant by her stupid boyfriend at a party Shauna couldn't attend because of family problems.

Shauna accompanied her throughout her entire pregnancy, during her mother's fights with her idiot boyfriend's mother, she accompanied her when she decided she wanted NOTHING from him, she accompanied her when she was abandoned by her mother for not wanting to get married, she accompanied her when she moved in with her and Deb, she accompanied her when she achieved her emancipation, she accompanied her until the day of delivery, where after holding her hand throughout the procedure, and helping her push by kissing her face in each contraction, she was discarded.

She watched as Marilyn Taylor took the baby and accused Shauna of perverting her daughter and being the reason she didn't want to marry the baby's father, and she did nothing to stop it.

Jackie lived with her mother for 6 months and couldn't stand it anymore, she went back to Deb's, but Shauna had left.

She left him a good amount of money from a family inheritance, which Deb gave him, asking him not to ask questions.

And so here she is, trying to finish her studies and needing a daycare for little Callie because Deb was working all day.

Laura Lee recognized in her sad face someone who had lost something or someone special. She asked her nurses to give her special care and to have someone always looking after Callie.

Jackie felt uneasy every time her payment was refused by the daycare, even though it was a small amount. But the affection and adoration Callie received from the staff reminded her of what she had lost, and she continued bringing her there every day, even on days when she didn't have classes. She saw her having fun with the other babies and the nurses. She wondered if Callie would find her Shauna among those babies. She dreamed of having met her Shauna back then; six more years with her would have been beautiful.

And the figure of Laura Lee, always lurking in the shadows, could be seen walking the halls.

As the months passed, she was assigned a room and informed that an anonymous donor had contributed a large sum to improve the nursery and had requested that Callie receive special treatment, more than she already had, and that Jackie be given a room, which was actually a small house in one of the gardens with complete independence.

Laura Lee personally handed her the keys and escorted her inside the house while Callie continued to be cared for by the staff. She told her that the anonymous donor wanted Jackie and Callie to feel at home, safe, cared for, and loved, and that she would personally ensure that they wouldn't feel alone and helpless.

Jackie saw in the small wrinkles under the eyes of the caretaker that she knew the pain of loneliness; they were eyes full of empathy, but sad. The cross around her neck and her chaste, modest clothing hinted at a strong religious faith, which resonated even more when she mentioned the anonymous donor.

It was her, she knew it. She didn't know how, but it was her. Her former friends said that Shauna had agreed to be a trophy girlfriend for a tycoon; others said that she lived with her father and his new partner.

Deb didn't say anything to her, because that was Shauna's wish, but she did tell her that she knew about her space in the daycare and that she should accept it, and that they could always visit her whenever they wanted, and that their room (Jackie, Callie, and Shauna) would remain the same. Jackie had only put Callie's things in and kept Shauna's posters, photos (which were almost exclusively of the two of them), and clothes just as they had been when she was there.

Settled in their new home, Jackie felt less indebted to Deb, but more isolated.

Laura Lee attended her graduation, and upon seeing her, she felt more warmth than she had felt with her own mother. They were the same age, but the nun's aura was completely calming and affectionate, in contrast to Marilyn Taylor's cruel and judgmental presence.

Laura Lee offered to take her back to where she now lived, but then changed her mind, saying she would probably go have fun and celebrate with her classmates.

Jackie had fallen a year behind due to her pregnancy and had left the soccer team, so all her friends had graduated earlier and her social life had been reduced to a minimum.

Among her classmates, the boys saw her as easy because she'd gotten pregnant, and they only approached her to ask for casual sex and to stare at how her breasts had grown from breastfeeding. Things weren't much better with the girls; they all avoided her because their mothers told her she was a bad influence for getting pregnant and not getting married.

Only one girl spoke to her consistently, a former soccer teammate who always wore a pink cap. She immediately wanted to talk about Shauna and whether she knew where she was. This made her sad, but it also allowed her to remember her more, so she continued talking to her until the girl confessed that she had always been in love with Shauna, but had always been rejected. This initially upset Jackie, but then she felt happy to know that she hadn't been the only one left behind by Shauna, and somewhat proud that this girl had been rejected the entire time Shauna and Jackie were together, even though they weren't actually together.

So when this girl asked if she wanted to go for a drink, just the two of them, to celebrate graduation, she decided not to refuse. They could talk about Shauna and cry about her a little.

