AESTHETICS

you’re always cold ( cold hands, cold feet ), born on the coldest day of the year, breathing in snowflakes and chill lining your lungs ; it’s only fitting you came to love a sport carved into ice.

you feel warm when you look at him, though, even if you know nothing can happen — still it’s nice to be warm. ( the fear of being found out, exposed, is COLD ).

sweat drips down your back : one bead for every sacrifice, for whatever it takes to make it to the nhl. the bruises on your body never heal before the next: knuckles, ribs, legs, arms — who you are on the ice doesn’t match up with what they see off it, at least what they think they see.

easy smiles are your mask, jokes and amicability not quite a facade ( they’re REAL enough ), but there’s so much behind them no one gets to — you don’t let them.

you burn cold, so used to the feeling of freezing that sometimes the warmth HURTS — but god knows, you’ll protect anything that makes that cold fire in you turn HOT.

THE STORY

— will feather was born on the coldest day of the year in a snowstorm, it was only fitting then he would love the cold like nothing else. he fell in love with skating long before he did the sport of hockey : he loved how it made him feel, how exhilarating and freeing it was. when he was eight, he picked up his first hockey stick ( a little LATE by some standards ) and fell in love again.

— he was born in minnesota but his family moved to buffalo when he was ten. he ended up playing for the junior sabres through his adolescent years ; also playing soccer and lacrosse.

— he was offered a scholarship to play on the lockwood hockey team his senior year of high school, something he jumped on immediately. the summer after his high school graduation, he was also drafted in the third round of the 2016 nhl draft 99th overall in his hometown team to his hometown team the buffalo sabres.

— meeting matt ( @fiieldloved ) was a complete ACCIDENT. back at home in buffalo he wasn’t more than a face in the hallway, some vaguely hot face that’d yelled at him he needed to find his keys NOW, but still just a face. that is until some poor intern in the front office saw the word HOCKEY and concluded they had to be on the same team — no matter that matt played FIELD HOCKEY and will played ICE HOCKEY.

— they never did bother to correct the mistake, and that front office mistake would become of the best things to happen to him since hockey. they became fast friends, and certainly the fact will was almost always a sure form of transportation back home helped. frequent hour and a half hour drives are enough to make anyone friends.

— matt was easy to hang out with and a good, loyal friend ; and as much as will loved his teammates, it was nice to have someone outside the team to talk to.

➤ MISC 

—- will spends his summers not in buffalo but in minnesota at his family’s lake house. he 100% has that dumb minnesota energy and posts videos to his insta story of him wakeboarding all the time. when he’s not training and preparing for the season or playing in da beauty league ( a summer minnesota hockey league ), he’s probably on a boat.

— will is extremely loyal to the people close to him, especially his teammates and matt friends. he once beat someone up pretty badly for hurting matt. they really don’t talk about it.

— his parents are devout christians ; will is not.

— he doesn’t believe in romantic love, really. he really does like matt though and he’s not sure how to feel about that. so he’s going to not think about it for now. the other problem with matt is also that he’s, well, a guy. he’s terrified of his feelings being found out. and now with all this bs with the cameras everywhere, he’s almost paranoid about it.

— PLAYING STYLE: he’s a defenseman, kinda like will borgen. has an offensive upside but is mostly a defensive defenseman and quite physical, isn’t afraid to get in players’ faces or under their skin, has gotten into more than his fair share of scrapes, adds that “grit” to a lineup. the kind to be a menace on the ice but invaluable in the locker room ; loyal to a fault, willing to protect anyone on the team. the fact that he may be considered an undersized defenseman at 5′11″ is something completely lost on him.

— personality-wise he’s mostly easy-going but he’s got some sharp edges and sometimes tends to come across a bit curt. he’s most relaxed around matt and his team. he’s a very private person and doesn’t tell much ; it’s not super obvious though, because he’s still personable and likes to keep things light.

— he’s the kind of person that you don’t really know is there all the time. will’s very light on his and feet and stealthy despite his size, mostly likely due from a childhood full of tiptoeing around. he doesn’t see much use in standing out — he has his team, the rest he’ll figure out as he goes.

