â⯠. / the one that got away â ęšě´í smau oneshot . !
woonhak x reader
áŻâ synopsis â an unexpected confession that leads to everything going downhill.
áŻâ genres â angst, tiny bit of crack and fluff, friends to strangers, right person (?) wrong time, hurt no comfort, no happy ending
áŻâ warnings â pre-debut bnd era first part, last four slides are taken place after âwhy?â era, inaccurate timestamps, first slide is happy i guess, âynâ mentioned, woonhak loved yn too early, yn liked woonhak too late, yn is kinda annoying, woonhak grew up and moved on slowly but surely, NO happy ending sorry guys, also mb if it isnât that good, lmk if thereâs more
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NOTE đď¸: i was in an angsty mood once again and sorry if it isnât as good as taesans đđ
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â・°⊠pairing bf!woonhak x gn!reader wc 0.708k tw mention of wounded people genre angst, fluff, vaguely hurt/comfort, zombie apocalypse au
âËęŠď˝Ąauthor's note requested, gang we are so back. also hi rosy i went overboard bc i just couldn't help it... i love apocalypse au !! sm!! also i love woonhak. enjoy and happy (?) reading <3
âË⥠synopsis in a world so lost and broken, you share one last moment with your love... will you ever see him again?
âŹâ.Ë listen to we're screwed (unlike pluto).
ââË.â reblogs + feedback very much appreciated! ^^
âall groups traveling outside of the safe zone, please report to the south exit of the bunker! i repeat, please report to the south exit!â
the voice is just barely audible through whatâs left of the speaker system, muffled in the hallways youâve grown so accustomed to roaming. during ungodly hours of the night, assisting to the wounded. during the soft light of morning, running to catch the teams foraging for food and supplies. during sunset, when the round windows let light beams of all the colors of the sky into the metal tunnels you now called home.
during the time youâve spent roaming the bunker halls with the boy in front of you.
âall groups securing the bunker, report to the central hub! i repeat, report to the central hub!â
woonhak swallows at that announcement. âthatâs me.â
âi know.â
heâs grasping your hands, fingers playing with yours absent-mindedly as he stares down at the worn floor. you let him, watching as his hair falls in front of his face. you wriggle one of your hands out of his hold, reaching up and tucking the dark strands out of his eyes. his head tilts up to follow your hand as you do so, his eyes tracking the movement as your palm rests against the side of his face.
the look he gives you is heartbreaking.
âhakie,â you murmur, watching the edges of his dark irises waver as his eyes fill with tears. he shakes his head slightly, a small smile pulling at his cheeks.
âiâm going to miss you calling me that.â
so am i, you want to say, but you canât speak over the lump in your throat thatâs starting to grow.
âall groups traveling outisde of the safe zone, please report to the south exit of the bunker! i repeat, please report to the south exit!â
you really should go. your entire team is probably waiting for you. the longer you stay in this compromised bunker, the longer youâre putting everyone else at risk - of exposure, of infection, or worse.
âall groups securing the bunker, report to the central hub! i repeat, report to the central hub!â
woonhak tenses, and you brush your thumb over his cheek gently. he reaches up and clasps your wrist, exhaling shakily. âi should go. jaehyun is going to be so mad if iâm late.â
âso should i,â you breathe, but neither of you move.
âfinal call! all groups traveling outisde of the safe zone, please report to the south exit!â
 your temporary refuge is no longer safe. you and so many others are leaving to find a new one, or make one if need be. but just in case you canât⌠woonhak and his team are staying behind, implementing a last-resort effort to save whatâs left of the place that has protected you for the past few months. your vision blurs, and suddenly your throat is so tight and painful that it takes you a few moments to speak. âwill i see you again?â
his mission is a futile effort, and you know it.
woonhak meets your gaze. âi canât⌠i canât make any promises.â
you sniffle, closing your eyes for a moment before leaning forward to kiss him. he kisses you back, pulling you closer to the warmth of his body. everything about him is warm - his kisses, his hands against your skin, his love. his love in this bleak, forlorn world.
tears spill over your cheeks when you finally pull away, pressing your forehead to his. he exhales slowly, and when your eyes flick up to meet his, heâs already looking at you.
âdonât wait for me,â he murmurs, voice soft. he brushes his fingers over your cheeks. âno matter what. you keep on moving with everyone else, okay? iâll find you again. i promise.â
you nod, your lips curving upward as you hold up your pinky finger in a silent question. he smiles back, linking pinkies with you and pressing his thumb to yours firmly.
âfinal call! all groups securing the bunker, report to the central hub! i repeat, report to the central hub!â
âwoonhak.â
âhm?â
âi love you.â
he grins at that, even as his eyes fill once more. âi love you too, y/n.â
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٠࣪â Š starriniqhts 2026, all rights reserved.
warnings: heavy angst (i'm so sorry), burnout, self-deprecating thoughts, crying (i mightâve cried too), fear of being a burden, mentions of unhealthy coping mechanisms
a/n: this one was heavily inspired by this song. thank you my lovely @yoonlxlla for proofreadingâĄâĄ
The argument started over nothing.
That was the worst part.
Not screaming. Not betrayal. Not some catastrophic mistake.
Just exhaustion.
Woonhak noticed it before you did.
âYouâve barely looked at me all day.â
You kept your eyes fixed on your laptop screen. âIâm doing my assignment.â
âYouâve been reading the same sentence for ten minutes.â
âIâm thinking.â
âNo, youâre avoiding me.â
Your jaw tightened slightly.
Normally, you would have laughed it off. Teased him for being clingy. Crawled into his lap five minutes later and let him steal kisses between your complaints about university.
But tonight, everything felt sharp. Your skin. Your thoughts. His voice. Everything irritated you because everything hurt.
âIâm not avoiding you,â you muttered.
Woonhak sat up straighter from where heâd been sprawled across your bed. âThen whatâs wrong?â
âNothing.â
âThereâs definitely something wrong.â
You inhaled slowly through your nose, trying to keep yourself together. âCan we not do this right now?â
âDo what? Have a conversation with my girlfriend?â
Something in his tone snapped painfully against your already fraying nerves.
You shut your laptop harder than intended.
âI said not right now.â
Silence filled the room immediately. Woonhak blinked at you. And the second you saw the hurt flicker across his face, guilt slammed into your chest.
But you were too tired to fix it properly.
Too tired to explain that you hadnât slept more than four hours in days. That your chest had felt tight since morning. That every tiny thing lately felt like proof you were failing at being a person.
Instead, you just looked away.
Woonhak swallowed slowly.
âOkay,â he said quietly.
That shouldâve ended it.
It didnât.
Because Woonhak knew you too well.
âYouâve been doing this for weeks.â
You rubbed your temples. âDoing what?â
âShutting down.â
âIâm literally sitting here talking to you.â
âNo, youâre not.â His voice softened. âYouâre disappearing again.â
Your stomach twisted. You hated when he used that word. Because it was accurate.