She told Laura Lee that, who became very sad, but understood. She said that if she needed her to pick her up, she could call her phone, gave her the number, and told her she would be waiting.

She felt a pang of sadness, but it was her graduation and she'd already lost so many things and people. Perhaps with Melissa she could recover something more of what she had lost to Shauna.

They ate hamburgers with a strawberry milkshake. When Jackie saw Melissa dip a french fry in it, she shed a tear. Melissa remembered copying the gesture when she saw Shauna do it at team meals at that same place years before.

He apologized, but Jackie said it wasn't necessary, that it was a happy tear, but that she needed something stronger to get through the day.

Melissa took her to a bar that was open early and didn't ask for ID if they were quiet.

The place was almost empty. They sat at the back of the bar and ordered some beers. The waitress, a woman in her thirties covered in tattoos, saw Jackie's teary eyes and gave each of them a glass of tequila on the house—to help them remember with less pain.

They both drank the tequila and laughed at how it warmed them up. They talked about future plans. Jackie told Melissa she was thinking of working at the daycare; she'd grown very fond of the staff and felt less guilty about living there if she contributed. She hadn't told Melissa how she'd gotten that space or about the anonymous donor who she was sure was the girl the blonde in the cap was still in love with.

Melissa told her that she wouldn't be going to university either; she would stay in town and work at the library. Already quite drunk, she added that she dreamed that one day Shauna would return and go there. She knew it was pathetic, but it was all she had, besides her memories.

Jackie felt a little embarrassed, and after two more beers and two more shots of tequila on the house, she felt more motivated to talk.

She told Melissa how she and Shauna used to sleep together and that she felt guilty for not letting her go further, which made Melissa's jaw drop. She confessed that at a party she had cornered a drunk Shauna and tried to kiss her, and Shauna had told her that would be cheating on Jackie, which led Melissa to believe they were simply keeping their relationship a secret until they finished high school.

Jackie cried at Shauna's display of loyalty, despite being NOTHING, and drank the rest of the beer, while feeling Melissa's hand move up her thigh under her skirt.

Her first instinct was to pull away, but then she thought about how much Melissa had desired Shauna, and how much Jackie had desired Shauna, and maybe it was the alcohol, or the way Melissa was steering the conversation, but… what if she did it? What if she celebrated her graduation with Melissa, remembering Shauna with a few kisses and caresses? No, she needed to go to the bathroom and think.

The bar was more crowded and, while he was going to the bathroom, he noticed how it was full of women…with women.

It was a lesbian bar! Melissa had taken her to a lesbian bar; that made Melissa's intentions clear. Upon entering the bathroom, she saw a scene that shocked her: a woman at least 40 years old kissing a girl not much older than Jackie passionately. The older woman had brown hair, deep, melancholic eyes, and a red plaid flannel shirt. She noticed the woman's eyes when she felt her enter the room and turned to look at her. The younger girl was dressed in a short skirt and a blouse with butterflies, almost identical to one Jackie wore.

When the older woman saw that there was no progress, she continued kissing the younger one, who was genuinely excited, so much so that she moaned when she felt the older woman's hands grab her bottom under her skirt.

Upon hearing the moan, the older woman pulled her mouth away from the younger girl's neck, which was already heavily marked with hickeys, and said, "Good girl."

Jackie came out of the bathroom and bumped right into the waitress, to whom she explained the bathroom situation, to which the waitress just laughed and said: "That's just how Shaun is."

Jackie had to hold on to the waitress when she heard the name and asked about it, receiving the answer that the girl's name was Marion Shaunssey, but her "hunting" name was Shaun.

The waitress, named Teres, accompanied Jackie to the staff restroom. At that moment, Jackie realized that, to avoid falling, she had been holding onto Teres's shirt, to which she was still attached, while the waitress supported her by the waist.

Upon reaching the bathroom, he unlocked it with a key and entered with Jackie before she could stop him. The toilet stall was enclosed by a door, offering some privacy, but next to it was a urinal. Jackie entered the stall to relieve herself when she suddenly heard someone using the urinal. "Does Teres have a penis?" she wondered. Her drunkenness, curiosity, and the scene in the other bathroom made Jackie stand on the toilet to peek over the edge, but before she could, she slipped and her foot fell into the bowl. She let out a scream of disgust and quickly left the stall.

Teres still had her fly open and gazed at a cone-shaped object that was quickly discarded by the waitress to attend to the drunk girl in front of her.