— he’s studying aeronautics because the one thing he wanted to be besides a hockey player is a pilot.

this is truly going to be....a mess ‘cause he’s a new muse of mine so still getting a feel for him ! i also am not sure exactly which triggers to tag but there’s mentions of death, mental illness, stalking, grief, murder 

ok landon was born & raised in kansas ! country boooy i looove u blegh. both of his parents are doctors & they own a huge plot of land that they built their house on when landon was just a lil baby. his mom is also obsessed w golden retrievers so they had like 4 of them omg. his home life was good, he’s close w his parents, had nothing to complain about ! 

he was really popular growing up. despite being kinda shy he played sports, had a solid group of friends, was good looking & well liked. he was that jock that was friends with literally EVERYONE like would walk down the hall & everyone would greet him. outside of sports he spent a lot of time writing. his mom encouraged him to start keeping a journal when he was 13 & his friends gave him a lot of shit for it but it’s been 10 yrs & he hasn’t stopped writing. he keeps every notebook too so he could literally look back on every day of his life for the last ten yrs which i think is pretty fcking neato. 

after graduating high school he attended a local college. his grades were great & he could have gone to school anywhere but he wanted to stay close to his high school sweetheart. he’s only ever been in one relationship ! he met her when they were 15 & he didn’t see himself w anyone else...wanted to marry this girl so bad

about one yr ago was when things started to get rocky...he was at this frat party & there was this girl there that everyone kinda outcasted & he knew that she was only invited to the party as a joke which made him feel :( so he went out of his way to talk to her in fact he even made sure to ask his gf if she was ok w him just...spending the entire party w this girl just to piss off everyone that was being mean to her ! & so he did he spent the whole night w her & made sure she had a lot of fun then gave her a ride home 

things were fine for a few weeks i mean he noticed that this girl seemed kinda off...like she was always where he was ? if he was eating at a diner w his friends she happened to be at the same diner at the same time, he would walk across the courtyard to go to class & see her head following him like shamelessly staring...it was pretty uncomfortable but he didn’t think much of it 

exactly three weeks after the party ( literally same day of the week as the party & everything ) the first body was found. one of his guy friends was murdered & it sent the entire school into a panic ‘cause no one knew what happened ? the town had been so quiet for so long it didn’t make much sense. as time when on things started getting creepier....he would find love letters in his locker but they never said who they were from, he was receiving cryptic texts messages & boxes of strange gifts on his doorstep which had him thinking he was the next target & then Yikes only a week after the first body was found they found another one & it happened to be ANOTHER one of his friends this time it was the girlfriend of one of the guy’s...at that point he was confused & completely terrified 

things were quiet for a couple months after that & he hadn’t even noticed the girl from the party watching him anymore which put him at ease a little bit ! he wanted to get away from it all at that point so him & his girl were planning a trip out of state & he was planning on popping the big question omg he had it all planned out & bought a really cheap ring but it was still cute she would have LOVED it ! he hadn’t even told anyone besides his family about his plan to propose but for some reason....someone knew & he was getting letters in his locker again but this time they weren’t love letters they were ANGRY & he had no idea where it was coming from. that’s when he started seeing the girl from the party again but she wasn’t being sneaky anymore she was approaching him in the hall, claiming things that weren’t true like asking him why he slept w her & then stopped talking to her....he was thinkin in his head “omfg this bitch crazy” ‘cause literally ALL he did was give her a ride home from a party but he was too nice to like say that to her face especially ‘cause he knew that she like...wasn’t all there 

