#writeyourdarlings

related to these Cartier shots here, here, and here

related to my fic "Money Magic"

Aya! Oh my god! That is so fucking sweet!! I'm so weak for when people still think of my older fics 😩 It touches parts of my soul

But you're so fucking right! MAJOR Money-Magic!Bucky vibes 🤤

AYA DARLING!!! 💕💞💕💞💕 Thank you so much for the ask, honey 🥰💖 I want to preface this by saying that all of my playlists are a mess, please don't expect these to make sense lol

Straight from my playlist for when I'm having a good day:

NIKI - Every Summertime Hozier - Nobody Queen - Good Old-fashioned Loverboy Adie - Tahanan ALFA - bellissimissima

related to this with my tags #girlfriend 💕 #<- i'm keeping that tag instead of adding my own because something about this just made me fucking feral about him #i need to shut my mouth Imao #i just like to see him feeling himself #chris evans #materialists

Lmao, not that gif 💀💀

I elaborated a little more coherently (but not much more) in this ask that beat you by a second but I didn't specify the thoughts, I tried to parse out why. And. Fuck that. Let's just get into the thoughts--

The thoughts are that I would like to see him cry. I would like to see him lose it. I would really like him on his knees, his hands bound tangibly--handcuffs, necktie, or anything, I'm not picky--or perhaps just honorably, telling him he can't touch and watching him obey. I would like looking down at him, seeing how he cocks his head to the side when he just can't hold it up straight anymore, lulling, how his chest heaves, panting, how his lips get redder and redder the more he licks and bites them, hungry. I would love watching all that masculine bravado melt off of him with his glistening sweat as his eyes glaze over, forgetting himself, forgetting what society expects him to be, all those muscles, all that handsome face, and leaving him with nothing but what feels natural. What feels good. Who cares if he's leaning into it all? Showing weakness in how badly he needs this. Who cares if he tilts his face up and nuzzles in, greedy for more, more, more? Who cares if his moans get higher and higher in pitch until they don't even sound like they're coming out of someone with a fucking body like that. Big. Defined. Just. Whimpery and high, shaky as his eyebrows draw together and his pale skin flushes pretty pink, his frame quivering. I would really like to see him in his body, confident because he's so lost in it. He doesn't care what he looks like when he feels like that.

God.

The groan I let out when I read this ask game prompt, lmao, not things I like about myself, nooo, why would you make me, Aya!?!

Thank you for including me, though, haha <3

I like how creative I am. Being not only a writer but an artist, too--and now thanks to my job, something of a curator and installer for other's artwork--I find that I can both come up with ideas that are off the beaten path and that I can solve problems in creative, interesting ways. I forget, sometimes, how much my life and my interests have swayed me into working on and strengthening my creativity until I work with other people who don't have the luxury of getting much creativity in their life and I see the gap between our skills with "out of the box" thinking.

I like how curious I am. I shit you not, I think the reason I am where I am in life is because of my curiosity and ability to follow through with a spontaneous spark of "what is that?" I wouldn't say it's obvious because I'm an introvert, so I'm not just constantly verbally asking why all the time, but I am always thinking it and if I'm left alone, I guarantee you I will just start trying shit to figure it out and see what it does. It took me exactly two days out of school into summer break before I was bored and cracked open a history book that was entirely unrelated to anything other than my curiosity about the topic.

I like my work ethic. This goes hand in hand with creativity for me. I think creativity is the initial spark and my ability to work self-motivatedly day in and day out is the reason I have every skill I have. I'm lured in by my curiosity and then I can follow through. Sometimes, yeah, I hate how much of a workaholic I am and I can't put anything down or stop halfway through, I have to finish even if it takes a ludicrous amount of time, but I do appreciate the skill to duck my head down and get through it.

I like that I'm persistent. Persistence is different from work ethic but I get that it's really close, so maybe this is cheating, haha. I just like that I can grit my teeth and bear things. Maybe that's the toxic masculinity talking, lmao, but also, I think my persistence has gotten me through a lot of fucking tough mental health challenges that if I didn't have, I'm not sure I would've made it. Hell, I'm still surprised I made it to, let alone past, 18.

If I challenge myself to include some kind of physical trait here, I'll include my jawline. Hand in hand (ha), with my creativity and curiosity is my appreciation for my hands--I like that I am capable artistically and constructionally (is that even a word, lmao) with my hands. That's not a physical appreciation, though, lol. And knowing I have body dysmorphic disorder, anything phsyical is much more of a challenge. Especially my face. I know, factually, certain things about myself, I could list the features I have, and I know that people find me attractive and I've not had issues dating/fucking around because of that, but I don't really know what I look like. I've had a problem with every single part of my face and body and it shifts over the years, I fixate for a while, then it morphs. With the exception of my jaw. I've always had a square, sharp jawline and if I get randomly hit on or complimented, usually it's about my jaw. Perhaps because its the shape of my face it's not so distorted? I have no idea, lmao. But I feel like I have the best understanding for my jaw as to how it looks to other people. So. I like my jaw, sure, lol.