Jackie, mortified, explained the reason for the accident, and Teres laughed as she offered her a towel to take her foot out; her shoe was soaking wet. She placed it under the hand dryer and locked it so that hot air would blow steadily.

Noticing that Jackie's skills were very poor, the waitress took the girl's foot and began to clean it with the towel.

At the same time, he explained to her about the cone that allowed her to urinate standing up, a gift that her ex had brought her from Europe, one of the few good things that remained from that relationship, until his girlfriend cheated on him with a girl who had just entered university.

Jackie felt bad for the waitress, but she also felt that she wouldn't let go of her leg, which in that position was visible under her skirt, something that Teres did without much attempt at concealment.

Jackie gets uncomfortable and tells her that Melissa is surely looking for her, to which Teres replies that she was busy with a girl with brown eyes, an English literature book and a plaid shirt and that's why she had come to look for her, to give the girl some freedom of action, who, like Jackie, seemed to miss someone a lot.

Jackie smiled at the consistent pattern of the night in relation to the bar's attendees, but even more so when she imagined what Teres would think if she knew that it was the same person they both missed.

But the smile faded when Teres' hand moved up her knee to her thigh.

Jackie felt fear, but also sensations she had NEVER felt with Jeff, sensations that transported her back to moments with Shauna. This duality of emotions allowed Teres to draw Jackie closer and place her on her lap, where she began rubbing her thigh against the recent graduate's core while brazenly eyeing her cleavage, which was fuller from not breastfeeding for a month as she tried to get Callie used to formula.

Jackie tried to say something, but Teres' mouth landed on her lips as the hand on her thigh slipped under her skirt and went straight to her crotch, which was still being stimulated by the waitress' thigh. The other hand went from holding Jackie's head to maintaining the kiss, and when she loosened it, allowing Jackie to breathe, she planted herself firmly on her left breast over her blouse, making Jackie moan and wet her bra, which luckily had reinforcement for leaks.

At that moment the doorbell rang, and Jackie took the opportunity to get up and straighten her clothes. She picked up her shoe, which was now less wet, although it was like that at midnight, and dropped it as she opened the door.

It was Melissa, who had been looking for her all this time, making it clear that Teres had lied to her.

They leave the bar without paying for their drinks and run to Melissa's car. On the way, Jackie bumps head-on into Shaun, who was outside the bar smoking. Melissa drives past without noticing and continues turning the corner.

Jackie is in Shaun's arms and feels him holding her tightly around the waist so she doesn't fall.

Hey girl! Be careful, but if you're in a hurry to leave, I could take you... all the way to the bottom.

Jackie has more hands on Shaun's chest, and she can feel his breasts through her shirt. She tries to pull away, but Shaun holds her tight and with one hand pushes her back towards him, so his hands are between their breasts.

Looks like you liked what you saw in the bathroom. Want to join us? Let's keep the party going at my place.

Jackie is paralyzed, she doesn't quite understand how she got to this point, and the situation worsens when the hand on her hip starts to move down and touches her butt over her skirt, causing Jackie to push her hip forward and bump directly into what must be Shaun's dildo harness, who, feeling the approach, makes a pelvic thrust that makes Jackie tremble.

When the bar door opens, the girl who was with Shaun comes out, which Jackie assumes will lead to a jealous outburst that will end with her being able to free herself, but instead, the young girl gets behind Jackie and grabs her breasts to whisper in her ear.

I knew you liked what you saw in the bathroom! Let's keep the party going.

Jackie still couldn't say a word, while from behind the young woman poked at the single mother's buttocks and seemed to encircle the sandwich to close it more definitively.

At that moment the bar door opens again and Teres comes out, very upset, shouting that that bitch and her friend had left without paying a huge bill.

Shaun says to put it in her account because she was due to get paid today. Jackie starts to cry.

What made her cry even more was that her thoughts about who she was failing weren't just about Callie; she felt she was failing Shauna, but also…

Laura Lee stops her vehicle right in front of them and directly pushes the young woman and hits Shaun to make them loosen up on Jackie, whom she hugs protectively.

When Teres tries to claim her payment, she is confronted by the woman dressed in a jacket that covers her up to her neck, but where her crucifix is ​​visible.

You've gotten underage kids drunk for the last time! Get ready for this den of iniquity to be shut down, because you're guilty of countless violations, not just of city codes, but of the most basic moral codes. Now get out of my sight before God gives me the blessing to smash that rapist face of yours.

