#yenni posts

genre: angst + fluff (WARNING: mentions of terminal illness]

ficstyle: bulletpoints + series  [HONGJOONG] [YUNHO] [SEONGHWA] [WOOYOUNG]

prompt: you didn’t want to tell wooyoung about your illness, so you wanted to give him one last happy memory of you two together

note: intentional lowercases / SORRY I AM NOT GOING TO WRITE FOR REQUESTS ANYMORE, I HOPE THAT YOU CAN UNDERSTAND AND THAT YOU WILL STILL READ MY WORKS WHEN I GET OUT OF THIS DEPRESSING WRITER’S BLOCK 

you smiled from the couch you were bundled up on as you watched wooyoung laced the lights around the trees 

“wooyoung, why don’t you take a break? I made you hot cocoa..” 

he immediately drops everything and dashes over to cuddle with you

“what would I do without you?” he asks as he nuzzles his face in the crook of your neck 

you were smiling but you were hurting inside

the real question is what would you do without wooyoung?

you met him one year ago on christmas eve 

you were walking out the hospital, you had just got word that you had only one year and a couple months left to live 

you tried not to look so sad but the tears just wouldn’t stop 

an adorable penguin mascot jumped in front of you and started to dance

you couldn’t help but laugh at the sudden performance 

“there you go, you shouldn’t be so sad on christmas eve!” 

you nodded as you tried to wipe your tears away

“hold on one second, I gotta be return this suit and I’ll meet you back here in a few, okay?”

you could trust this person, right?

nothing bad would happen to you since you were in the middle of the hospital plaza so you nodded once more and waited for the anonymous mascot wearer 

“hey!” 

you turned to see a handsome young guy jogging towards you, “I’m off work now.. you seem a little better..”

surely he was mistaking you for someone else, “um I think you’ve got the wrong person..”

he started dancing similarly to the penguin mascot, “remember me now?”

you chuckled out soft white puffs of clouds

“yeah..”

“I didn’t think that you were gonna wait for me.. you know, I’m a stranger after all..” the guy ruffled the hair on the back of his head

he seemed shy all of a sudden 

“well.. what do you want with me?” you didn’t mean to sound so curt but your mind was running through places that would only happen in movies 

“um.. I noticed you walking into the hospital and you know.. I’m out here dancing for 5 hours in this penguin suit so I saw you walking back out... and I saw you crying..”

“there are so many people walking in and out of the hospital... how did you even notice me?”

“who wouldn’t notice someone as beautiful as you?”

you turned down at your hands to hide your blushing face

you would blame the cold weather for your redden face if he asked 

“is everything alright?” the guy bent down to try to catch your eyes 

“I.. um.. I visited someone very close to me here at the hospital.. and there was some bad news.. and I don’t have much time with them..” 

you blurted out a lie but there’s no harm in lying to a stranger, you thought 

“how much time do they have left?” the guy made himself comfortable next to you; not too close, not too far

“a little over a year...”

“well you should make the time you have left with them worth remembering.. memories are everything.. now~”

he got up from his seat and held his hand out

“let’s go bring that frown upside down!”

you were reluctant to take his hand, “I don’t even know you..”

“but would you like to? I would like to get to know you.. if you gave me the chance..”

maybe you should give him a chance, you should be spontaneous and spend your time doing the things you’ve always wanted to do 

“I don’t see why not,” you smiled as you took his hand

he wrapped your arm to link it into his, “i’m wooyoung.. sorry for the late introduction, princess”

“and i’m y/n...” 

you spend a magical night with him 

and after that night, you spent that week with him 

and after that week, you spent that month with him

and that month became months 

and now here we are, a full circle back to this night

christmas eve 

and wooyoung still didn’t know about your illness 

you hid it as much as you could 

you built lies upon lies until it was so thick that you couldn’t shoulder the burden anymore 

but you had to 

for wooyoung 

“remember the day we met for the first time?” wooyoung asked after taking a sip of his hot cocoa

you ran your fingers through his hair

“of course I do.. you were my knight in shining penguin suit..” you smiled trying to suppress a cough

“I was the handsomest penguin but hey, I got you something! hold on one sec, kay?”

wooyoung dashed upstairs

you took that time to cough into your handkerchief; blood stained it 

you quickly shoved it into your pocket when you heard him coming back 

“heard you coughing, are you okay?”

