#xbff

Actually, dati bitter na bitter ako. Simula nung magcollege, nagbago na ang lahat e. Yung mga "promises" sa isa't isa na ginawaan pa namin ng sulat at nilagdaan para lang magawa at matupad yung mga bagay na nakalagay doon, ayon lumipas na tulad ng paglipas ng panahon. Waht.

De, ayon. Okay na ako ngayon. Tanggap ko na. Hahaha. Tunay ngang pag may umalis sa buhay mo, may mga taong darating na mas better. Odiba, "mas" na, "better" pa. Hahaha.

Masasabi kong "tanggap ko na nang buong puso" na hindi na kami magiging tulad ng dati kasi kaya ko nang makitang may iba na siyang kasama o may ibang katawagang bestfriend, and wala na talaga akong nararamdamang tampo, inis o galit. Kapag nakikita ko siya sa school, pormal naman, konting kwentuhan tapos gora na din agad dahil may kanya-kanya nang mga kaibigan.

Ewan ko, nasanay nalang din siguro ako. Waaht. De, may mga tao kasing pumuna ng mga pagkukulang niya. I mean, nung mga panahong kailangan ko siya, kailangan ko ng kaibigan, masasandalan, at mapaglalabasan ng sama ng loob, may ibang taong dumating at pumalit. Haha. Wala, nashare ko lang.

Masaya naman ako na naging kaibigan ko siya. Marami akong bagay na naexperience at nagawa na kasama siya't hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan. Marami rin akong mga first time kasama siya, mga kalokohan at kabaliwan na natatawa pa rin ako pag naaalala ko hanggang ngayon. Haha. May mga tao talaga na makakasama mo sa mga "first time's" ng buhay mo pero hindi mo makakasama hanggang sa "last time's" kaya naman, ayun, wag ka lang mageexpect na lahat ng makakasama mo ngayon eh makakasama mo hanggang sa dulo, na sasamahan ka nila hanggang sa huli. Waaht #whogoat lol

Gusto ko lang ilabas 'to kasi ito na yung parang "closing remarks" ko sa mga bagay-bagay. Mahirap yung may itinatago ka pa. Okay na ang lahat pero kailangan mo paring itaktak ng bongga para wala nang matira. Hahahaha. Pero hindi naman lahat ng kadramahan ko sa buhay ay tungkol dito sa x-bff ko. Saka ko na 'yun isusulat dito kapag handa na akong ikwento ang mga bagay na sobrang kumplikado. Waaht. Hahahaha.

So yun. You will be missed, my dear. I will never ever forget those happy memories that I had with you. Aaand, I never regret that you came into my life. I love you still. (Hanep english!)

PS: Babae yung bestfriend ko.

Hey!

How’ve you been? I hope you’re doing well. I can’t believe it’s almost been a whole year since we’ve last spoken. A whole 12 months since we’ve last been friends. How time flies, right? Haha What about your birds? Have they had more eggs? Have you gotten your first boyfriend yet? How much has your art improved? Do you plan on still giving me that list, or have you trashed that idea long ago? Are you still working at McDonalds? How has your dad been? Is Sandra still living with you? Have you finally realized how good your art is yet? Do you still throw away your old art? Do you still have all the stuff I gave you? Have you replaced me yet? Haha

There’s still so much I never got to tell you! I shipped Mabel with Lyo (is that his name? I forgot haha) I knew what you meant when you said you wanted to bring the families together and I would have liked that. KO shipping meant them! I was too embarrassed to tell you in case you ever did change your mind. I also wanted to ship our ff15 characters together but I couldn’t! They were perfect the way they were! We still never did that Dancing in the Rain video or Somebody I Used to Know video. 

I look back sometimes, and I miss those happy moments. I still cherish our time together.

Granted, for a time, I was angry. How could you let our friendship go so easily? Why didn’t you want to talk through it like adults? I was hurt and confused. I didn’t understand why. The first few months were agonizing for me. I lost my best friend in a matter of seconds, and that was a lot to take in. I truly valued our friendship, but time heals all wounds.

I still have hope though. I hope for a lot of things.

I hope this reaches you someday. I hope you can forgive me. I hope we can go back to how we were before all of this, however unlikely that may be. I hope you miss me, but I also hope you are happier without me. I hope you moved on, but part of me wishes you sometimes think about me too.

I can’t say I forgive you because there’s nothing to forgive. Honestly, I would have done the same thing if I was in your shoes (but I would have done it a LOT nicer haha)

I regret I didn’t know you as much as you knew me.