#yeoberman

Tonight was a night he couldn't handle on his own. Sleeping in a bed with no one beside him was hard after so long, and being alone only allowed his mind to run rampant. So he crawled in between his dad and the mom they'd always told him stories about, silently latching on to both of them. Sure, he'd woken them up in the process, but he knew they would just welcome him with open arms. He squeezed his eyes shut while his back was rubbed and his hair stroked, a few tears escaping. Even so, he was happy that he could be with them. It made him feel safe and secure after those had been ripped away from him.

Hongjoong already heard Yeosang's feet quietly walking down the corridor to his shared room with Seonghwa, he wanted to pretend he was asleep but it was impossible because the worry for his child was simply too much. It was a habit he picked up back when the other was little. He would crawl over to Hongjoong's bed at night whenever he had trouble sleeping, nightmares or even just for company. He has been aware of his relationship problems for a little while and knew it was probably the reason why he looked for him and his eomma once more.

Thank you, appa. You always know just what to say. I don't want to say I'm unhappy in my own relationship, but right now I'm upset... and confused. What if I'm not the best for them?

Ah, if you keep saying such words you will make me blush. I consider myself extremely lucky, I lost him once and I never thought I would ever see him again. If it weren't for your eomma, we would have never met either. So, in a way, he brought us together too.

Yeosangie, you have never been good with communication even when you were a child. Trust me, you have improved immensely since then. I know you still struggle, but as someone who has seen your growth, you can do it. Indeed, it takes courage and honesty which are never easy, yet there's no one as courageous and honest as you.

It's okay to be unhappy in a relationship, there's no such thing as permanent happiness. There's good days and bad days, but if the bad days pile up then there is a problem. Listen, if you are not the best for them it does not mean that you're lacking in any way or that it is your fault. Sometimes some couples are not meant to be, they are not compatible and no matter how much they try they can't find a balance. One might think that love is enough, but it never is. There's couples out there that no matter how much they loved and adored each other, it just could not work because of other circumstances. You can love someone with all your heart but if you clash constantly, it is not worth the pain. At the end of the day, both parties are unhappy.

I'm sorry that I'm rambling but I just need to make sure that you understand that you are not the problem, you deserve to be happy. I don't know all the details but I just sense that they are also not the best for you because you look unhappy too. Nothing should be forced, when you are in love with the right person, everything just flows. So talk to them, see if you can find a balance in your relationship and make sure to always respect each other more than anything.

The truth is, it’s never easy. Relationships always have to be worked on and many times we forget to be a little selfish. We give too much but we also deserve to be respected and we need communication. It needs to be balanced. I love your eomma with every inch of me but we are also both very different people, almost the opposite really. But we know each other very well and we know when to back down and talk it out.