“yeah, I just choked on some hot cocoa..”

“just making sure you’re okay.. I don’t know about you but I want to you to open your present right now instead of tomorrow morning..”

you’re gonna miss his impatience 

“sure, whatever you want..”

wooyoung gently placed the beautifully wrapped gift on your lap 

you’re gonna miss his attention to detail

he was always into arts and crafts 

you took your time to open it 

you wanted to savor every moment you had with him 

tears started to form, threatening to spill from your eyes

“I thought you’d like it..” wooyoung smiled widely and he couldn’t stop smiling 

it was a fairly large snow globe; inside were you and wooyoung building a snowman version of the exact replica of the penguin mascot wooyoung wore when you first met him

there were other small details and objects that were either the inside jokes that you two shared and your favorite things

(the song that played was a music box version of your favorite song aurora by ateez)

“I absolutely love it..” you were speechless and those were the only other words other than “thank you” and “I love you”

wooyoung pulled you into a side hug and kissed your head, “merry christmas, princess”

“merry christmas, wooyoung..”

“now, where’s my gift,” he burst out into aegyo which caused you to cringe 

“you can open it tomorrow~”

“what?! you know I can’t wait that long..”

you held both of his hands and placed them on your cheeks, “please?”

wooyoung rolled his eyes and pulled you close so that your face was hidden in the crook of his neck, “sure, sure, I guess..”

wooyoung loved the holidays; he wanted to be in charge of everything from cooking to decorations 

so when he was cooking, you took this time to relieve yourself from a year worth of burden into a letter 

you placed the letter in between the ribbon that held the present you got him together 

after dinner, you and wooyoung cozied up next to the christmas tree as you two watched the snow fall layers upon layers 

you pretended that everything was okay up until wooyoung brought up a sensitive subject, “so how’s your cousin doing? are you going to see them this christmas? since it’s their last?” 

he was drawing circles on the small of your back as you tried to slow your heartbeat down

you bit the inside of your cheeks before answering, “no.. they’re.. spending their last christmas in paris... “

“christmas in paris.. that sounds like something on my bucketlist..” you felt wooyoung’s smile through his words 

“that does sound amazing..”

“we should do it!”

your heart felt like someone wrung it like a towel, “what, christmas in paris?”

wooyoung nodded as his head shifted into the sofa; he was falling asleep

“I would love to go to paris for christmas with you..” you murmured

“I’d love to spend the rest of my life with you.. but I can’t..” you whispered even more quietly 

you waited until you could hear him snore before you slipped away from his grasp 

you kissed him one last time, trying to hold your tears back and trying to keep as quiet as you could 

you had your go bag in your car; you decided to fly off to a quiet medical facility where you could spend the last few months that you had without worrying anyone 

and hopefully the doctors can learn something from your illness so that no one else can go through the pain that you experienced

that night, wooyoung had a dream

you two were in paris for christmas 

you two indulged yourselves in good cuisine 

shopped like nobodies business 

those moments flashed by like fairy lights 

in the dream, wooyoung turned your face from looking up at the eiffle tower and took a breath

“y/n, you are everything I could ever ask for in a partner in crime.. everything you do, everything from your head to your toes.. makes me just want to ask you one question..”

he bent down on one knee; he didn’t care that his knees were getting cold and wet from the snow

“y/n.. will you marry me?”

you clasped your hands as your eyes glistened as the lights reflected off of them

“wooyoung.. I would love to.. I’d love to spend of the rest of my life with you... but I can’t...”

wooyoung felt himself falling; the abyss swallowing him and he could feel it in his stomach

the hardwood floor woke him up, he had fallen off of the couch

and he found himself all by himself 

he looked over at the table that you placed the snow globe and it was gone

he frantically looked for you

the anxiety was eating himself alive 

he found a post-it note on the christmas tree 

“open your present without me!!”

maybe you had went out to get some fresh coffee, he saw the post-it note as a good sign that you would be back 

wooyoung sat there and opened the gift you wrapped for him 

the letter fell out and his hands shook as he reached for it

“wooyoung, my knight in shining armor. there was nothing that I could ask more than to ask for your forgiveness and this is why. 

december 24th of last year, I went into the hospital hoping for good news that they had treatment for me and my condition. I wanted to grab onto any hope that I could. I didn’t want my illness to define who I was. but when my doctor told me of my limited time left on this earth, I couldn’t help but let go of all hope. there was no cousin who went to paris for christmas. that person with limited time for memories was me. 

