#words7

i thought tonight of when we used to slow dance in his basement to no song, just the sound of him humming- it's almost like i can still hear the music and he can't. that's what it feels like, but i'm starting to hate the song. a lot.

maybe i like writing because i can create a whole world of people and things that make me forget my anxieties

too angry to sleep and not a sole to confide in in this goddamn school not a person i want to talk with i need a best friend again i am abandoned and lonely and angry and feel cheated and betrayed because people leave and they lie and they change and they hurt you and i can't do this

you were easy. you were always there to confide i and to laugh with and trust. you were my best friend, and now you are nowhere to be found. i wish you would leave me alone so i could be happy again. i wish you didn't betray me and make me feel worthless and give me dozens of memories of feeling bad about myself.

i'm a stupid girl who wants a romantic relationship in college with an imaginary boy who wouldn't want that and is cool as shit and chill and makes me laugh but doesn't fuck random girls and has the same music taste that i do and is a family man and has a good jaw line and it just won't happen it won't

"she felt like the moon; terrified of the sky but completely in love with the way it held the stars"