When things got bad, you disappeared into yourself. You responded slower. Smiled less. Became quieter and quieter until even existing around people felt exhausting.
Woonhak had learned the pattern months ago, and he hated it every single time.
âIâm just stressed,â you whispered.
âYouâre hurting.â
âI said Iâm fine.â
âThere it is again.â
The frustration in his voice made your chest ache.
âYou always do this,â he said softly. âYou always act like if you ignore it long enough, itâll stop hurting.â
You stood up too quickly.
âWell, sorry for not wanting to make my problems everyone elseâs issue.â
Woonhakâs expression dropped immediately.
âThatâs not what I said.â
âItâs what you meant.â
âNo, it isnât.â
You laughed bitterly under your breath, already feeling tears threatening behind your eyes. âYou donât get it.â
âThen explain it to me.â
âI canât.â
âWhy?â
âBecause I donât even know where to start!â Your voice cracked loudly through the room.
Both of you froze.
You looked away instantly, humiliated.
Woonhakâs face softened immediately. âBabyââ
âIâm tired,â you whispered shakily. âIâm just really tired.â
He stood up carefully, like sudden movements might break you further.
âCome here.â
You stepped back instead.
His face fell.
And God, that hurt. Because Woonhak wasnât angry. He wasnât judging you. He was just worried.
But somehow that made everything worse.
âI donât want you seeing me like this,â you admitted quietly.
âLike what?â
âA mess.â
The answer came too fast. Too honest.
Woonhak stared at you like the words physically hurt him.
âYou think I only want you when youâre okay?â
âThatâs not what I mean.â
âThen what do you mean?â
You opened your mouth. Nothing came out. Because the truth was uglier than you wanted to admit.
You didnât know how to let people love you when you werenât useful. And lately, you felt impossible to love.
Your grades were slipping. You were exhausted all the time. You cried over stupid things. You snapped at people. You felt hollowed out.
Woonhak stepped closer carefully.
âYou know what I notice about you?â
You wiped angrily at your eyes before tears could fall. âPlease donât psychoanalyze me right now.â
âYou bite your tongue when youâre upset.â
Your breathing caught.
âYou tense your thighs when youâre trying not to cry.â
You immediately crossed your arms tighter around yourself.
âYou apologize constantly.â His voice got quieter. âAnd you claw yourself apart in private because you think nobody should have to deal with your pain.â
The tears spilled instantly.
You looked away so fast it made your neck hurt.
âIâm serious,â he whispered. âYouâre always there for everyone else. You always know exactly what to say when someoneâs hurting.â
A tear slid down your cheek.
âBut when itâs you?â His voice cracked slightly. âYou treat yourself so horribly.â
Your chest caved in. Because he was right. You knew he was right.
You stayed up comforting friends through breakdowns while ignoring your own. You reassured everyone else that rest was important while feeling guilty every time you slept. You told people they deserved patience and kindness while ripping yourself apart over every small mistake.
And Woonhak saw all of it.
âI donât know how to stop,â you admitted weakly.
The room went quiet.
Woonhak looked devastated. Not because you were crying. But because of how defeated you sounded.
He walked toward you slowly this time, giving you every opportunity to pull away.
When you didnât, his hands gently held your face.
You immediately broke. A sob tore from your throat so suddenly it startled both of you.
âOh, baby.â
That was it.
That nickname shattered the last thing holding you together.
You covered your face quickly as your entire body started shaking.
âIâm sorry,â you cried instantly.
Woonhak looked heartbroken.
âWhy are you apologizing?â
âI donât know,â you choked out.
And God, that answer nearly killed him. Because even nowâeven crying in front of your boyfriendâyou were apologizing for being difficult.
Woonhak pulled your hands away from your face carefully.
âNo,â he whispered firmly. âDonât hide from me.â
Your breathing came out uneven and sharp.
âIâm trying so hard,â you admitted brokenly. âIâm trying so hard all the time and I still feel like Iâm failing at everything.â
âYouâre not failing.â
âIt feels like I am.â
Fresh tears blurred your vision.
âI canât sleep properly anymore. Everything feels overwhelming and stupid and Iâm so exhausted all the time and I donât even know why because nothing that bad is happening.â
Woonhak shook his head immediately.
âYou donât need a âgood enough reasonâ to hurt.â
âBut people have actual problems.â
âAnd so do you.â
âNo, Iââ
âYes.â His voice cracked. âYes, you do.â
You stared at him helplessly.
Woonhakâs eyes were glossy now too.
âYou know what hurts the most?â he asked quietly.
You shook your head.
âThe way you think your pain only matters if it destroys you first.â
That sentence landed like a knife directly into your chest.
Because it was true.
You waited until you were drowning before letting anyone notice you couldnât swim.
Woonhak brushed tears from beneath your eyes with shaking fingers.
âYou always find some kind words for strangers,â he whispered. âI wish you could find some for yourself.â
You started crying harder immediately.
He pulled you against him before your knees could give out.
And the second his arms wrapped around you, the sobs became unbearable.
Not pretty crying. Not quiet tears.
The kind that hurt your ribs. The kind that left you gasping for air.
Woonhak held you through every second of it.
One hand pressed protectively against the back of your head while the other rubbed slowly up and down your spine.
âItâs okay,â he whispered repeatedly. âIâve got you.â
âIâm so tired.â
âI know.â
âI donât wanna feel like this anymore.â
His grip tightened slightly.
âI know, baby.â
You buried your face deeper into his chest, ashamed by how desperately you clung to him.
But Woonhak just held you tighter.
âYou donât have to be strong all the time,â he murmured against your hair.
Your breath hitched.
âYou donât have to carry everything alone.â
âI feel like if I stop holding everything together,â you whispered shakily, âeverythingâs gonna fall apart.â
âIt wonât.â
âYou donât know that.â
âI do.â
You pulled back slightly just enough to look at him.
Woonhakâs eyes were red now.
âYou know what I see when I look at you?â he asked softly.
You shook your head.
âI see someone whoâs trying so hard to survive quietly that nobody notices theyâre hurting.â
Your throat tightened painfully.
âAnd I think youâve spent so long convincing yourself that your pain is inconvenient that now you donât know how to ask for help.â
A broken sound left your throat. Because nobody had ever understood it that precisely before.
Woonhak rested his forehead against yours carefully.
âYou donât become harder to love when youâre struggling.â
The tears came faster.
âYou donât become annoying.â A shaky breath. âYou donât become too much.â
Your hands gripped the back of his shirt desperately.
âIâm here,â he whispered. âEven when itâs ugly. Even when itâs hard. Iâm still here.â
You cried so hard your chest hurt.
And Woonhak stayed through all of it.
Not rushing you. Not trying to fix everything immediately.
Just holding you while years of exhaustion poured out of you all at once.