THIS IS GETTING LONG SO long story short....the last body that was found was his gf right before they planned to go on their trip :/ he was fcking devastated and was starting to put the pieces together so he confronted the girl from the party ( i really should give her a name uuuuhhhh juliet ok her name is juliet ) & she just completely SNAPPED in front of him it was so crazy she was like threatening him, chased him w a knife, tried to convince him that what she did was FOR HIM wow a whole mess. he ended up having to like attack her & hold her down until the cops got there & she confessed to everything 

flash forward to today ! it took him a few months to get back to his normal life for obvious reasons but without his sweetheart holding him down back in kansas he decided to transfer schools & now he attends lockwood. he’s a psychology major but he kinda struggles w it like his grades aren’t the best rn

personality wise he hasn’t changed much he’s still v sweet, likable, doesn’t play any sports but he works out a lot, he looks more disheveled than he use to but do you blame him ? he stills writes everyday, doesn’t go out as much anymore like parties ? scare the shit out of him but...after he scopes out the area & feels safe he’ll get really shitfaced 

he tries hard not to live his life in fear ‘cause he knows he SHOULD feel safe now that she’s behind bars buuuuuut he really doesnt. the situation was just so out of no where he’s terrified that it could happen again if he doesn’t notice the signs & now he thinks he knows how to notice them but he really....does not...he’s just paranoid & will not hesitant to accuse anyone of being a murderer 

he’s a tier 1 shepherd he just likes to gather as much info on people as he can in case he feels like anyone might be doing something sketchy or potentially harmful he feels like it’s his job to stop it now that he’s lived through it ? 

he’s still shy af that’s something he never grew out of but he’s so....sweet like his voice is soft & quiet & he’s too nice to tell people to fuck off so he holds conversations well even when he gives short responses it’s always “how are you” & he genuinely cares how people around him are doing when he asks it yea he’s that guy 

he smokes weed now but it’s more of a recent thing he started doing since moving here ( feel free to be the person that got him into it ) it helps with his anxiety so much if you asked him about it he’d go on & on about how much he likes it....he’s a new smoker that’s how it be 

he struggles a lot w past trauma now....reasonably ! it was a horrible situation to be in & he really didn’t deserve it :( even when she was bein crazy he was still nice to her like probably felt so bad & tried to justify her actions even though they weren’t justifiable & she p much ruined his entire life 

i tried to shorten this but i couldn’t so tl;dr - born in venezuela, teenage parents, religious mom, sketchy dad who took her pickpocketing on sundays as a family activity. during the week he was involved in shadier business, mom moved with her to america to get her away from him. death // mom died in a car crash, the samuels took her in. she’s got a kind heart but still some issues with acknowledging private property as something she can’t just take.

maria de los milagros morales was born in valencia, venezuela, on a sunny day, to a complicated life. her parents were barely sixteen, and neither of them had a cent. it was a classic bad boy meets good girl sort of story, except now mili’s mom had many regrets and her dad was still the same troublesome kid he’d always been.

after mili was born, her mom could barely look at her. she was a very religious girl who’d made a terrible mistake that had got her shunned from her family.  and she couldn’t help resenting mili. it was hard for mili, having to earn her mother’s love when she couldn’t understand what she’d done to lose it in the first place.

her dad had it easier — he was still living at his own place, only saw mili when he felt like it, and was therefore more of a cool uncle that she loved with a passion. everything he did was amazing in her eyes, and she thought him to be the funniest person in the whole wide world, always coming up with new games for them, and never shutting her out. 

mili was about eight when her mother, having slowly grown to care for her baby girl, finally started paying attention to her constant ranting and realized what exactly it was she was doing with her dad. mili was an adorable little girl, very outgoing and always talking to anyone who came near her, which meant she could be very distracting. he’d taught her the rules to all sorts of games that they played on the street — he’d always been light-fingered and it seemed to run in the family, ‘cause she’d turned out to be brilliant at it. if people weren’t careful with their money and they let someone take it from them, it meant they hadn’t cared enough about it in the first place, so it didn’t matter if they took it. it was game, even if it was slowly escalating, and though mili suspected sometimes it wasn’t as okay as her dad made it out to be, she could also tell he was so proud of her for helping him out, and that was enough for her to not give a shit about it.

what mili didn’t know was that pickpocketing was the least dangerous of her dad’s activities, but her mom was quick to find out about all the rest once she started paying attention. he was in deep shit, and her mom had seen enough to know really soon, it would mean trouble for all of them. she’d been saving money for years with mili’s future in mind, and now it seemed like the only chance of her even having one at all was if she got them both out of there.