The waitress steps back and enters the bar to get any other minors out, fearing that the authorities are arriving.

Jackie was still clinging to her savior, but Shaun tried to get revenge on Laura Lee and pulled her away to hit her.

In that movement, part of the nun's jacket is torn, and a strong burn mark is noticeable on her neck.

At that moment the police arrive and the stalker runs away, even leaving the other young woman behind.

Jackie catches a glimpse of the mark before the older woman covers her again and starts leading her to the car. Melissa was approaching when Laura Lee glared at her, making her stop, standing right next to the other abandoned young woman.

If you were so keen to get a girl drunk so you could rape her, it seems they left one available for you, but if you go near Jackie again… not even God will have mercy on you.

Jackie gets into her caregiver's car and stares at the floor as the older woman gets in and readjusts her torn garment.

She grips the steering wheel tightly, says a prayer—mostly to herself, trying to regain her composure—and they drive off.

After two blocks, he pulls the vehicle over and removes his seatbelt.

He hugs Jackie like only one other person in the world has ever hugged her before. Are you okay?

There were no recriminations, complaints, insults, or threats. Pure and sincere concern. The daycare administrator acted like a lioness against those who were threatening Jackie, thwarting any chance Melissa had by exposing the girl's true intentions, and removing the intoxicated single mother from danger.

Now he hugs her and asks if she's okay. And despite everything that happened during those hours—the attacks, harassment, groping, and fear she endured—in Laura Lee's arms, Jackie was alright.

She felt enveloped in a sense of home and warmth. She tightened her embrace and wept on his shoulder. "I just wanted to remember her."

They remained embraced for a couple more minutes, while the nun stroked her hair and calmed her, letting her cry without asking questions or saying anything other than comforting words.

When he felt that Jackie was breathing easy again, they broke off the hug and returned to their residence.

Upon arrival, the head nurse hands Callie over to Laura Lee, who receives her and prevents the staff from approaching Jackie so they don't smell the alcohol coming from her. She tells everyone they are relieved of Callie's care until tomorrow, as she will stay with Jackie. And instead of going to Jackie's residence, they head to the administrator's office.

Upon entering, she immediately felt comfortable; it was warm, simple, and friendly. It made her feel safe in a way she hadn't felt for a long time, and that relaxed her.

The administrator was still carrying Callie, who was about to go to sleep, she had already eaten and was bathed and ready to be put to bed.

They were led to a room with a crib and baby onesies, decorated in pink and green. Jackie had always imagined her college room like this; now it was where a crib stood that her daughter would occupy. That saddened her.

Laura Lee pointed out a bathroom for her to shower in while she put the baby to bed. Jackie looked at her reflection in the mirror and felt ashamed. She locked herself in the bathroom and cried as she noticed every embarrassing detail.

Her makeup was smeared and stained all over her face, she looked like a run-over raccoon; her lipstick was peeled off in some parts and licked off in others; she looked like a cheap prostitute.

She had one shoe without a sock; it was impossible for the nurses not to notice, which is why Laura Lee had sent them away as soon as she took Callie.

Her skirt was ripped and dirty, really dirty. There were handprints and wet dirt around her buttocks, and a noticeable damp stain in front. Had she come? No, it was from slipping in the bathroom and the friction with Teres. It was that waitress's urine, but it probably looked like the residue of Jackie's orgasm. Shit! Laura Lee thinks I had sex with Melissa or Teres, or with Shaun and the young woman!

Shame keeps her crying when she notices the most pathetic thing: her blouse has large stains of breast milk that came out of her breasts during the squeezes the girls at the bar gave her.

He must have gotten Laura Lee dirty, so he put on a new coat when he got out of the car without letting Jackie notice so as not to embarrass her, and covered her up so that no one would see her.

Her appearance was pitiful. And when she took off her skirt, she noticed that she was indeed wet in her crotch, which made her cry even more.

There's a knock on the bathroom door, and despite being a sea of ​​tears, she lets her savior in; she needed a hug.

Laura Lee enters, now without her coat and carrying towels and an inner and outer robe for Jackie, as well as a set of underwear.

Jackie throws herself into his arms and hugs him, continuing to cry.

I'm so sorry, I'm such an idiot. You take care of me and Callie, you give me a home, you give me a chance to feel useful, and I... I must seem like an ungrateful bitch to you that you had to go and save because the girls I was flirting with were fighting over me.