I left the hospital planning to coop myself up in my apartment until my expiry date. until I met you. day 1, you were just a stranger who I didn’t see the use in telling the truth to. but within a couple of weeks, you became someone I didn’t want to ever lose. I wanted to create as many memorable moments with you as I can, so that when I leave this earth, I only have good moments to hold onto. 

I want you to continue making memorable moments without me.  I know I’m being selfish and I know this isn’t fair to you.. but this was the best way for us to part.. someday, I’ll just be a memory to you. thank you for the best 365 days anyone could ever ask for. and I hope that you meet someone that will replace me. thank you for giving me the chance to meet you.

i’ll always love you, wooyoung. yours truly, y/n”

wooyoung couldn’t breathe 

he wanted to look for you but he didn’t know where to start 

he didn’t even know how to feel

should he be mad at you? 

was it wrong to still be in love with you?

was it even possible to love someone else more than you?

he almost forgot the gift that you got for him

with trembling fingers, he opened the present 

it was tablet; inside the tablet there was only one app

instagram; he opened it 

you created a private account to post every moment that you had spent with each other

there was snippets of videos and photos; it was like a modern-day scrapbook 

he looked at the most recent photo that was posted last night, it was a series of pictures of you and wooyoung cuddling beside the christmas tree

it was where you shared your last conversation 

that was the moment wooyoung made himself a promise to you and he was certain that he would fulfill it in your name 

a whole year passed by 

you were probably already gone by that point; but wooyoung didn’t want to believe that

he could still feel that you were out there, looking up at the same snowy skies as him 

wooyoung was spending christmas in paris by himself; physically, but spiritually he was in paris with you 

“did you miss me?” 

wooyoung has been hearing your voice every since you left him but this one felt closer and clearer

he’s always turned around and you were never there

wooyoung knew that there was 1 in a million chance that you were going to be right there, smiling at him 

but he would turn around every single time

he thought he was seeing things 

he thought that he was getting delusional 

“y/n?”

“I know I should’ve said somethi-”

wooyoung didn’t let you finish your sentence 

he ran into you and hugged you so hard

scared that if he let go, you would disappear again 

“don’t you have questions for me?” your muffles were drowned out by his puffer jacket

“I do, but right now, I don’t want to let you go.. and right now, I only have one question for you..”

wooyoung gets on one knee, ignoring how quickly his knee felt frozen 

he kept a tight hold of your left hand 

“I love you and I always will.. there’s no one out there for me but you..y/n, you are everything I could ever ask for in a partner in crime.. everything you do, everything from your head to your toes.. makes me just want to ask you one question.. will you marry me? I’ll get a ring for you, I promise- ” ”

wooyoung kept on rambling on and on; probably from shock and adrenaline 

you thought he was mad at you all this time

you thought he forgot and moved on without you

you thought there was a 1 in a million chance that he was going to be in paris for christmas 

but you were going to take it

if there was a miracle that cured you from your illness, then maybe there’s another room in your life for a miracle 

wooyoung’s eyes lit up when you nodded with joyous tears running down your face 

wooyoung pulls you close and kisses you

“don’t ever leave me again..y/n, please..” he whispers between kisses 

“I promise..” you smiled 

you’re so thankful that you have many more christmas’s to spend with your knight in shining penguin suit 

End.