there’s a gap in the story because mili was a child and she’s not sure how it went down. she knows her mom begged her family to help, and eventually her grandma mentioned something about some religious family in the united states that had some vague connection to theirs. rochester seemed like an unlikely place for them to end up at, but she remembers her mom speaking about reverend samuels like he’d hung the moon. details are fuzzy. they were friends, she thinks. very close friends, it seemed.

death // it had been three years since they’d moved when mili’s mom died in a car crash. at eleven, mili was left alone in a country she was barely starting to get used to, and life seemed pretty bleak. the samuels took her in, and it was the single best thing that had ever happened to her. they were kind and patient, and she had siblings and a big house, and mili had been through enough to know this was the time to be grateful and good. she didn’t question the adoption, it seemed logical. they’d been her mother’s friends, and they were supposed to be doing god’s work, and right now, she needed charity from Him.

she’s a good girl, the kind that’s always ready to lend a hand, sometimes even a little gullible because she just tends to assume people are always trying their best to get by and be good. she knows it’s not always the case — over long nights of her crying because she missed her dad, her mom took care of making sure she never felt like trying to find him again, feeding her horror stories of the things he was involved in that caused her nightmares up until this day. still, she can’t help thinking the best of people, it’s in her blood. what’s also in her blood apparently is some questionable habits she got from her dad, but she’s working on that. sort of.

as u can see by tht Cheeky Last Name rosa’s the younger sister of viktor n tatiana

growing up i feel it was very safe 2 say tht she was like....... the perfect combination of the two of them - she jst sort of worshipped them n spent most of her younger years shadowing them

by the time she was like 10 she picked up a bit of an Attitude and pretended tht . those years jst Didn’t Exist...... bc now She wanted to seem cool to her older siblings 

she’d always been a bit of a tomboy...... which her parents sort of side-eyed bc they wanted a more Proper Lady like tatiana bt tht jst was never rosa she probs has never worn a dress in her life n owns abt 50 oversized overalls tht jst do nothing fr her bt she doesn’t care tbh

became Very Very bossy at a rly young age too...... as a way to like gain some control and get more attention since she didnt get too much at home which resulted in her not having very many friends except for one (1) girl named sylvie who was her best friend from age 5-13

sylvie rly was rosa’s only friend besides her siblings sort of but she passed away from leukemia at 13 n this is when rosa really started to grow a bit more aggressive n jst uncaring kind of?? refused to let anyone else in bc it scared her

this is when she kinda clung to her siblings and grew rly dependent although she would never admit it......... did wtvr they did etc bc she had no one else n this is a huge reason she ended up going to lockwood

everything sort of went to shit when tatiana died??? bc at the same time viktor was hospitalized and rosa had never been without them before and she just didn’t kno wht to do with herself, didn’t kno how to b without her siblings, and DEFINITELY didn’t kno how to deal with tatiana’s death

ended up taking a year off to just . stay at home, started therapy to help deal with her codependency / the death of tatiana / viktor’s hospitalization etc.

she doesn’t talk abt wht happened bc she still sort of refuses to believe it happened herself

a combination of refusing to get too close to ppl n frankly viktor scaring her by saying something like if u have sex before marriage ur gna turn to ash has kept her Virginal.......... has done nothing besides kiss some ppl

also kinda confused abt her sexuality? obvs hasn’t rly explored all things considering

she’s quite a handful tbh.... can b loud n blunt n is jst rly generally pessimistic bt she’s also a riot....... likes to drink n is funny etc.

doesn’t rly mess around w drugs tho bc they scare her.........

he pinterest: 

me in the voice of a card magician performing on the street: round up round up pick a pinterest any pinterest!