Laura Lee loosens the hug and wipes some tears from Jackie's face, takes some wet wipes and begins to remove the smudged makeup from the single mother's face.

I don't believe ANY of that about you. You're a girl who made a youthful mistake and is now a mother because she was brave. She was braver to not stay with that jerk who got her pregnant and wasn't worth it, and she was even braver to escape a house where she and her daughter were in danger. That's what I see in you, Jackie, and that deserves my support. And I'm not giving you the house or the opportunity; you earned that. I just run this site, where we love Callie and we love you.

Jackie feels the familiarity and nostalgia of happier times once again.

I don't know how to repay you for what you do for me. I shouldn't have gone with Melissa, you're right, she probably wanted to have sex with me as a way of keeping Shauna's memory alive, and I was so drunk I don't know if I would have said no… I must seem like a…

Laura Lee puts a finger to Jackie's mouth to prevent further insults against herself.

Stop insulting yourself, it's not your fault that that girl wanted to take advantage of you.

Jackie kisses her savior's fingers; only one person had ever calmed her like that before, and she always kissed her fingers when she did. Shame overwhelmed her again.

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have... it must have seemed strange to you, you're so religious, and I... you came to get me out of a lesbian bar and saw two older lesbians fighting over who would take me to be taken advantage of because I owed them for drinks. I don't know what you think of lesbians, but you must not have a very good impression of sluts. I was so stupid and selfish, and yes, I'm fucking horny. Since Callie, I haven't been with anyone, and I don't even have space to masturbate. That damn waitress put me on her thigh and touched me a little and made me come, and if Melissa hadn't arrived, she probably would have fucked me in that dirty bathroom. And then the other one, whose name was Shaun, if the situation could get any worse... she wanted to take me to a threesome with that other girl, and I didn't defend myself... because if I fucked her, she could call me Shauna or Shau or... I'm disgusting, I'm disgusting, I'm...

And again the finger to her lips and again tranquility, and again she kissed the finger and cried and calmed down.

Do you need help taking a bath? You need to sleep and recover.

She is just like her despite being so different… she doesn't need explanations, she just lets her vent and takes care of her, and even though she's dying of embarrassment, she needs to ask him for something more.

I can bathe by myself, but I want you to come with me and wash my hair.

The adult woman helps her undress, not leering at her while she does it, but looking at her with devotion and protection.

She turns on the bathtub faucet so the water can start filling and heating. Meanwhile, she places the soaps and shampoo bottles nearby, gathers the dirty laundry, and puts it in a corner of the bathroom. At the same time, she continues removing the makeup; the lipstick is the most embarrassing for Jackie, so she decides to use her own saliva to wet a corner of the towel and remove it completely.

When the water is ready, Jackie submerges herself and feels her skin breathe again. Laura Lee removes her shirt and is left in a kind of undershirt that she remembers seeing on Deb and her own mother.

As she did so, the burn mark on her skin became clearer; it was obvious it had been there for years. She didn't feel she had the right to ask.

It wasn't necessary.

As she began washing Jackie's hair, she used a shampoo that reminded the single mother a lot of her childhood.

You're not the only one who remembers a past love. Twenty-five years ago, my father caught me kissing the only woman I've ever loved. At that time, and with a father who was a minister in our church, he thought the best way to get rid of her was to throw a pot of boiling water on me.

Jackie thinks that perhaps Marilyn Taylor would have done something like that to Shauna, and perhaps she did something similar on the day of the birth.

You didn't deserve that. You were just in love.

Laura Lee continued washing the hair and caressing the face of the single mother.

That day I escaped from my house, I took refuge with her, she fought with her family, she defended me, she loved me.

But my father accused her because I was underage. I had to return, and she was sent out of the country to avoid going to prison. We both ended up in prison: she in an arranged marriage for her father, and I dedicated to the church.

For years she avoided pregnancy, but she was eventually raped by her husband before she could escape. Her mother defended her, and she came back here. She didn't have an abortion; she was brave like you, and that's why, when she had full access to her fortune, she built this place from the ground up, including these apartments..

Jackie felt filled with that love, that's why the nursery felt so warm; it was a testament to that woman's love for Laura Lee, which is why these spaces where she lived felt so homey.

Why didn't they get back together after she ran away?

Laura Lee began to cry, but continued washing and caressing the young woman's hair.