Eventually your crying softened into shaky breathing.
Woonhak guided you toward the bed carefully, sitting down first before pulling you gently into his lap.
Normally you wouldâve been embarrassed by how clingy this position felt.
Right now you just felt tired.
Your head rested against his shoulder while his hand brushed slowly over your hair.
The room stayed quiet for a long time.
Then softly, almost hesitant, he said:
âYou know I love you, right?â
Your eyes burned again instantly.
You nodded weakly.
Woonhak kissed the top of your head.
âNo,â he murmured. âI need you to hear me properly.â
His arms tightened around you slightly.
âI love you when youâre happy. I love you when youâre difficult. I love you when youâre exhausted and crying and canât explain whatâs wrong.â His voice wavered. âI love every version of you.â
Your lip trembled violently.
âYou donât have to earn being loved.â
That broke you all over again.
Because maybe that was the problem. Maybe somewhere along the line, you had convinced yourself love was something you had to deserve through usefulness. Through being easy. Through never needing too much.
But Woonhak loved you even like this.
Crying. Messy. Overwhelmed. Human.
He loved you through all of it.
âYouâre allowed to lean on me,â he whispered.
You closed your eyes tightly.
For the first time in weeks, your chest hurt a little less.
Not healed.
Not fixed.
But lighter.
And as Woonhak held you against him like something precious instead of burdensome, you realized maybe healing didnât always begin with solutions.
Sometimes it began with someone looking at the parts of you you considered unbearableâ
SYNOPSIS: woonhak swears that dying sounds like a much better plan than ever having to see your face again. and when you do meet again a year after your break-up, he swears that he's over you and whatever high school romance you had. but if there's one thing about kim woonhak, it's that he's always been a terrible liar.
WORD COUNT: 2.4k
GENRE/CONTENTS: angst, hurt/comfort, exes to ???, super ultra heavy yearning, miscommunication, arguing, emotional vulnerability, woonhak is a little mean đ.
AUTHORâS NOTE: when i tell you this fic literally appeared in my head and i just had to write it down đ i rarely ever write woonhak fics but trust i love him guys like please your honor that's my son âšď¸ anyways please enjoy yearner!woonhak he yearns like no other â¤ď¸âđŠš
RECOMMENDED SONGS: Glue by Gigi Perez and Nobody New by The MarĂas
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Kim Woonhak thinks about you more than heâd like to admit.
He thinks about the way you used to steal glances at him as you rode the bus home together, sharing an earbud as he played a song from his playlist, about the way youâd quietly hum along to the melody, your head swaying lightly to and fro. He thinks about how easy it was to make you laugh, how he could literally say the dumbest joke youâd ever heard in your life and youâd still laugh â because there was something about his delivery that made everything he said hilarious. He thinks about the way youâd hold his hand in a crowd, your fingers interlocked with his, smiling at the way his eyes widened in surprise, only to squeeze your hand gently the moment heâd calmed his racing heart.
He thinks about you a lot, about all the times you spent alone, the memories he had of you playing in his mind on repeat. He hears your laugh before falling asleep at night, sees the silhouette of your face in the fuzzy darkness of the back of his eyelids, and swears he can feel you beside him, almost like a ghost, as he finally succumbs to sleep. Itâs torture, really, how often he thinks about you, how he canât seem to forget about you no matter how many people cross his path, no matter how many times Kim Leehan tells him to just move on because you werenât coming back.
You werenât coming back.
Young love can be so beautiful sometimes. But not for Kim Woonhak. No, it was nothing but misery for him.
It was miserable when he realized his feelings for you were something much greater than mere friendliness, when he tried to avoid them and push them down for months, hoping that you wouldnât notice how awkward heâd become around you. It was miserable when he confessed his feelings for you on your seventeenth birthday, avoiding your piercing gaze as you tried to process his words. But then, just for a moment, it wasnât. For a moment, he felt something besides the gut-wrenching anguish in his stomach.
He felt relieved â relieved that your feelings for him were real, that he no longer had to wish he had you because he did. He did have you. It was the kind of relief you feel after finally catching a butterfly after chasing it for so long. He had you in the palm of his hand â he had you. He did, he swore he did. He could feel you when your fingers played with his hands during late night study sessions, your head resting on your closed textbook as you sat across from him. He could feel you whenever you snuck him into your room in the middle of the night, your bodies pressed close together as you hugged each other, your breathing leveling out as you slept as soundly as you possibly could. He felt you â the way your touch seeped beneath his skin, the way the blood in his veins, every atom and every fiber of him, was slowly replaced with you. He felt you, always.
He might even go as far as to say he loved you.
At the time, of course.
But not now, after having run into you at a house party a year after you broke up with him, with your stupid eyes staring into his eyes from across the room. No, certainly not now, after youâd chased after him the moment he looked away and started to leave. No, he didnât love you anymore, not after you broke his heart like that. Right, because who could love you after that?
Not him, thatâs for sure.
âWoonhak!â you called his name, trying to get his attention as you pushed past people hurriedly, trying to catch up with him. The music that blared from the speakers was loud enough to make your bones shake beneath your skin, and you were sure that no matter how loudly you called after him, he probably wouldnât hear you.
But Woonhak heard you. You were always the only voice in his head, the only voice he heard in a room overflowing with people. How could he not hear you?
When you finally did catch up to him, Woonhak was waiting impatiently on the curb two houses away, tapping his foot rapidly as he looked at his phone, muttering curses under his breath as he typed away. You let out a breath, keeping the distance between the two of you as you called his name again. âWoonhak.â
His ears twitched and his body became tense as he looked up from his phone and at you, in all your glory. The jacket you were wearing was slipping off your shoulder and you seemed out of breath as the cold winter air pierced your lungs. He didnât say anything at first, which seemed to kill you because there were a million things you wanted to tell him. But when he did speak, you swore you could hear your heart crack.
âWhat are you doing here?â
He said it like heâd never wanted to see you again, like your being there had ruined his entire night. Honestly, it had, because Kim Woonhak would now have to go home and deal with another sleepless night filled with nothing but visions of you. And, god, was he just so tired of it, of you, of being haunted by you.
You were haunting him and you didnât even know it.