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Tagged by: @moonlit-seren

genre: FANTASY + drama + angst + violence (mentions of blood and death)

ficstyle: long oneshots + bulletpoints + fem reader

prompt: You escaped from Jaypania after Prince Chris finds out that you were a spy from Wygee. You return home to your fiance and childhood friend, Hyunjin. After finding out that your king will do everything he can to kill Prince Chris, you go back to save him. But will you make it in time?

note:  [PART 1] 

“what are you hiding behind that mask?”

you froze up; you would usually take this chance to assassinate before they could scream for help

your fight response changed to a flight one 

you were the one who wanted to run than to fight

why?

because you fell in love with the man you were sent to kill

for every step that Chris took towards you, you would take 2 steps back

this continued until your back laid flat on the ivy-covered wall

the prince’s hand slammed next to the space near your face

“who are you working for?”

you felt the trust Chris had for you disappear with every breath he took 

your eyes quivered with fear

not because you were scared of what he could do with you but what he thought of you in that moment

“ANSWER ME!” his voice broke through the muffled sound of the orchestra inside 

you flinched as he yelled, “Wygee kingdom..”

you never flinched, you were always ready to fight back

but for some reason, you couldn’t

he scoffed as he shook his head

“I can’t believe I took that scoundrel of a king’s bait... and fall for someone like you..I trusted you...all these months.. it’s almost a year now.. I trusted you..” he rose his face as he glared into your soul

your heart was smashed into pieces; like a glass slipper falling from the highest tower

“Prince Chris? are you out here?”

he looks over at the doors that opened outwards

at the sound of the big window paneled doors opening, you took that chance to escape and jumped off the balcony

you landed on the bushes of hydrangeas and disappeared into the shadows of the woods

Chris looked back and you were gone; he frantically looked around for you

a small crowd of girls flocked over to him, they questioned why he was outside by himself

one of the guards came up towards him, “are you alright, my lord?”

Chris had that chance to yell for the guards to find you

but that would mean that it was true... he fell in love with you; an enemy 

“my lord, please don’t stress out about tomorrow. your coronation is tomorrow, I’m sure you have a lot going in your mind-” the voice of the guard was beginning to be background noise

deep down Chris wanted to believe that if you weren’t from Wygee kingdom, he would’ve fell in love with you regardless

after running in the forest for a while, you sank down a big oak tree next to the moon-lit river 

you broke down crying; you didn’t even notice all the scratches and bruises you got from the branches and scrubs or even your bloodied feet 

your soft cries were muffled in the dress that Chris picked out for you

“are you ready to go home?” 

you recognized that voice before going into fighting mode; it was your fiance’s, Prince Hyunjin

you nodded without lifting your head

he swoops you up and gets back on his black steed

the ride home was nothing but silent; an occasional sound of crows and owls but there were no words between you and Hyunjin

“I don’t know what went on but father’s not mad at you..for not finishing your duty..” Hyunjin tightened the reigns as he kept his eyes on the dark roads

“what will happen?” your voice cracks as you spoke for the first time after crying

“well.. there’s a job that hasn’t been settled yet.. he’ll probably have someone else do it.. father wants you to rest”

how can you rest knowing that your king will not stop until the man you grew to love has to die?

the only you can do at this point is to lay low and work around your king’s plans

once you got back to Wygee, your king, YG, embraced you with strong arms

“I’m glad you made it home safely..”

you remembered.. this was your home and this was the man that raised you

there was a surge of selfishness in you; you wanted peace between both kingdoms... was that too much to ask for?

you bowed after his embrace and he wiped your tears 

“I don’t want you on this job anymore, I’m gonna have General Minho deal with this prince”

you shuddered at his words

General was known to be ruthless and he was the opposite of being merciful 

he was like a monster; the only thing he knows is killing in a dramatic and exaggerated manner

although he was one of the kingdom’s best swordsman, he was known for his poison arrows

he loved seeing his enemies squirm in slow agony before death

like an animal playing with the prey before eating it 

“take Y/N to her room, son”

Hyunjin nodded as he wrapped his arms around you as he escorted you to your room

“when is General Minho going to..” you looked up to Hyunjin with worried eyes

you’ve known Hyunjin all your life, he knows everything about you

Hyunjin gently pushes you up against the door o your room

“what would you do if I told you?” he places both of his arms on either sides of your face and closes the space between you and him

“will you run to the prince’s side?”

“what are you-?”

