#xiaolinchase

By the time Guan stops running, he is nearly on the edge of his temple's mountainside. Breathing heavily through his nose, the master monk practically collapses onto the ground and, through sheer habit, forces his legs into the standard lotus position. Now that he was actually...away from the Chases...he's not so sure what he meant to accomplish, in the first place. 'It is so unlike me to just jump into things without having...an idea or a plan. Yet, it seems like with Chase, I've been nothing but reckless!' Well...this was certainly a fine situation. Guan really can't say...WHAT came over him. He just looks at Young...with Chase...and, really, with all that he sees on a daily basis in the on-going war between the Xiaolin and Heylin sides...Guan can admit, now that he is alone, that it really...wasn't that hard to accept. 'Not compared to other things, I suppose,' he thinks a bit wryly. Like Bean being...somewhat of a part and a byproduct of Dashi, himself...or having lived as long as he did (and how)... Honestly, Guan has no qualms with attraction, even if, technically, this one was to SELF. And, really, if one's own master is themselves, as Guan had always strived for in belief and in how he lives his life, then Chase being with...Young...could be absolutely beneficial; maybe it actually was, and Guan had been too quick to overlook it. However, if Guan was actually being honest with himself, it had a deal to do with Young being who he was...and Chase...allowing him to be so close...He shouldn't be allowed to be that CLOSE. Young takes pleasure in terrorizing others; he knows no compassion (or maybe Guan had never bothered to look for it, he admits to himself, but reluctantly so), even though his honor still tends to hold strong in most of his decisions and actions. ...By the gods, WHY was this situation, to use a term he had heard from Raimundo, driving him up the wall? Chase...what was really the issue, here? It was almost physically painful to see Chase in such a...precarious situation. Sighing and shaking his head in frustration, Guan rests his head in hands.

He does not know what is truly keeping him from coming to terms with this...but, for the sake of Chase...who he truly does care for, despite his reckless, hurtful actions, earlier...he HAS to overcome it.

*swallows nervously as Guan’s face darkens, remembering why he had yet to ever win an argument against his friend. Then sighs as Guan admits that Heylin Chase was the problem, knowing he couldn’t hide the truth from him anymore.*

I understand…he can be very untrustworthy, and I know he has hurt you in the past…but…I do see something withinghim..when we’re together, he seems to become calmer and more rational. He treats me as an equal, rather than as just intuder, per se..

*stands up also, and reaches out to grab his friend’s arm to stop him going far and murmers softly, knowing that he could end their friendship again with this one statement*

I think….no, I know he acts differently with me is because…..because we love each other.

Guan hears his friend sigh and something within him, behind a feeling of slight guilt, rears up defensive walls.

He is suddenly hit by the foreboding feeling that had so far only been present during deep meditation or sleep. Whatever Chase is going to say...

But when Chase grabs him, reveals his secret...and...and it's somehow not surprising, and in the back of his mind, Guan knows he should be surprised, how can you not be surprised...Everything goes blank.

It's all he can do not to let his jaw drop--but then, he still cannot feel surprised...but there is shock and something dark and hurt and he...he has to say something. Chase wants him to say something.

Chase....good Chase, who is--(was? no, no, IS)--his friend....he says that he and his evil half are in LOVE and he wants Guan to answer him. His friend.

xiaolinchase replied to your post: *walks towards him and Good Jack, looking depressed* We should go now. I’m going to head back to the temple. Thanks for your help.

I suppose, but still… *sighs* (Timeskip! Out by the temple) Thanks, you two. I’ll see you later… *smiles slightly* But Spicer. After today…everything goes back to normal..sounds good to you?

Yeah, yeah, I know.

xiaolinchase replied to your post: xiaolinchase replied to your post: xiaolinchase...

Maaaybe if you quit talking like that I WON’T kick your face in. *vein throb*

Naaaaaaaaaaaah.