âWhat do you mean?â you asked, your brows furrowing at his response. âI know these people. I have a right to be here.â
âNo.â Woonhak turned his phone off and let his arm drop to his side, turning to face you completely. âWhat are you doing here?â
And he was right â what were you doing there? Why would you chase after him, when it was so clear he wanted nothing to do with you? Why were you standing there like an idiot, knowing damn well whatever you wanted to tell him wouldnât even get past the lump thatâd begun to form in your throat. âI donât know,â you said quietly, almost in a whisper. âI donâtâŚâ You shook your head, looking away from him as you rubbed the side of your face with your palm. âI donât know.â
âYou donât know,â Woonhak repeated, nodding in disbelief. âWow. Okay.â He rolled his eyes and looked back at his phone. âPretty like you, isnât it? Not knowing.â
âWhat?â
âI mean, thatâs the same thing you said back then, right? When I asked you if you saw a future with me.â
âAre you serious?â you asked, your eyes widening. âThis is what you wanna talk about? Now? Right here?â
âI actually donât want to talk to you at all, Y/N,â he said, looking at you again. You could see it in his eyes, how angry he was with you, how he could no longer keep his hate for you a secret. You saw it, how he was still hurt despite all the time thatâs passed. âBut if weâre gonna talk, then yes, weâre gonna talk about that.â
Perhaps it was because heâd missed you so terribly that he was being so mean, because he couldnât stand another night of his dreams being invaded by you, because he was tired of pretending like he wasnât still in love with you even after youâd broken his heart. He just couldnât stand to see you in front of him, acting like you were friends, like nothing had happened between you. He couldnât take it, you acting like talking to your ex boyfriend was the most normal thing you could do.
He hated you. You and your stupid face and your stupid eyes and just you.
âWhat is it you want me to say?â you asked, your voice growing quieter by the second. âThat it was a mistake? That I was wrong?â You scoffed, âI was leaving, Woonhak. I was literally moving away!â
âWe couldâve made it work!â You could hear the frustration in his voice. âIf youâd just talked to me instead ofâ of dumping that on me when I asked you about us, we couldâve at least tried!â
âLong distance doesnât work. It never works. You think it wouldâve worked for us?â
Woonhak threw his hands up in defeat, letting out a loud sigh. âWhy not?â he said. âWhy couldnât we be an exception?â
âBecause it doesnât work like that.â
âWhat doesnât work like that?â Youâre quiet, unable to speak â not when heâs looking at you with so much anger. âNo, tell me,â he continues. âI want to know why you think we couldnât have made it work. Did you not love me enough? Were you just messing around with me because you knew I loved you? You had that mindset from the beginning, didnât you? You knew we werenât going to work out because you didnât want us to, right?â
âNo,â you said softly, shaking your head, tears beginning to take form in the corner of your eyes. âNo, youâve got it all wrong.â You look down as you put one hand on your hip and the other runs through your hair. How was it possible that he was just so⌠wrong? It was like he didnât know you at all. âI didnât want to,â you continued, inhaling deeply. âI was just scared.â
âOf what?â
You motion to the space between you and him, trying to find the right words to accurately convey your feelings. âOf us,â you manage to get out. âI liked you so much, Woonhak. And I was scared because Iâd never been so sure about anything in my life before. And the moment that I had accepted that I really did love you, I had to leave?â You look at him again, the expression on his face completely different than the one he was wearing before. His eyes had softened, no longer looking at you with hatred and disdain. No, he was listening to you, trying to make sense of what you were saying. âI justâ I didnât want to put you through that.â
Woonhak remembers everything about you. From the way you rub your nose when youâre nervous to the way you avoided looking people in the eye when you were being vulnerable, almost like you were embarrassed to say it. Woonhak remembered that as he watched you stare at the ground, suddenly overwhelmed. He regretted ever being mean to you, ever yelling at you, ever pretending he hated you â because he didnât. Kim Woonhak could never hate you. Not with your beautiful eyes that seemed to hold every unknown galaxy within them. No, not with your honey-like voice that seemed to melt him whenever you said his name. He couldnât hate you, not like this.
Who could?
âYou shouldâve told me,â Woonhak spoke, watching you cover your face as the intensity of your emotions became too much for you to handle, tears falling from your eyes. You wanted to hide. You wanted to get away. You wanted to disappear. âWhy didnât you tell me?â
âI donât know,â you sobbed, your shoulders shaking as you bit the inside of your cheek, your lower lip trembling. You inhaled sharply, âI just donât want you to hate me.â
Woonhak walks over to where youâre standing and wraps his arms around you, and it isnât until you feel him that you truly let yourself go â because he was always the only person you could do that with. Even now that there was nothing between you besides a shared pain. âI donât hate you,â he said, feeling the way your hands grasp onto his jacket desperately, almost begging for forgiveness. âThe opposite, actually.â
âIâm sorry.â Your voice is muffled as you speak into his chest. âIâm sorry.â Itâs all you can really say at the moment, the only thing you feel is appropriate to say after all this time. âIâm sorry, Woonhak.â
Moments later, after youâd calmed down, you find yourself sitting on the curb beside him, your hands wrapped around your knees as you listen to the faint music playing back at the party. Woonhak sits cross-legged, his hands in the pockets of his jacket, his eyes on the street before him. A silence had fallen upon you, your occasional sniffles filling his ears. He inhales deeply, gently rocking himself back and forth. âCan I be honest?â he asked. You hum in response, nodding as you wipe your nose with your sleeve. âI donât think I can be your friend, Y/N.â
âThatâs fair,â you respond. âI wouldnât want to be my friend either.â
âNo, thatâs not what I mean,â he sighed, trying to explain himself. âIâve justâ Iâve spent so much time thinking about you and missing you and dreaming about you that I donât think I could do it.â He paused, glancing at you, who was already looking at him. âI donât think Iâd be prepared for that.â
You blinked, âYou dream of me?â
Woonhak felt his cheeks heat up. âOf course I do,â he said, embarrassed that heâd let that part slip out. âAll the time.â
âReally?â
âOkay, just forget it.â He stood up, dusting off his pants. You reach up to grab his hand, the action shocking both of you, Woonhak freezing in place as he stares at you with wide eyes. You let go almost as quickly, your face suddenly feeling hotter than before.
âDonât leave,â you mumble, not looking at him. âI donât want to be alone.â
And the truth was, he wasnât going anywhere. Not now, not ever â because heâd already been stuck in the same place since the day you left him, like heâd glued his feet to the ground, waiting for you to unstick him. He sat back down without a word, keeping his hands close to him as he stretched his legs out on the road. You stared at him, waiting for something to happen, for someone to break the silence. But no one did and instead, Kim Woonhak just turned his head to look at you again because heâd always liked looking at you.
And he smiled â his stupid, gentle smile he used to give you when things were good, like you still meant the world to him (you did). And all you could do was smile back because you could never truly resist when it came to him.
Late nights, shining stars, and sunsets didnât mean a thing without Woonhak.
Ëâ⎠SYNOPSIS: Your nights had been dark and starless for years, leaving little space for wonder and spark. But when a cute stranger challenged you to chase sunsets, you accepted regardless of the sights. Because who needed the sun when you had Kim Woonhak?
Ëâ⎠PAIRING: woonhak x reader
Ëâ⎠GENRE: fluff, angst, wartime au, teen romance, first love
Ëâ⎠WORD COUNT: 8.2k
Ëâ⎠NOTE: inspired by so let's go see the stars. i listened, i came, i wrote (this). in all seriousness, this is my fave bnd song and i hope this idea did it justice âĄ
You met him under the stars.
