#xavier ducava

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don’t eat just play don’t fight not today don’t eat don’t eat

Chelle? baby you’ve got to eat something. 87 pounds soaking wet. baby you’ve got to eat something.

lay awake lie to God before i go to sleep. fucking sod

shouldn’t say that about sod.

...ha ... :)

I got a laugh out of you a weak smile out of you

...yeah

are you okay?

no

...i can’t do anything can i?

no

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can’t do without doubt or you sitting with one knee up on the bed. Breakfast in bed?

You suspect something

Naturally

planting kisses when only yesterday i wanted you dead the day before i couldn’t imagine a moment where you were not can’t do without all that doubt i’m not good enough and neither are you.

Chelle.

tell me that you’re sorry sorry that i live with you and apologize because i fell for you. ...but i... ...for u... How much oxytocin Do you need To throw in the trash bin Before love-

Our love isn’t like the others.

Xavi, ple-

Why did you make me breakfast in bed?

Addiction to the memory of lust. Addiction to the memory of the dopamine rush i used to get when i thought about you. i still get that rush sometimes but most times i feel out of touch with-Xavi, that’s the gluten-free toast.

We will get through this.

The gluten-free toast is for me.

Chelle.

I don’t like gluten.

Chelle, look at me.

I don’t have siliac’s.

Chelle, honey, where are you right now. Are you with me? Stay with me.

can’t do without doubt. Can’t stay. Don’t have a-

Neither do I. ... I’m... The eggs are delicious.

I made them with love.

Ha. Cute.

tell me i’m worth this i’ve never really known if-- ...fuckin vasopressin

Chelle

What, Xavi?

are you okay Nothing i need you to be okay be okay for me I just wanted to let you know this toast is also super good.

it’s just toast. regrets before sunsets everyday too many awe inspiring sunsets on a horizon made of regret. we all die it’s just toast

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how dare the bear compare you two to me. REPTILE-

I’m not-

REPTILE!

Xavi, please calm-

.../...

Xavi-

It looks so pretty need to look petty in front of this our fucking petticoat wedding

that’s not how I feel about you Xavi!

I can’t think I can’t think

breathe baby i’ll call the psychiatrist

i- ...

XAVI!