“I know, Y/N.. I watched you at the flower festival...” he chuckles away the slight ache in his heart, “I’ve never seen you smile so much..”

you knew how much Hyunjin liked you, ever since you were little

as much as you told yourself that you liked him back, it was never an honest feeling and you both knew that

“I just want you to be happy.. even if I don’t get anything in return”

he brushes a piece of your hair behind your ear

“because all I need is your smile to have a reason to live”

your eyes welt up in tears but it wouldn’t fall 

“meet me tomorrow at sunrise at our secret gate” Hyunjin smiles as he pats your head and walks down the dark halls

that night; you and Chris both looked up into the craters of the moon, wondering what will happen if you two met again 

at sunrise, you and Hyunjin were both in your steeds running towards Jaypania 

“General Minho is going to kill the prince this early?” you huffed as you and Hyunjin rode your horses at full speed

“the prince’s coronation is at noon, we have to get there before-”

there was a group of at the entrance of Jaypania; you both saw a glimpse of General Minho signalling something to a couple of soldiers after left them after making eye contact with you and Hyunjin

“he’s onto us... I’m sure he doesn’t know that back road to Jaypania.. it’ll be a little detour but with your horse, you’ll make it there in no time..” Hyunjin suggested as he took his sword of of his casing

“I’m not leaving you behind!” you couldn’t leave your childhood friend like that

Hyunjin smiles at you, “go save your prince”

he reached over to give your horse a smack, “GO!”

you had no control over your horse as it ran in the direction of the back roads

Hyunjin gave a half-hearted chuckled before attacking, “he’s one lucky bastard..”

some of the soldiers tried to follow you but Hyunjin’s horse was bigger than theirs and he fought against them to at least buy some time for you

there was so many things that ran in your mind in that moment but you did your best to focus on what was important; saving Chris

General Minho lurked in the shadows of the pillars of the closest towers near the coronation 

the coronation was held on the platform in the center of the kingdom where the sacred persimmon tree was rooted for centuries now

you made it to the kingdom in time to see his father hover the crown over Chris’s head  

at the corner of your eye, you saw General Minho drew his bow back with a red coated arrow 

you push through the crowd of civilians, hoping to make it in time

FWIP

blood trickled out of the area the arrow settled in 

the crowd gasped and screamed

Chris’s eyes widened as he fell to his knees

the king yelled for his guards to find the culprit 

General Minho shoved a sword in his heart with a smile once the guards got to him 

Chris brought you in his arms; tears rolled down his face and onto yours

like you suspected, the arrow was poisoned as the tingling sensation from your wound bled through your body

Chris reaches for the arrow to try to stop the bleeding from your right shoulder but you swat his hand away

“it’s poisoned...” you muttered, your eyes were getting foggy 

“why... why would you-” he couldn’t form a full sentence

you brought your hand to his face to wipe away his tears

“I wanted to you to trust me...” 

your hand began to slid down of his face but he frantically kept it there

“I trust you! Y/N please... please don’t go...”

you were the first girl he had ever fallen in love with and he wasn’t ready to let you go like this

he was never ready even after the fact that you were his destined enemy

Hyunjin had just arrived as he tried his best to go to you

he was stumbling as he was bleeding out from his side

Hyunjin, knowing that the arrow was poisoned, ripped it from your shoulder and tried to extract as much poison as he could

with the poison in his body, his eyes were beginning to fog up and his head was tingling in sharp electric pains but he continued to extract it from you

Chris just sat there; unable to do anything

you tried to push Hyunjin away, “you’ll die...”

but Hyunjin’s grip was stronger than yours

“then I’ll die saving you..” 

