#writin stuff

i went thru the whole fucking thing in one sitting bc there is something wrong with me and i took these notes for my wife. so just to catch anybody up to speed with the most recent events of an old fic

benreys waiting on gordon to show up for their weekly video call date night. but gordons running late

freemind breaks into gordons room and talks to benrey through the cam. then leaves gordonhouse

gordon shows up to video call. he jerks off for benrey while wearing the collar benrey got him but benrey abruptly tells him not to cum and leaves

this is the part where i was like "oh he ran off to go fuck gordon in person" but apparently im misremembering bc the very last chapter threw a wrench in things

4. the very last chapter shows benrey, barmey, and tommy all smoking weed together. and then they show up to gordonhouse looking for gordon (and find gordon prime at the door instead). i imagine there has to be a 1-2 hr gap minimum btwn benrey ditching and benrey showing back up. which is a Problem

im thinking maybe gordon is sulking in his room. maybe he even angry-cried a little. took off the collar and threw it out his window. and so on. imagine him curled up in bed blasting AND IM ON THE OUTSIDE……IM LOOKING IN…..I CAN SEE THROUGH YOU……SEE YOUR TRUE COLORSSS

inevitably theres going to be a huge argument. ESPECIALLY if it comes out that benrey was A) smoking weed and B) making out with barmey. doing sweet voice to him no less

i dont think benrey or tommy is stupid enough to divulge this but barmey 100% is. and so he should. to really put gordon thru the wringer my thinking is that gordons initially conflicted-but-kinda-happy to see that benreys there……..which immediately goes downhill when he sees the rest of them and barmey starts opening his fucking mouth talking about how they were just smokin weed and chillin before they got there. like what do you MEAN you left him hanging to get high

gordon would crash the fuck outttt. a lot of stuff would come out about how he feels and how benrey makes him feel (read: like a low down dog) and how he can fuck off and kiss barmey forever if thats what he wants. bc hes done

barmey wouldnt know what his fucking damage is. benrey would try to go back to his room anyway bc he can noclip but gordon would hurl something at him the moment he pops his face in through the wall. tommy would be the only one with sense enough to realize that this is a super volatile situation and being here is making it worse

and gordon prime (who is just observing all this shit like hes not a slut for drama) would be……….intrigued at the very least at finally getting to meet the other barneys. hes only heard of them in passing. and here they are on his doorstep

the question is: what happens here. i think benrey would storm off and sulk too and not be in the mood for scientific inquiry (no matter how bad gordon prime wants to study him). and i think that barmey would probably not give a fuck about this beyond being pissy that people are mad at him. and tommy would be just as curious about gordon prime as gordon prime is about the other barneys

IMO barmey just bails. this aint about him. tommy would initially be happy to see gordon and then quickly realize hes in way over his head here. but after the big explosion i think he might actually stay and talk to gordon prime about things. i think that they would both have a lot to learn from each other abt the social dynamics

i think that this whole bit would be great from a gordon prime pov. and then switch to gordons pov for the next part, which is: Sulking

i think he would be so done with all the dogboy shit bc as far as hes concerned, its totally ruined his life. he cant go out in public like a normal person anymore, he cant engage with the world without his stupid dog senses, he feels so much worse than he did at the start when benrey was just like. his frenemy

its worse than just hating him bc hes so fucking down bad for benrey. catastrophically, miserably in love with a guy who doesnt seem to feel the same way

and he doesnt wanna be part of freeminds fucking antics or gordon primes bullshit experiments anymore. he just wants to like. run away from it all. and im entertaining the idea that he DOES run away

what im thinking is that maybe hes just staying in some cheap shady motel somewhere and somebody finds him to talk. maybe barney or tommy but most likely tommy. bc A) that doesnt come with the weird expectation of sex that the whole barney/gordon commune has and B) im envisioning a scene where gordon finds out that benreys even kissed tommy and he flips out like "does he just kiss fucking EVERYBODY?????"

but they actually manage to have a serious conversation where tommy explains that benreys been feeling really terrible about how this went down, bc he was a jerk. and if tommy had known he wouldnt have helped benrey be a jerk, so at least One person is apologizing to him. but also telling him that HES being a jerk, too. so its a net zero emotional resolution

imagine gordon angry and sulky being like "you didnt even tell me you smoked weed!" and tommy just shrugs and offers him a J

its like halfway to a proper apology but he needs to get the two of them in the same room together so they can actually talk. and then have benrey show up at gordons motel room some indeterminable amt of time later. with the audience able to infer from their conversation that hes had a lot of talking-tos in the time since

i think its important that this takes place somewhere that isnt either of their houses. somewhere that theyre totally alone and they dont have to play fucking test subject or put on a bunch of ironic defenses. its as close to Real as i think either of them is capable of getting

and i think that benrey would have brought the collar back. one of the other gordons would have found it and given it back to him. so he can do it right this time

gordons biggest fear is that hes in way deeper than benrey is and i need to find some way to alleviate that without pushing them too far out of character

and benrey gets to put the collar on him and do it right and show him just how much he missed him and how much he cares about him even if hes bad at saying it with words. or actions. even if hes just bad at it in every possible way. im sick in the head and its IMPORTANT to me

and then they have insane dogboy sex where benrey gives him sweet voice poppers so he can actually relax enough to take benreys huge hog. ok. i could get into the details here too but ive spoken enough.