Although they were hidden at the time, their sparkles dulled to the point of invisibility above the slumbering city. But while the city might be asleep, you were wide awake.
The sanctioned curfew had been getting stricter with each passing month. Energy was sacred at this time, and everyone knew to treat it as such. They followed the protocol, turning off all electricity and resorting to candlelight or the occasional battery-powered flashlights if they were fancy.
You had neither as you set out into the street tonight. Some might see this as hubris or negligence, but you trusted your instinct. Besides, with the artificial lights smothered not too long after the sun set, you didnât plan to venture far. It was a new moon today, which meant the sky would be at its darkest phase of the month. While this might deter the denizens from leaving the comfort of their homes, you took a hike up the local lookout with just your house keys and a mission.
You thought this would be a perfect time for the stars to appear again. Living in such an urban area, spotting any celestial body in the sky was nearly impossible on a regular night. But this wasnât a regular night. Itâd been a while since you had the privilege of having those anymore.
Presently, as you stood at an elevated hill overlooking the urban sprawl, you could see that not all the lights were shut off. Unfortunately, the factories at the edge of the town were still up and running. Flood lights illuminated the work areas as fumes billowed out of smokestacks into the already murky sky. All those who werenât in bed or resting within their homes were hard at work in those factories. Every able-bodied adult and every resource were poured into powering the machinery needed to keep production alive. It was what the government ordered, after all. And when the nation was in need, one could hardly refuse.
Alas, that meant no more mind-rotting television, no more reading in the dark, no more lamps to light the way home. This didnât bother you, though. You had lived here all your life, and you knew the way home from every corner of this city. A few years of this designated darkness was not enough to erase 17 years of learned routines and muscle memory.
Which is why you knew you had never seen him before.
There were a handful of other curfew-breakers out on the streets tonight, but none were interested in the sky. All of them kept their heads down as they passed on by, focused on getting home safe and avoiding scattered debris. But this stranger stood stalwart on the top of that hill, his attention solely on the expansive space above.
He looked unassuming for the most part, hands stuffed in the pockets of his black hoodie that made him almost blend into the night. The hill was big enough for the both of you, so you kept a comfortable distance as you approached. You would have left it at that, standing on opposite sides to watch the same sky in silence, but he glanced over his shoulder at you. He acknowledged you with a friendly smile, lips pressed together as his cheeks puffed up to say hi. It felt like an opening to start a conversation.
âAre you looking for the stars, too?â you asked, breaking the ice as you walked closer to where he stood. At a closer look, he appeared to be around your age but was a good deal taller than you. With black hair that swept down his forehead and curious eyes that followed your movement, he looked every bit unfamiliar to you.
âYouâll never see starlight here,â he responded matter-of-factly.
âNot with that attitude.â The snarky comment came out faster than you could consider if it was wise to challenge a random stranger. This could go one of two waysâhe either laughed at your joke, or he judged you and moved on. Somehow, he picked the secret, third option.
âYouâre right, let me justâŚâ The boy started stretching his arms out dramatically as if getting ready for a fight. But instead of throwing fists, he held his hands to his eyes, mockingly peering through binoculars as he craned his head toward the sky. âI think I can, I think I can.â
This display caught you off-guard as you felt a scoff escape your lips. You somehow managed to politely hold it in, clearing your throat. âOkay, now youâre probably scaring them off.â
âThe stars shouldnât be scared of some kid.â He redirected his attention so his gestured binoculars were pointed toward you. His eyes barely peeked through his encircled fingers, and you had to fight back a chuckle.
âMm, I donât know,â you said in a sing-song manner. âYou do look pretty menacing.â
The boy eventually lowered his hands to his side, cracking a smile. You finally got a good look at his faceâit was youthful and kind. He resembled the type of boy you would find living next door, except there were no boys in your neighborhood like him.
âYou seen stars here before?â he asked.
âNot yet, but I hope to one day.â
âHmmâŚâ
You looked at the boy, who seemed to be interrogating you with his narrowed eyes and crinkled eyebrows. âWhat?â
âSo youâve never seen them either,â he said with an accusing tone that all but called you a liar.
âHey, thereâs still a possibility,â you retorted. You furrowed your eyebrows and tilted your head back, searching the black canvas for any spark or shimmer. To your dismay, the cute stranger was right. The light pollution from the factories was enough to stave off any hopes of stargazing, even with the new moon. However, you were never taught to be a quitter. And you were certainly never taught to let boys convince yourself otherwise. âOkay, maybe not tonight, but you just have to wait for a clear forecast.â
âYouâd be waiting forever. Youâre better off chasing sunsets.â
âMm, tried that too.â You shook your head in disapproval. If there was a view to be seen in this city, you could bet you had already tried to capture it to no avail. Natural wonders seemed to be allergic to this place, but you couldnât blame them.
âMaybe you need a pair of fresh eyes.â
Even with the discouraging sentiment on stargazing, it didnât seem like he meant it in that way. The boy held a modest grin, but you swore you saw a twinkle in his eye as he peeked through the darkness to meet your gaze. It caught your attention in an instant, like finding an oasis in the vast desert.
âIs that an invitation?â you asked.
âMaybe more of a bet.â
Your lip quirked at that. Now your interest was definitely piqued. In a world of diminishing daylight and dwindling resources, the last thing on peopleâs minds was frivolous adventure in the name of wagers and capturing phenomena. But maybe that was just what you needed.
âThat does sound tempting.â
The boy turned at that, removing a hand from his pocket to extend it forward. It was the beginning of a bridge between you two, waiting to be built. âIâm Woonhak.â
The only sensible thing seemed to connect the bridge. As you reached forward to shake his hand, it was surprisingly softâa rarity in these parts where boys wear hard-earned callouses from manual labor or rough play.
You introduced yourself, and he repeated your name as if testing it on his tongue. To your ears, it sounded as if it were not the first time he spoke it. You were hoping it wouldnât be the last, either.
Woonhak broke out into a goofy smile, revealing a characteristic snaggletooth that was hard to miss. His grin earlier was welcoming, but this smile felt brighter than any star youâd seen. You had forgotten what it was like to be faced with such unsullied joy. Your own lips curved into a smile as a laugh bubbled up your chest, feeling a bit like unearthing a long-forgotten treasure that had been buried for far too long.
Your clasped hands bobbed up and down to a shared rhythm, the bridge made between two strangers, now acknowledged as acquaintances.
You got to know him at sunset.
The two of you got there early, and while the lead-up to dusk wasnât promising, you seated yourselves at the edge of the placid waterfront nonetheless. You watched each breeze ripple across the waterâs surface as you passed the time, sharing interests and anecdotes of the people you were. What were people anyway if not the culmination of their experiences?
