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Yesterday taught me something. The day felt confused at first, but the lesson became clear in a dream last night. Emotional intensity isn’t a glitch in our system, it’s part of who we’re meant to be. When emotions are allowed to flow and be embodied rather than repressed, we can live inside them without being overtaken. In the dream, I stood on a bridge still under construction while the world…

A long while ago in meditation I saw a flash of light. My meditation timer sounded, and then there was a large crack sound. Startled and looked over. The candle wax had split in the shape of a cross…. I reached out to a mentor at the time, ‘What does it mean?’ She wrote back, ‘Only you can decide that’…I was so frustrated… Now, years later, I have a new understanding of what she meant. If I…

"As I relinquished control, slowed down, and trusted, the world did not end. Instead, things fell into place." – R A Brookfield https://t.co/dYqSxn7R6A https://t.co/Iuv5FAZtKw

Yesterday felt like a weight lifting, an old trauma finally falling away. I spent the day writing a piece my mind kept shouting no to, out of fear, but I chose to write anyway. As I wrote and practiced playing The River Flows in You, tears came, the weight lifted, and it felt like space was being cleared for something new. Each time I heal another layer of this trauma, the old stiffness in my…

I used to tell my children "You must not allow your emotions to control you!" — with an air of 'get a hold of yourself' mixed in with it. Now I think I would say it differently: "Allow your emotions to guide you, but not to rule you." https://t.co/bH6rec8B53

Yesterday felt liminal, and I noticed something new. Small things that cause me to tense up, physically, in ways I’d never been aware of before. I find myself wondering how I ever lived without noticing this tension at all. Lately I’ve been witnessing it more and more, and it feels as real and visceral as anything else I experience. I’ve always noticed it during major events, but now it’s…

This weekend something has been forming…not sure what it is, or how to write about it yet. It feels expansive. Exploratory. Playful. https://t.co/tX9J0guJLy