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if you go to the ‘every MJ grunt’ video, skip to 2:53. He sounds like he’s saying ‘STOP FUCKIN THE BEE’

im so gay for zircon

i never thought id see captain underpants pron. welp. today i did. I am not disappointed though. 

Hold the line! Love isn’t always on time!

i still cant believe that my childhood is a movie now. 

IM DEAD THERE;S A MEME PAGE ON FB about Peter Garrett I can die peacefully.

am i regretting everything right now? absolutely,

can't sleep. keep thinking about him. good (/s) thing i'm from a fucking video game- i can go looking for things to read and if i'm lucky (/s again) i might even find something similar to what i remember. i had to come downstairs to front because i don't want to upset my husband with this shit- thinking about another man while he's holding me. another man who hurt me. i feel like i'm so fucked up. i mean, i know i am. if i still had L i'd probably just think about E while i'm in her arms instead. our marriage probably would've fallen apart if i hadn't, yknow, died or whatever happened to drag my dumb ass here. i never could get over trauma. ..but E is. different. he's not mine but he's Mine and he loves me and treats me right. "recidivism." i think about that a lot. that's an actual good thing- that one story that M is really attached to, the one that fits what E and V remember to a scary degree even though neither of them have read it. at least, it's definitely what V remembers; they got scooped up after M(W) ravaged the compound and burned everything to shit. E's memories have never been that clear. he remembers before, then me, but. not so much after. still. i love him anyway. sometimes i think i miss L. i know i miss our boys. (that story i mentioned? it's got the three of them in it, and they're all perfect, and. i fucking hate that it's not my story. i'm. jealous? angry. something.) i don't know what i'm doing right now. gonna shut up. in a second. J. we weren't ever anything. i was just a toy to you. just your dog. i keep dreaming about your hands on me and i really fucking shouldn't miss it. but i do. i do. you'd think that's pathetic. i know. i am. if you want to use me again- i'm right here.