As suspected, Woonhak was far from home. The military presence had only arrived a few years ago, and with it, so had he. The troops had set up a temporary base which included the families of some army officers. His father was a lieutenant commander, which allowed Woonhak to follow along on his journey across the country, despite having no part in the family business. Much like the rest of them, he was just a passenger on this ride to a destination unknown.
âThereâs a whole street dedicated to PC and gaming rooms!â Woonhak recalled the last city he lived in, swiping a hand across the air to emphasize the length of this infamous street.
âWe used to have something like that. It had a PC room, arcade, movie theater, manhwa room,â you listed, stopping yourself even though it could have gone on and on.
âAre they still open?â Woonhak looked expectant, but you shook your head. His shoulders dropped a bit at the news. âOh, well thatâs a shame.â
âDo you miss it? Your home?â
You expected a quick answerâit seemed so intuitive and obvious. But Woonhak paused for a moment, a pout appearing on his face as he mulled over the question. âYou know, I moved around so much that I barely know what city I would call home.â
âYou must have one that you want to go back to rather than staying here.â
âOh, all of them.â Now that answer was quick.
âOuch.â You reacted with a feigned wince, to which Woonhak raised his hands in front of him in a fury to explain himself.
âNo offense! This place is great!â
âDonât lie.â
âNo, really. I like the, um, trees.â
âThe trees?â you asked incredulously. You looked around, suspiciously seeing no trees near your current vicinity. âThey donât have trees where youâre from?â
âThe trees here are especially⌠leafy.â
You nodded slowly, watching him squirm with an innocent smile that wasnât fooling you one bit. âThat bad, huh?â
He started with an awkward laugh that eventually turned more genuine as you laughed along with him.
The exchange of history and shared interests brought with it a nostalgia that should have been left for elders, not teenagers. You let the emotion settle as you both looked forward longingly across the water, one with the lens of a newcomer and another a veteran of this land.
You remembered this horizon as a kid. You had visited here with your father years ago when the cityâs population was lower and the factories had not yet been constructed. Even back then, the view had been nothing to write home about. But now, you could hardly call it a view.
Unlike the stars that had been scared away into hiding, the sun foughtâand lostâin an attempt to pierce through its concealment. All elements of the setting sun were masked by the dusty clouds and the smog of a hard dayâs work. The gray and beige haze snuffed out what you could only assume was the beauty of the sunâs rays behind it.
âNo luck today,â you said once enough time passed for hopes to be let down as quickly as the sun.
âMaybe another time,â Woonhak responded as sure as there will be another day. âThereâs still a possibility, after all.â He flashed a cheeky grin as he repeated your previous sentiment. At first, you thought the failed sightseeing would lead to disappointment. Instead, his words brought a smile to your face and unbridled excitement at the prospect of seeing him again.
âThere are actually a lot of things to see in the cityâif you know where to find them.â
âOh?â His eyes were filled with that same curiosity from when you first saw him, with just a bit of mischief shining through. If it had been the you of the past, you would not have been so forward. You would have played it safe, but that was an archaic sentiment lost on the you of the present. You had nothing to fear and nothing to lose.
âI could show you around. Maybe youâll end up liking it here.â
Woonhak beamed at the suggestion, and from then on, you decided that it would not be a bad goal to see more of that smile. You extended an invitation, a promise of another day you two would meet, and he treated it as if it were the most valuable opportunity in the world.
âIâm gonna hold you to that offer.â
Even as the glow of the sunâs rays disappeared to leave behind a gray and navy residue, you sat with one another, exchanging stories of the lives you once knew. Two acquaintances quickly bonding over inquiry and wonder, finding yourselves sitting side-by-side as blossoming friends.
You fell for him through the late nights.
When you couldnât find the light in the skies, you took to the streets. Scouring the city for hidden gems and treasures was just as much of a challenge, but that didnât stop you two from trying. You stayed out in neighborhoods exploring both the abandoned and those still hanging onto life. You found your way, even as the lamps went out one by one.
You took him to places you knew, and Woonhak explored with you the places that were new. In the early days of your adventures, you would lead him down roads well-worn from your childhood as he tried to keep up. Other days, you would follow more cautiously as he scouted ahead to unfamiliar areas that shouldâand often didâhave caution signs hung around the perimeters. Of course, sometimes the roles were reversed.
âWhoa, thatâs kinda creepy.â You glanced over at the structure Woonhak was pointing his flashlight at.
It was an unassuming shop at the corner of an abandoned strip mall that had been boarded up and tagged with graffiti. There was nothing outstanding about it. Although, maybe the words TURN BACK dripping in red paint across the peeling exterior did give it a spooky vibe.
âI dare you to go in,â he said.
âAlright.â
Woonhak looked at you like you were crazy. âYou serious?â
You shrugged. âWhy not?â
âWhat if itâs haunted?â
That was not the worry you expected him to have. In your mind, it was much more realistic to run into squatters or wild animals than any sort of demon or ghoul. Still, you werenât going to ruin the excitement of possibilities.
âThereâs only one way to find out.â You started walking toward the building in full confidence, scanning the walls for some sort of entryway. You turned back when you heard no movement behind. âYou coming?â
The expression on Woonhakâs face seemed very much like he wanted nothing to do with this, but you didnât wait for his response. You continued forward, spotting a loose plank that was haphazardly left leaning against a doorway. At first glance, it seemed boarded up like everywhere else. But now that you tugged at the corner of the weathered wood, it tilted back with ease.
âJackpot.â You outstretched a hand behind you, facing your palm toward Woonhak. âFlashlight?â
He complied without hesitation, probably because relinquishing it meant you would be taking the lead. He placed the light source into your hand, and you immediately flashed it toward the interior.
It was pitch black in there, with no moonlight allowed to trickle in through the covered windows. The beam of the flashlight was the only illumination, casting long shadows across the dusty furniture and wares still left within what looked to have been a clothing store.
You maneuvered over some debris on the floor as you entered into the darkened confines of the building. You could hear footsteps behind you as Woonhak followed suit, albeit straggling just a little slower. You moved past some deconstructed shelves and stacked boxes until you drew the spotlight to another piece of red writing on the wall.
LAST CHANCE
You swore you heard Woonhak gulp behind you.
âOkay, this place is definitely haunted.â
âI donât think it was a ghost who wrote that.â The more probable explanation was that some of the other neighborhood kids claimed this as a hideout and didnât want trespassers. Either that or it was some employeeâs funny way of advertising a last chance sale on some discounted clothes.
âMaybe we should leaveââ
âShh.â You held up a hand, stopping him mid-sentence. You glanced around for good measure, acting as if you just heard a sound. Woonhak immediately had his hackles raised, scanning the surroundings along with you with a sudden urgency. It was quiet, almost too quiet, as you waited for any sign that you were not alone. Then, as Woonhak turned his attention away for a moment, you made your move.