ta-da it’s aesthetics:

lead marbles instead of eyes, a stolen hearse careening down the wrong lane, wearing a faded smiley face sticker on your forehead while receiving a serious lecture, bags under the eyes that are so big they could pack enough clothes for a three week vacation, a cigarette wobbling from your bottom lip as you squint against the sunlight, passing out on a stranger's rooftop, placing sunglasses over the eyes of a biology lab skeleton, gangling around the place like shaggy minus his scooby snacks, saying "fuck off" to inanimate objects

about tha Bitch:

he hd to do community service bc he kind of... hd a bit of a breakdown before the funeral of his elderly neighbour who bsically raised him bc her kids rly didnt care abt her they jst wanted her inheritance?? so he... stole the hearse w her casket still in it n ws jst like... drivin around the place sort of... tryin nt to cry.....KJJFHSFKJGHKFG i mean. it isnt funny its actually sad bt :/ in a very bizarre n jude way. he gt caught n taken in fr questioning bt her son kind of realised hw... broken up abt her death jude ws n had a heart n didnt press charges. regardless he stil hd to do community service bc it ws like taken seriously even tho it ws his first proper offence. doin it rly exhausted n depressed him so when he wsnt doin tht he ws just hibernatin in his room....... n thts where hes been 2 explain his absence to any of u whose charas had... connections w him Way Back When

in a new development in terms of sexuality i jst am nt quite sure....... hes always thot he ws straight... fooled around w a 90s hugh grant lookalike once n ws jst a bit like :/ my rocks rnt blasted off? bt who knows wht the future holds... who KNOWS wht the future holds ladies n gentlemen

frm this point on i wnt lie iv pasted in his old intro bc. a bich is lazy! a bich is predictable! and a bich! is! unapologetic!

born in sheffield in england, bt they went back and forth between there n san fran a lot jude was an unhappy accident. his parents never rly used protection bc they were super Liberal n Au Naturel n believed in the pull out method bc… they were maniacs. bt then the ONE time they used a condom in an effort to b safety conscious it broke n hence…. jude was bornthey just kind of ran w it bc they had such a passionate relationship tht they were like What The Hell…. may as well! itll be fine we’ll learn to be good parents n love him like normal ppl do

spoiler alert: tht didn’t work outthey were ok to him like they weren’t abusive or anything like that bt they just found him to be a massive burden n hindrance to their plansthey literally….. had sex all day every day n acted like a pair of teenagers. it ws a super weird environment for a kid to grow up in bc he literally had no role models or… guidance or…. anything rly. occasionally they’d joke around w him or pretend they even knew what grade he was going into but for the most part they just Didn’t Care one bit

they were both suuuuper into the arts. they’re both rly good sculptors bt they paint too n they actually own a rly successful gallery in san fran

as a result he grew up around a lot of creative n sometimes pretentious ppl. the friends of his parents were more present in his life than his ACTUAL parents bc they were always jetting off to diff countries to scout out new pieces fr their galleries n just have a gd time in beautiful places without…. the annoyance tht ws their son forcing them to b responsible n look after someone else. tbh some of his parents friends were rly damaging too bt….i won’t go into that just yet. it doesn’t rly…need properly explaining bc jude never talks abt it anyway n it….is rather triggering so i’ll jst….leav it for now tbh fgkhdfgh. basically they just were Not Nice n jude had a lot of bad memories he keeps repressed

bc of how he ws raised he has a p cultured taste. he luvs classic lit, especially kerouac, n p much anything artsy. he can play piano 2 n sometimes gets rly high n thinks he’s mozart level gd at composing. i mean he’s gd bt… Calm Down Judepersonality wise he acts out sometimes bc he’s so frustrated. he tried rly hard to be someone his parents wld care abt by doing wild or stupid things so he’d hav funny stories to tell them n tbh sometimes it works n he gets them to laugh w him but it isn’t a parent/son bond n it never rly wil b. 

he’s rly sarcastic, sleeps around a lot, has an overflowing secret sketchbook n if he cares abt someone he’ll probably draw them n get rly defensive if they find out abt it fkjgdhfkj bcos he’s an Independent Boy without a sentimental bone in his body. or so he says. at heart he is jst a very Sad Boy w lots of repressed issues like depression genuinely just does NAT giv him a single break bt he plasters over this w wise cracks n never discusses his emotions ever. he’s actually p decent or at least tries to b. he’s kind of like tht bit in superbad where michael cera gets rly drunk n makes a toast to women. tries to b? a feminist bt sometimes fucks up n offends ppl n is like dam..... my bad fr :/

he has p bad insomnia so he like never sleeps fgjkhfgjkf he always has rly sleepy eyes n rubs them tiredly mid conversation. he smokes a lot of weed to try n compensate fr this n make him tired bt he still struggles a lot

