#yeaaahh

my oc (Flashchrome) and my friend's oc, Codfetti (Skyshredder) who I love so dearly; I know this post probs wont get much attention with it being ocs n shit I just love them mmm HGRHRGJKSGH stupid gamer earth streamer blue yellow bug thing car and then stupid. jet guy thing; i love them

comic below....heh.....

Is there an actual reason to stay

Because I could kill someone and not care whiever they are, thats my thing

People say

Oh well your friends and your family

My mom dosent liek me and I just make everything worse I try to hard or not ehough I keep telling myself that its ok, ive started to lie to myself to try and convince myself that its worth it

Its really not

I feel like im faking it but im not

Im suffering but I dont know how to deal with my "emotions"?

I was never takes seriously or just thrown to the side

I want ro stay but I dont Think I can do this anymore at the rate thus is going

I want to feel like im wanted and not just from pity or because my friends are dating now and they won't tell us or even like..

He's only nice because he wants to make a good impression on her

He dosent like me probbably

He's only here for her

And i know im aroace but I want to feel GENUINE love

Not some fake thing thats just to impress someone else

I feel wrong in my body and my mind won't listen to me

I want to end it but i dont Wanna make my friends suffer

They've been through enough allready

Butt I at the same time do t care

But i cant

Not the way I was shaped

I was told that j dont Matter and my opinion dosent matter and im not valid

Seems childish but it does shit to ya

I feel like i dont Really matter

I feel like im only there for the thrill of the moment

And then tossed away after I got boring

I've been throu a lot but I tell myself im overreacting

Just like everyone else did

I don't even know who I am anymore

I havent since I was 8

I dont Know who or what I am

What i like

Who i like

Its all an act at this point

And i do t know how long im staying

Im on my balcony

3 stories high

But that's not high enough

But if I fail at it maybe my mom will notice that im not faking it and that im not insane, yet

Maybe I am

I dont Know if i like anything

Or anyone

oc from @aro-aizawa. My hands got possessed