âAHH!â
âAAUGHHHH!!!â
Woonhakâs scream echoed through the abandoned store as he nearly leapt out of his skin. You couldnât help but cackle even as you held a finger to your ear. You were sure he took out some of your hearing with that holler. Hell, you were scared of what was left of the windows because that sonic boom could be enough to make them shatter.
âGotcha,â you said slyly, moving the flashlight closer between the two of you.
âCome on!! Are you seriousââ What followed was a string of complaints you could barely make out through his giant pout. He hopped in place, flinging his arms around him as he essentially threw a tantrum. âAhh!! Youâre going to regret this!â He tried to act serious with his threat, but you could see the slight tint of his cheeks from the embarrassment. As for yourself, you couldnât stop laughing.
That was, until you heard a sound.
Both of your heads snapped in the direction, a sudden stillness falling over you two again. You flashed your light in the general vicinity, searching for what could have made the noise. You saw movement in the corner, and when you followed it with your light, you realized it was a mouse that had knocked over some debris. You scoffed, the tension releasing from the atmosphere.
âI think you woke the ghost up,â you joked, turning to poke fun at Woonhak. Except he was nowhere to be found.
You turned around fast enough to see him hightailing it out of the building, not bothering to look back. This left you laughing again, even as he left you hanging in the abandoned building alone. You knew that he would never live this incident down.
âAll that time cooped up in the base has made you soft,â you said to him once you two rendezvoused outside of the building. You expected him to argue all the merits and tough points of being a military brat. Instead, he just frowned like a regular brat, arms crossed in front of his puffed chest.
âIâve always been soft.â
Whether real or imagined, the dangers of exploring these areas were ever present. That was the fun of it, though. The two of you broke curfew and snuck around in the dark, finding stray resources and collectibles that were left over and undetected by the troops and volunteers that swept by. The items might not have been worth their weight in scrap, but to you and Woonhak, they were invaluable.
Your first shared treasure was a VHS player buried deep within one of the living rooms of a decrepit apartment complex. Woonhakâs cheer could probably be heard from a block away when you brought it back to your place to see that it was functional.
âThis bad boyâs gonna play so many tapes,â he said, patting the top of it with a satisfied grin.
âGreat! Do you have any?â
His smile wiped off his face. âNo. Do you?â
âNope.â
After that embarrassing revelation, you got to work, because there was no way you were going to let this machine go to waste. Over the next few weeks, your mission became to gather as many VHS tapes as possibleâeverything from The Goonies to The Breakfast Club. You huddled together in front of a vintage television under a makeshift blanket fort propped up by pillows and musty furniture. You even siphoned some energy during lights-off hours, keeping the curtains drawn and the volume low. It was your diminutive form of protest, stealing power when you were ordered to live in darkness. But what was a little bit of electricity compared to all that was robbed from you?
âWhat do you think happened after that?â you asked as the credits rolled after a movie one night. There was still one whole year of high school to follow the characters through, but the story was left open-ended for the audience to mull over.
âI donât know. Happily ever after?â Woonhak said with an exaggerated stretch.
âThat seems unrealistic.â
âWhat do you think then?â
âHonestly?â You thought for a second before shrugging. âThey probably graduated and grew up into boring adults.â
âUgh,â Woonhak responded with a groan. âI sure hope not. Thatâd be a bummer of a sequel.â
You just chuckled, nodding in agreement as you pressed eject on the video player.
âProbably better the movie ended where it did, then.â
The two of you went through the VCR tapes faster than what was probably recommended or sustainable. It wasnât a worry though, because once you ran out of new content to watch, you popped the same tapes back in to enjoy a second or even third time. These movies taught you two of high school delinquents and friends with a taste for adventure, of getting in trouble but still getting home on time for dinner. Some of these themes dissolved to tint your own world in technicolor hues.
âLook at these!â
Woonhak appeared to your doorstep one day with an extra skip in his step. He spun around, extending his legs to show off what you could clearly see were pants two sizes too big. He looked a bit ridiculous, whether it was unintentional or by design. Maybe he would grow into them.
âReal vintage jeans. From the late 1900s!â
âThose are from the â90s.â
âI said what I said.â
Woonhak always knew how to make you laugh, even in the darkest of times. The two of you searched deserted closets and discarded garments to find more bounties. You ran around singing tunes and recycling old fabric as bandanas, cosplaying as rebels from a time far from your own. You explored in tandem, marching forward like the leaders of a rebellious gang of two with your scuffed sneakers and loose jeans. Then, you hid away again, watching retro movies of a world that once was.
Your most prized possession actually came from your fatherâs bedroom. Tucked away in a box underneath his bed were two walkie-talkies. They were kept with his military keepsakes that werenât important enough to pack with himâor maybe he left them behind to keep them safe. Regardless of the reason, Woonhak easily convinced you that you would just be borrowing them for the time being.
You scavenged some batteries and repurposed the technology into your own personal toys. Yet another rule broken for your own benefit. With these walkie-talkies, you were kids again, exchanging messages and whispering secrets that no one else could hear. You were an astronaut and a space cadet, a spy and a mastermind, a ghostbuster and a medium. With these walkie-talkies, you were anything but the product of this war-torn country.
âHawkeye to Honey Badger. Do you read me?â
Your walkie-talkie buzzed with white noise at the end of the transmission. You lifted the device up to your lips before pressing the button to speak.
âLoud and clear.â
Suspiciously, you could hear a faint static behind one of the trees lining the courtyard nearbyâthe very leafy tree, you might add.
âIâve spotted my target. How should I proceed?â
It took no effort to match Woonhakâs energy, dropping your tone to be serious in your answer. âApproach with caution. The target may be armed and dangerous.â
âIâm going in, over.â
It wasnât long before you heard a rush of footsteps behind you and a rally cry sounding too happy to be threatening. Woonhak rushed in for the tackle, swooping in low to take hold of your torso. You let out a surprised squeal as your footing slipped and you both went tumbling into the grass.
The impact of the fall was softer than you expected, and you took this opportunity to use your most effective weaponâyou warned him, after all. You reached around to wiggle your fingers into Woonhakâs sides, successfully hitting him with a tickle attack. His movements became erratic as he cackled uncontrollably, and you found yourself giggling along, lungs strained with laughter as your world spun around you. The two of you rolled across the grass until a truce was called and you both lay on your backs next to each other, dizzy but with great smiles on your faces. If this was him enacting revenge, you didnât mind it at all.
Your heart was racing when your hands first touched. It was just the faintest brush of your knuckles, almost as if by accident. Except your fingers nudged against his again, daring to push the boundaries. With that, he quickly enveloped your hand, holding it in such a way that couldnât send any mixed signals.
Through these nights, you fell into a rhythm and for each other. First following one another, and now side by side. Your footsteps aligned, your breaths intermingled, your hands intertwined. And once you were fully in each otherâs grasp, you never wanted to let go.
You dreamed of a brighter future on the horizon.