She didn't feel worthy, the rape, her daughter. I didn't know how to approach her; my parents are still the same ones who threw that pot of water on her. We were cowards! It was a different time, and when we wanted to try, she was very sick.

Jackie was crying, it's almost her life.

Is she real? Is your lost love the mother of my Shauna?

Laura Lee hugs her and kisses her head.

She was, and she NEVER got to meet her. When she was born, she gave her here to Deb and knew she was happy. She NEVER interfered in her upbringing, but she left her entire fortune to her when she came of age. But when what happened to you happened, I managed to tell her, and she understood the responsibility. She's learning to manage EVERYTHING, but she's just like her blessed mother, even without having met her. She doesn't feel worthy of you, but she watches over you from afar. Callie has her life sorted. She set up a trust that your parents can't access in any way, and when you turn 21, you'll be able to manage it as you see fit. And you have a scholarship to Ruggers for next year if you accept it.

Jackie cries, gets up, and hugs Laura Lee.

Have you seen her? Do you know where she is? I need her!

The adult holds it in her lap and begins to dry it.

She can't be near you until she's 21. That damned Lottie father has her surrounded by lawyers trying to take everything from her. That's why the college scholarship includes the option of building a daycare center there, which I would run, so we can take care of Callie while you study. She thought of everything for you.

Jackie cries, she can't see her, she's giving her life to give Jackie a life without her parents. Oh, I see, Callie.

She loves me. She left because she saw how my mother and Jeff's mother attacked her, and I... I was such a coward, I didn't fight for her, and she sacrificed her life for me. And yet she left me alone. And she was left all alone?

The adult accompanies the single mother to bed and helps her put on her robe.

She doesn't want you alone. I've seen her a few times, and she doesn't want you alone. It's been three years; she understands your needs, which have come to light today. She'll accept whatever you decide.

Jackie lets herself be dressed and tucked in. She thinks she understands what the woman, who is now leaving her room and kissing Callie, means. Jackie doesn't get up to see her. Jackie has made a decision; she hopes to stick to it once the alcohol has left her system.

She sleeps surrounded by the warmth of her beloved, but also by the warmth of her savior's beloved. She gave Laura Lee that space to free her while she was locked away. She freed her daughter from hating her for ruining her future with Laura Lee. Lottie hated Shauna without knowing her. Lottie hated Shauna for what she meant, but she also loved her enough to allow her a chance, and Shauna took it, unaware that she was ALWAYS under scrutiny to see if she was worthy.

And yet he ALWAYS seemed to know, that's why he NEVER pressured Jackie, that's why when Jackie lost her virginity to Shauna he felt responsible and took care of her, even when Jackie was so stupid and got scared and that led her to sleep with her stupid boyfriend and get pregnant, that's why when Jackie says he didn't allow Shauna to go further he's not referring to sex but to allowing her to love him in front of others.

And yet Shauna didn't abandon her when she found out she had sex with her boyfriend to avoid admitting she was a lesbian, and she didn't abandon her when she got pregnant, and she NEVER abandoned her, until Jackie abandoned her when Callie was born.

That's why Jackie hates Callie, because Jackie is what Shauna was to Shauna's mother, the impediment to feeling worthy.

That's why Jackie hates Callie, because in her she sees the cowardice of Jackie that led Shauna to be brave for both of them.

That's why Jackie hates Callie, because as long as she's with her she can't allow herself to think about a future with Shauna, or a present with someone else.

That's why Jackie will do the same as Shauna's mother, but with one big difference—or rather, no difference at all, because she knows she'll do it right. Jackie will give her to Deb, but they'll continue caring for her at the daycare.

Because Jackie hates Callie, but she also loves her, and she loves Deb, and she knows that she too was left alone because of Shauna's sacrifice, who left her to take care of Jackie and Callie.

That's why Deb will have Callie and that will make her happy, and it will show Shauna that she is willing to be worthy, that she is willing to be brave, just as Shauna is for her.

That's why, when she got up, she informed Laura Lee of her decision, who had already done the paperwork, and when she was going to call Deb, she found her in the nursery room carrying Callie, because Shauna had also ALWAYS known and had warned Deb since the day Jackie returned from her parents' house. From that day on, Shauna, Deb, and Laura Lee knew about this outcome; they just needed Jackie to be brave.

By the end of the morning, EVERYTHING was arranged, and as soon as Jackie turned 21, she would give Deb ALL of the money for Callie, and Jackie would have her own as well.