ANYWAY that aside he’s at lockwood doing fine arts. he luvs painting n photography n philosophy n all tht. a pretentious fiend sometimes? maybe_so.gif

hey hey, so marco is a brand new muse so his story is a little bare for the moment, but i’ll be feeling him out and building as i go along. below are a few bullet points about him. anything else, feel free to ask! i plan to answer some starters in the tag to start, but feel free to message if you want to plot!

marco got into lockwood on a partial athletic scholarship for hockey. he plays left wing and sports the number 27. 

during his sophmore year he was redshirted due to an injury to his ankle over the summer. he’d only needed to, medically, sit out for a few games, but the time off the ice set him back. so another year was added to his college career, and now marco is a super senior.

turns out the extra time wasn’t such a bad thing. he got to space out his credits... and retake a few classes he’d struggled with. namely, public speaking. attempt number three would surely be the charm. 

like any true collegiate, marco’s go-to beer is, well, the cheap kind. sure the taste isn’t much to rave about but it does the trick.

aside from alcohol, the only drug marco partakes in is weed. that’s where he draws the line. that trick is getting around the hockey team’s drug tests. so far he’s managed.

messy as fuck. 100% frebrezes his clothes when he forgets to wash them. his backpack probably still has papers in it from last year. headphones always tangled. save this boy.

loves tattoos. feels like a way to express himself when his words fail. will live off ramen for a month to pay for a tattoo.

from canada bc i need to. where? honestly haven’t decided yet.

i think that’s all i got for the moment.

as u can see gunner is from wyoming which is jst . frankly a bit of a nightmare, what even is in wyoming? nothing but Misery

he was the middle child to rly eccentric and weird parents which is where he kinda gets a bit of his personality from

always was a mama’s boy, as soon as his younger brother wyatt was born he became her sunshine but gunner and his mom still had a really solid relationship, whereas the relationship he had with his dad was super strained………. he was just never rly the Sporty Dude that his dad wanted in a child and thought gunner was sort of Weird to be frank so they jst . avoided each other if anything until wyatt went missing n their relationship got pretty............ Rough tbh gunner jst tried to make sure his dad didn’t have a reason to b made at him

elias is his older brother!! played by neen winks at her

elias and gunner always had a bit of a weird relationship too, they’re pretty different yet so alike at the same time?? who knows how that works

they were never That close until the night wyatt went missing ))): their parents were away on a vacation they won lawl and said the boys should just stay home for the weekend but they were teen boys of course they didn’t listen and all parted ways for a night, but only 2 of the paxton boys returned

ever since then elias and gunner became much closer since the relationship with their parents was just never the same, they rly only had each other after that and it was evident when elias left wyoming and gunner soon followed

after wyatt’s disappearance tho gunner sort of lost himself, sophomore to senior year of high school was like the worst time of his life since elias left for lockwood and reoccurring nightmares had gunner slowly Losing It, he was diagnosed with major depressive disorder which he should be taking some pretty hefty meds for but he never remembers to refill his prescription n is just a mess w it in general

doesn’t really know how to be social, he never had many friends to begin with and then when wyatt went missing rumours of the family having something to do with the youngest paxton’s disappearance started to spread and that rly turned gunner into a pariah that still sorta lasts to this day, he’s awkward bt like he means well

film major!! he’d always been rly into film and loves movies and spent a lot of his time analyzing them and making his own short films whenever he started to feel really lonely or depressive episodes started to get bad, just his own sort of therapy

always filming at parties, plans on making a film about them just for fun jst basically thinks they’re super entertaining

has a lot of weird habits?? knows almost every card trick by heart, taught himself how to yodel n i wish i was kidding, can solve a rubix cube in a few seconds, also knows a lot of weird facts, just a bit of a Weirdo

he’s slowly starting to realize he’s Not Straight but he’s too scared to admit it, they grew up in a fairly religious Macho Man household so anything Gay was frowned upon n thts sort of engraved into his mind