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It didn’t die, I just started school :( I *want* to finish it, I just have a lot of shit to divide my time between :(

Enjolras Fauchelevent pre-transition vs 5 years on T (models are Emil Andersson and Hedvig Palm)  (WTIHK-verse specific. I don’t rlly rep white Enj anymore.) 

WIP for the Chapter 7 cover art. Everything sucks right now, please send me messages to distract me. :/

It has been six years since Grantaire last saw the twins Angèle and Cosette; six years since they were mysteriously adopted on Christmas Day. Grantaire remained a foster at the Thénardier home until he could leave for university, and although it has been years, he still aches for the fiery girl in the attic. In his third year at University, he finds himself thinking of her again, painting her again, beginning to burn all over again for reasons he can’t explain. Meanwhile, his lovely roommate, dear friend and casual fuckbuddy Jehan Prouvaire has found a new social group. They are a hopeful assembly of student would-be-revolutionaries, containing friends both old and new and an onslaught of tensions to be resolved. Grantaire is not moved by their politics but he finds them fantastic company, and it is only after he has been truly absorbed into their number that he can be arsed to attend a meeting. There he meets the final member of their group, the Fearless Leader… for the second time.

As I think I said on the post, the two playlists both follow a part of the narrative:The first playlist starts out being about the time Enjolras and Grantaire spent together in the Thenardier home.“on a soiled mattress we drift to the attic where the dust collects on your long eyelashesthey say open up a window and stand in the sunshinebut you hide in the shadows because the light goes right through youyou’re a ghost, you’re a ghost, you’re a ghost of my mind”- Fleurs Captives, Nicole Dollanganger“It can see you through these dark days,Though they seem to darken as I go.Our love will see us through these dark, dark days sister,'Til it lights the way back home.Sister, hide our love away.It can turn the whole world upside down,Shake it 'til the sky falls to the ground.We don't have to reap the fear they sow,Friends, as long as we hide our love away,In the good they'll never know.”- Dark Days, Punch Brothers“We were tight knit boysBrothers in more than nameYou would kill for meAnd knew that I'd do the sameAnd it cut me sharpHearing you'd gone awayBut everything goes awayYeah everything goes away”- Always Gold, Radical FaceFrom there it transitions into Grantaire after the loss of Angele - it starts out hopeful and loving and sweet and becomes increasingly desperate and tragic and finally, resigned. “And though the sand may be washed by the seaAnd the old will be lost in the newWell four will not wait for threeFor three never waited for twoAnd though you will not wait for meI’ll wait for you”- Patient Love, Passenger (Catherine Rhodes cover)“I will remember your face'Cause I am still in love with that placeBut when the stars are the only things we shareWill you be there?”- Atlas Hands, Benjamin Francis Leftwich“Crash landStill I cant find you,And just as things were looking upWe're fucked...Because I'm stuck here on this islandAnd I lost her all over againNothing gets better than memoriesWhen all you have are memories for friends.”- Crash Land, Twin Atlantic“You've haunted me all my lifeThrough endless days and countless nightsThere was a storm when I was just a kidStripped the last coat of innocence...And so I wait but I never seem to learnHow to capture your diminishing returnsI still see you through the eyes of a childNot even thinking we could tame the wild...You've haunted me all my lifeYou've haunted me all my lifeYou are the mistress I can't make a wifeAnd you've haunted me all my life”- You’ve Haunted Me All My Life, Death Cab for CutieAnd Part II starts with Enjolras as a mentally ill trans kid struggling with anxiety, PTSD, anorexia and trying to get a grasp on his identity. "Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't moveAwake but cannot open my eyesAnd the weight is crushing down on my lungs I know I can't breatheAnd hope someone will save me this time...But you'll fight and you'll make it throughYou'll fake it if you have toAnd you'll show up for work with a smileYou'll be better you'll be smarterAnd more grown up and a better daughterOr son and a real good friend”- A Better Son/Daughter, Rilo Kiley“My body is the enemyI don’t feel the way I shouldIt always leads down an empty streetIt brings me nothin’ good”- OMG, Mansions“I am a slave, I’m under house arrestI am the beater, I am beaten for lessThan being punk and feeling anger swellAnd so I don my beaded dress and finger bellsShara, now get to workShara, this is going to hurtBe brave dear oneBe changed or be undoneBe brave dear oneBe changed or be undone, undone”- Be Brave, My Brightest DiamondAnd it transitions into Enjolras and Grantaire’s reunion and their building relationship.“you were one for the secret glances, trading mom and dad romanceswe can't be him and she and in a dream you rest in piecesi will keep your secrets safe lord knows i'm the one to do iti will speak your language, i'm the one to do it”- Dog Physics, Plaid Dragon“Oh, I've been worryin' that my time is a little unclearI've been worryin' that I'm losing the ones I hold dearI've been worryin' that we all live our lives in the confines of fearOh, I will become what I deserve (x4)”- The Fear, Ben Howard“I felt no painWhen you changed your nameWe were each other's only family...And I know you feel isolatedAnd I feel what you won't sayI don't care if the disbelievers don't understandYou're my pretty boy, always”- Pretty Boy, Young Galaxy