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as you restlessly move in bed

feeling the clock tick away minutes off your sacred 6 hours of sleep

6 was 8′s compromise

compromises never work

I’ll remind you 

when your tea grows bitter as you wait for it to cool down

to not burn a tongue

you barely even use

it never touched coherence

nor did it ever touch the inside of someone else’s mouth

I’ll remind you 

when you stare into your reflection in the mirror

and when it makes you wish for different bones

when the lamp you study under starts heating up your neck

but the blood still flows in sluggish pulses

nothing vital, nothing intense

I’ll remind you when you hate how your nails don’t curve gracefully

and when you realize they’re shaped just like your dad’s

I’ll remind you at the times when you want to lose every connection

with every person you love

and at the times when you feel like making blankets out of their very skin

I’ll remind you

till your thoughts spin 

and spin a little more

till you desperately try to catch them

and you fail

then you try to tame them softly

and they slip

right between your index and thumb

then you give up, you watch them silently

to find nothing but shadows

cast by the ridges of your skull

they don’t need a source of light

they don’t exist

a nothing can not spin

This is how I remind you of the vagueness of reality

and the blessing of a distraction you think you despise 

and how empty it all is

emptier than the cups of coffee you hate and still gulp down

because they make you able to swallow more words at dawn 

you think words are tangible, you think at least those are real

But I’ll be there to remind you 

again and again 

of how futile your attempts are

at making something