Jackie will go to university; she had also decided this the moment Laura Lee gave her the option. She has six months to decide on her major and sort things out in the city before leaving.

After accompanying Deb to the parking lot, where her new SUV with a baby seat and full of things for both of them was waiting, she proceeded to say goodbye to Deb; she simply couldn't say goodbye to Callie, not yet.

Before going back inside the main building, Laura Lee approaches him and hands him some keys, and he sees it, making him want to cry again. An updated version of Shauna's car, the one she drove to school in EVERY day, the one she drove to every doctor's appointment, the one they kissed in for hours, the one where Shauna told her she loved her more times than she can remember, and she wouldn't respond unless she was having an orgasm.

She had a big pink and green bow that looked battered, he understood it right away, he should have seen it yesterday, but she preferred to go and do the shit she did.

Laura Lee held her and led her to the vehicle. She told her to go for a walk. That there was more to discover inside.

He hugged her and then kissed her; Jackie had decided that too.

He got into the vehicle and remembered EVERYTHING Shauna taught him, and drove out onto the road.

There were two cassettes, one with yesterday's date and the other with today's. A tear escaped, knowing that Shauna knew what was going to happen. She put in the one with the correct date.

The voice was Laura Lee's, where she told him that Shauna couldn't record the tape for the second day because that meant Jackie had rightly decided to keep going until she was 21 and then decide whether to consider Shauna worthy.

He confirmed what he already knew: that he loved her courage regarding Callie and Deb, that he supported her decision to return to daycare, that he supported whatever career she chose at university, that she should play soccer again (and there was a ball and shoes in the back seat to do so), that he even supported what she was about to do, that it would hurt, but he supported it because it would make her return to her new life more determined, and he fully trusted that she would know how not to put herself in danger by doing so, since she already knew the other person's maneuvers.

Jackie cried during the first part, because she was nobody to decide if Shauna was worthy, but she did know that when she turned 21 she should know if she still felt she deserved ALL of Shauna's sacrifice for her. Later she understood that Shauna meant exactly that, but taking the responsibility away from her until she accepted it for herself.

She put away the tape from the previous date and went where she had decided to go. When Melissa saw her, she knew she knew, invited her in, and showed her where and when it had happened—the day she was kicked out of Jackie's life. Melissa only found out days later when it became known at school.

It was beautiful, but he kept saying your name and cried a lot, but he waited until we were dressed again to do it.

"He was ALWAYS a gentleman," Jackie said before confirming that Melissa had hoped to have sex with her in the same bed as with Shauna so they could remember it together, and that the bar was a bad idea, but she wanted to get drunk to do it.

He said goodbye to her and as he was leaving again in his car he saw the young girl from yesterday arrive, accompanied by Shaun.

I'm not the only one who will keep going!

She stopped at a gas station and bought a few things; she needed to redecorate her place, and she was going to start with junk food, which she'd stopped eating because of Callie. It was her way of starting to stop hating her.

He filled his new car with alcohol and junk food, but there was still something missing before he went back.

Do you still give free drinks to people who miss someone?

Thirty minutes later, she left the bar's employee restroom and had retrieved her stocking from the previous day, as well as a cone for learning to pee standing up. She had also severely beaten that damned Teres for trying to rape her, for lying to her, and then for trying to charge her for some damn drinks with sex. The dumbbells she'd gotten at the gas station worked perfectly.

She will ask Laura Lee to get Shauna to shut down that place; it is a real danger to those who don't have a wide support network.

For a moment Jackie thought Shauna believed she would sleep with the waitress, but when she mentioned protecting herself and taking advantage of what she knew, she knew she meant when she taught her to box and use dumbbells to even out her small hands.

But she also knew that Shauna couldn't speak because she knew that if Jackie heard her voice she wouldn't be being kissed on her bed by her savior, by the extension of Shauna in this world that Shauna couldn't enter for the next three years.

If she had listened to Shauna, she wouldn't be able to put her head between Laura Lee's legs and remember what Shauna did to hers.

If she had listened to Shauna's voice, she wouldn't have allowed Laura Lee's fingers to remind her how good it feels to be taken and taken and taken again.

If she had heard Shauna's voice, she wouldn't be hearing it now from Laura Lee's lips, leading her to a surge of orgasms with Shauna's words.