"His mind and body are screaming for it- for Bucky. Screaming that he finally has him all to himself, that there are no responsibilities to overshadow them, and that he’s actually here and not some fantasy or dream. He’s not going to wake up with a hard on and without Bucky. He’s not going to get called away.

This needs to happen now."

ok but the ending part is definitely the cherry on top🩷. i was like YAS STEVE. QUICK. GET HIS ASS (literally😆). idk why but that particular passage feels sexy to me. a man who desperately longing to spend private time with their partner is sexy !!🤧

i need a petition for s to start writing kid fic again🤭

"Setting: In A Honeymoon"

Uhh, probably no one told you because... well... I kinda forgot I wrote that 🤦🏻‍♂️ lmao, oops, love that for me.

Okay, like, I didn't forget, forget it, I'm aware it exists, I just am so often ideating and writing new stuff and making new art that it just gets a little buried, y'know?

Anyway--

AH, oh my god, you're too fucking sweet! Aya, I love you. I'm so thrilled to hear that you spend your time eagerly reading my writing!!

You're so right, though! That's the 🤌🏻point🤌🏻 how willing they are to make time for each other, how much they want to, it's sacrifice but it's thoughtless because, of course, duh, of course, he would.

Also, yes, you know I had to. GET. HIS. ASS. My favorite 💀💀

Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

May I offer you, also, some recommendations for more of my very sparce kid fic writing-?

Quick Thoughts About Steve Singing To His Baby

Gifted-Inspired Kid Fic Conversation

Evanstan, not stucky, bonuses:

Assorted "Embarrassingly Domestic" Fantasties For Evanstan

Parents Chris & Sebastian + Their Bilingual Baby

p.s: this is how S writes btw, he doesn't take responsibility for the chaos that may be ensued from his fics like yeah, be horny y'all🤭

"Keep Quiet, Nothing Comes As Easy As You"

Aya! Thank you!! You're so fucking sweet! I love knowing that you enjoyed the read! All the screaming and squealing is such an honor, along with living rent free in your head, of course, lmao. 15/10 Thank youu

Thank you especially for going back to read older fics of mine! AW!

You're too sweet!!

RILS LISTEN. LISTEN RILSS i can't believe you just wrote a story based on my f1 steve. i was completely mesmerized by it that i accidentally squealed so loud at work and had to quickly cover my mouth. one of my coworkers looked at me and said "you okay?" and i said yeah, but truth is NO! I WANT TO ROLL ON THE GROUND AND SCREAM WHILE HOLDING MY PHONE🤣haha oh dear, i'm gonna think about your delicious writing piece for the next few months (especially the one where steve was in the sunset, the kissing scene and bucky's cigarette drop💖 THATS JUST SO MMMWAHH MWAH MWAH). ashdjfdk i love you rils. i love how you react so gleefully towards others' people work including mine (even though i'm still learning how to draw🥺), you always make me swoon with your words and your support is the reason why so many ops continue to pursue their arts hehe. thank you so much my precious. now pls take this little feisty steve💓

AYA MY SWEETS 💖💕🌷💛💫💞✨💖💕💖 AKDHSUHSJSK I LOVE YOU

This is one of sweetest messages I have ever received in my entire life, and I'm still smiling like a complete dumbass BECAUSE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FJDHKSLSK💕💕💕 I wish I had the skills to write a whole fic based on your art, rather than just a silly little headcanon screamed in the tags, but!!!!! Your art is so inspiring, sometimes I just can't help myself!! IT'S TOO GOOD AHGDUSHSH 💕💖✨💞✨ I'm not kidding here darling, your art tag is an actual treasure from start to finish and I want everybody to know that 💖💖💖 And yes, I will absolutely confess that I have a soft spot for your Steve art, and every time I see a new post, a new AU by you, all I can do is SQUEAL SQUEAL SQUEAL AND SQUEAL SOME MORE

You might still be learning, but your art has such a beautiful, delicate, soft quality that I can't even describe, it's like- like if strawberry milk and peach flavoured yogurt had a baby, you know?? That sweetness! That delicious velvety creaminess!! Aya my love, your art isn't just art, it's a whole mood, it's its own brand of aesthetic, it's a feeling! an emotion!! And it's gorgeous and I love it!!!! with my entire heart!!!! and I'm gonna tell everyone willing to listen!!! And I believe that art always shows a little bit of the artist who created it, and your art radiates pure beauty, pure sweetness, pure love coming straight from your beautiful beautiful heart, 'cause you're gorgeous inside and out, my dear 💖💖💖💖💖

You, and all the amazing talented artists in this fandom, bring me so much joy every day, making all this wonderful art about these two boys that I love so dearly, and when I get silly in the tags (aka all the time, let's be real xD), that's just me trying to convey how happy you guys make me, and how grateful I am for every single work of art I get to enjoy thanks to you all 💕💕💕

I love love love love you sweet Aya, and also I'm 100% stealing that little feisty Steve because *SCREECH* HE'S PERFECT!!!! 💞✨💕💖💫💓💞

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! MWWUUUUAH

Aya! Aw, thank you! You're so sweet <3