Hyunjin gave his best before smiling at you one last time as his whole body becomes numb 

“I’ll be leaving first..” his hand slips from your face

Hyunjin collapses and rolls off the platform 

you cry softly as your whole body begins to grow numb 

all Chris can do is hold you tight in his arms

you sacrificed your life for him

and Hyunjin sacrificed his life for yours

but all you could think about was breaking the trust and feelings that you and Chris both had for each other

“all of my life.. I was waiting to meet someone who was able make me smile and laugh the way that you did... thank you for that, Chris...”

that was the first time you called him by just “Chris”

you used all of your remaining strength to get up enough to kiss him on the forehead

the moment your lips left his forehead, your body had fell the same way Hyunjin’s did

in your mind and heart, you apologized to the man who raised you

you apologized to the man who loved you from the beginning of time

and you apologized to the man who you grew to love 

back at Wygee, the king was furious and broken upon news of his son and your death 

but Hyunjin’s loyal servant brought a letter to the king 

“Father, this is my will and I hope that you will carry this on under my legacy. I want there to be peace between Wygee and Jaypania. Y/N was never a pawn of this kingdom. She was the angel that was going to bring the two kingdoms together. If anything happens to either of us, it was for the cause of bringing these kingdoms together. I thank you for raising us and I apologize for too softhearted to become the strong king you’ve always wanted me to be. But you are my father before my king.”

soon after, Wygee and Jaypania became strong allies

Chris lives to be the king of Jaypania

every time he looks out into the starry skies and into the craters of the moon, he wonders what life he would be living if you were by his side 

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genre: FLUFF

ficstyle: reactions 

anon’s original message: “ Confessing to Stray Kids “

GIF originated from: @channie @spearbin @spearbe @softchangbinnie @changbeanie @realstraykids @yeochanone @raspberryminho @aquarinnie

note: I am so sorry for the lack of content, I haven’t been inspired to write... 

CHAN

(the “distracted until further noticed” type)

he’d actually wouldn’t notice you confessing to him at first

even though he’s a good listener, he’s also a big talker

you’d actually have get his attention 

once you do and you tell him again, he’d become so quiet and timid

“me? why me?”

after hearing you compliment him, he’d gush so hard

“ye-yeah.. I.. uh.. like you.. uh.. too...”

WOOJIN

(the “good listener” type)

leading up to your confession, he’d be so sweet

he’d listen to every word you say

but that would make you even more nervous

regardless, he’d encourage you to finish what you have to say

when you do, his heart would be so full

“you know I liked you for a long time too right?”

MINHO (LEEKNOW)

(the “too-excited” type) 

Minho would have an idea of what you were going to say

he’s looked at you dearly for so long

he might be a little more happy and excited

to be honest, he might cut you to it

he’d be the one to confess first 

“finally”

CHANGBIN

(the ”tsundere” type)

Changbin would be a little oblivious to the events leading up to your confession

your subtle cues will probably has him thinking 

but he’ll probably brush them off as over-thinking

until you tell him straight up

he’ll probably hide his shyness up by being tough

“I knew you were into my boyfriend materialness”

HYUNJIN

(the “prince charming” type)

hanging out with him always felt like dates

he was hoping he garnered enough strength to confess to you

but upon hearing you confess first, he’d be so soft for ya

would probably be in a cafe; he’d swipe cream onto your nose

“you really beat me to it”

JISUNG (HAN)

(the “sunshine” type)

is happy in every situation

thought you just told him you like him, like a friend

but when he realizes you were actually confessing to him, he probably won’t know what to say

his smile will be wider and bigger than usual

might divert the attention away from himself looking like a fool

“since when?”

FELIX

(the “Thank-God-Because-I-Thought-You-Liked-Someone-Else” type)

would always hang out with you 

but was scared that you had someone else in mind

when you quietly confess to him, he’d be so loud about it

insert exaggerated sighs and falling onto his knees

“okay I honestly thought you like Hyunjin...please don’t look at me like that..”

SEUNGMIN

(the “confused” type)

leading up to your confession

he’d probably do sweet things for you

when you confess to him, he’d think you were joking at first

but when you tell him you’re serious, he’ll probably have a moment of silence to collect his thought

“I KNEW IT”

pretends he knows what he’s doing but he doesn’t 

JEONGIN (I.N.)

(the “is-this-what-love-is-suppose-to-feel-like” type)

likes you without even knowing it

when you confess, he recollects the scenes of kdramas he’s watched

(is this a confession??)

when you take his silence for a rejection and try to walk away, he’ll grab your hand

“I don’t know if I’m doing this right but... I like you too...”

wraps you in a hug and asks you to promise him that you won’t tell his hyungs

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