If she had listened to Shauna's voice, she wouldn't be kissing Laura Lee's marks as detailed in a note in the soccer shoe box, which confirmed that Shauna was sleeping with her mother's ex-lover, and now she was handing her over and they would share that skin for three years and it would be the way they stayed together, as long as Jackie decided.

Lying in bed, Jackie asks Laura Lee if it wasn't strange sleeping with the daughter of her one true love, to which the adult simply reminds her that God's ways are mysterious and that those big brown eyes let her know…

That everything would be alright.

Jackie understood and told him that when he slept with her again, he should bring her something from him and bring something from her.

And so they did, for six months, every month, Laura Lee would travel for a week to a place that Jackie couldn't possibly know about, and boy did she try, and she would come back with new things for Jackie that she didn't understand until it was time to leave for college.

Sex with Laura Lee had become one good and new experience after another. Especially when she came back from Shauna's; they were literally having threesomes hours apart. Both of them would send her back freshly fucked so the other could get the essence of the sender from the messenger.

Jackie sometimes wondered if it was fair to her savior, but when it happened again, she stopped caring. The rest of the month she practiced with the older blonde the things Shauna sent her with her toys and other paraphernalia. A month before the trip to university, Jackie performed anal sex on the nun. She had just received four days of the same exercise from Shauna. Jackie had never felt so powerful and dominant. She repeated it throughout the month with the variations Shauna detailed for the complete enjoyment of both of them.

A couple of days before the trip to college, while packing her less urgent belongings, Jackie asked Laura Lee why she had agreed to that arrangement with her and Shauna, and Laura told her something Jackie dreaded hearing. She didn't agree with it, but it was part of her duties and obligations. She believed that just as Lottie hated Shauna, Shauna hated Lottie, and that's why her best revenge was to do what she was doing to the woman her mother had loved.

Jackie asked her if she thought Callie would hate her like that, and guessed it was a strong possibility.

The gifts were a jigsaw puzzle of clothes, books, and music for her car trips, parties, and integration into university life and sex life outside of Laura Lee, where she even recommended a teacher she herself was hiring and had rated outstandingly in the relevant areas.

Jackie didn't feel bad for Laura Lee, but she took note so as not to be like her.

He would continue seeing her every month when he went to visit her at the university to bring her the things Shauna sent; now he would spend one week with one, one with the other, and two at the daycare. Before leaving, he gave her one last quick session of anal sex; now that he knew the older woman didn't enjoy it as much, Jackie enjoyed it more.

He wondered if he could ever do something similar with his mother and believed he had the answer.

She detoured from her route to the university and quickly arrived where she had intended. Upon knocking, a smiling Melissa opened the door without asking; she seemed to be expecting someone who was clearly not Jackie.

I have a mission for you, you owe me for sleeping with my girlfriend while I had just given birth, for wanting to sleep with me while I was drunk, and for putting me at risk of almost being raped.

Melissa was trying to answer something when a slap on the butt made Jackie move inside Melissa's house. Shaun and the young girl were arriving; those were the ones the girl in the cap was waiting for.

They entered as if it were their own home, and once inside they closed the door with Jackie inside.

I see you're still looking for some action, you've come to the right place.

And he already had his hands on Jackie's butt, kneading the buttocks of the no longer single mother.

Jackie watches as Melissa and the other girl stand around doing nothing, and Shaun laughs as he moves his hips against Jackie's, making his team feel ready to work.

Actually, I think a little action would do me good; I like to start on my knees, and I think you deserve it.

Shaun, Melissa, and the other girl are shocked, and even more so when Jackie asks Shaun to make her kneel to show who's in charge, causing the bully to take her hands off Jackie's ass and put them on her shoulders, making her lower herself in front of her crotch.

During that action, Jackie put her hands in her jacket, put on her dumbbells, and as soon as Shaun unbuttoned his pants and was exposed, the show began.

Two direct blows to the adult woman's groin make her kneel while Jackie gets up and gives her two more blows to the face, making her fall to the floor almost unconscious.

You two are a couple, right? Don't let anyone hurt you again.

The answer was obvious; they had both held hands when they saw the older woman fall.

And I don't think you'll be of any use to me, Melissa, but maybe your girlfriend will be. I'll explain what you have to do, but first... let's give this damn thing some action.

She takes her own pre-made harness out of her backpack. She lifts her skirt and puts it on, finishes pulling down the trousers and boxers of the fallen older woman, and decides to skip the lubricant, remembering Laura Lee's words about duties and obligations and Shauna's about her sex life outside of the religious life.