Not every evening was a success. In fact, the majority of them could be considered failings, your prizes obscured by pollution of both light and air. But once in a blue moon, you would be blessed with a glimpse of something special.
The sixth time was the charm. There was a break in the clouds for merely a short moment, the smog letting up just enough to allow the light in. A sliver of orange filtered through the monotone sky that had been painted above your heads, reflecting off of the river below, as you and Woonhak watched on. The rare phenomenon had your undivided attention. You stood on the bridge, leaning forward as far as the railing would safely allow, hoping to catch this elusive sunset. It was like catching sight of a mythical being. The splash of color painted warmth across the landscape, like a flash of what could be. A sight of maybe what awaited you at the end of all this.
As quickly as it arrived, it vanished.
You let out a sigh, a breath mixed with amazement and parting sorrow. The skyline left behind was still thrumming with a warm tone, but it faded far too swiftly. While it had been a remarkable view, it left you wanting more. Like those films of youth and summer vacations by the beach, you wanted to experience that bold, almost oppressive warmth.
âThe sunsets in Busan must be amazing this time of year,â you wondered out loud, remembering the visages from magazines and movies.
âI lived there for a while!â Woonhak exclaimed, flaunting with his chest puffed.
Your eyes lit up. âReally? How was it?â
âI was too young to remember.â
You visibly deflated, throwing a playful punch at his arm. It was like pushing a button that extracted a complaint and a laugh from him. âDonât get my hopes up like that.â
âMy mom liked it, so Iâm sure it was great.â He paused before correcting himself. âProbably still is.â
You heaved another dreamy sigh. âIâve always wanted to go.â
The entire world was all facing toward the same burning star in the sky, but somehow each perspective was vastly different. The sun was like a tired mistress here, rising and falling just because it was expected of her, kept under a veil to shield her from prying eyes. But the Busan sun seemed like a newlywed bride, flourishing and flaunting her beauty for the whole coast to see.
âWill you take me with you?â Woonhak asked.
It was a rather innocent question, but you felt the anticipation behind it. You craned your neck to look at him as you leaned on the railing together, shoulder to shoulder. His imploring gaze made you realize you hadnât even considered a future where he wasnât there with you, basking in the true dusk of a clear sky.
âI wouldnât have it any other way.â
You leaned in for a chaste kiss, capturing his lips with a newfound resolution. You could feel him smile against your lips as he deepened the kiss. In this moment, it felt like you sealed a promise. When you parted, you shared a meaningful look, your smiles never falling from your faces.
Woonhak shifted to stand behind you like a pillar of safety. He wrapped his arms around you and held you tight, nuzzling his cheek closer to yours. You placed your hands over his arms, letting yourself lean back snugly against him in full trust.
âYou know, the sun is just a star in our solar system,â you recited as the remnants of day soon descended into night.
âWell, no wonder our luckâs terrible,â Woonhak said with a huff. âWeâve been trying to chase starlight all this time.â
A smile curled on your lips as you both watched the same darkening sky. âMaybe weâll have better luck somewhere else.â
âI heard thereâs real sunsets in L.A.,â he said into your ear.
It felt like a promise. Another one you exchanged with no need for further words.
There might not be sunlight filtering through the dark storm of dust and carbon, but you felt a different type of warmth in Woonhakâs secure embrace. A warmth that brought up the image of the trickling sunlight you just bore witness to. While it had been painfully brief, it now lived in your memories where you would keep it safe. You might even nurture it and let it grow into a dream, looking forward to the days when you could save dazzling horizons and brilliant skies into your precious bank of memories.
âLetâs go see it together.â
You lost him at sunrise.
It was your initial fear when you awoke at dawn to the cityâs commotion of rumbling engines and stomping feet. You could hear it even from your home, despite being further in the suburbia, and it left an uneasy feeling that drove you to start the day early. You turned on the news to get a sense of what was going on but obtained no helpful information whatsoever. It was to be expectedâthese broadcasts didnât give the people true updates, only the usual placations for its citizens or diversions for potential eavesdroppers. It was only when you stepped out of your home that a neighbor returning from his graveyard shift at the factory broke the news.
âThe troops are all leaving. Heard it was a âtactical retreat.â Theyâre heading back inland to the new base.â
The jaded neighbor went into more detail, reeling off a long list of grievances with how the base was built with their blood, sweat, and tears. The efforts and materials put forth by the factory laborers of this city were all being hauled out of its origin to go fortify this new rendezvous point. But you werenât listening. You were panicking.
You took off down the street without another thought, ignoring the last grumble of protest toward the military presence from the unhappy worker behind you.
âGood riddance.â
The streets were crowded and rife with action by the time you made it downtown. All down the main road, military personnel were loaded into trucks and vans heading out eastward. Vehicles roved and soldiers marched on toward the rising sun, its young rays peeking over the inhabitants who have all been rudely awakened at this early hour. It seemed that the neighborâs intel was right. The troops were all departing. But even as you watched them with your own eyes, you couldnât believe it to be true.
He had promised.
Breathless from your urgent sprint, you rushed forward to follow alongside the fleeting formation. Your gaze swept across the faces for any sense of familiarity, for anyoneâs gaze to meet yours, but everyone kept their eyes locked forward. They didnât bother to pay a random teenager any mind, even as you raced to the front of the exit route and waited as each soul passed you by.
You watched carefully, scanning the faces that came and went in the windows of each truck. You even peered at each officerâs uniform, trying to spot the telltale stripes and star that would signify a lieutenant commander. You stood resolute at the edge of that road, braving the dirt and debris that got kicked up to burn your eyes and sting your lungs. You tried to hold onto hope, but each beat of a soldierâs step or exhaustâs backfire drove the stake deeper in your heart until fractures spread across its surface. You werenât sure how much longer you could last, but you withstood it until the very last soldiers passed the threshold, leaving behind only tire tracks and scattered footprints.
At the end of it all, you were left with an empty road and the sunâs diffused light high in the dusty sky.
The walk home was unbearable in more ways than one. Your dry eyes and hoarse throat were made worse as you choked down the sobs that threatened to rise up. It was a struggle to breathe, even as you wandered back into your neighborhood and away from the urban sprawl. You held it together, hands clutching at your own arms as you drew them in tight toward your torso. You felt as if you would fall apart if you didnât.
But then you saw him.
A lonely figure paced back and forth on your front porch. His rigid posture exhibited almost as much distress as you felt, the frenetic energy emanating from his harried steps on the faded wood. Your breath finally caught in your throat when he looked up with widened eyes. The moment your gazes met, Woonhak rushed forward.
You found yourself running, your hands letting go of yourself as you reached out to him. The impact was almost painful as Woonhak drew you into a bone-crushing embrace. The air knocked out of your lungs, and you flung your arms over his shoulders to cling onto his taller form. In that instant, you let yourself fall apart in his arms, and he held you impossibly tighter. Behind him, you saw his walkie-talkie laying strewn by the front doormat. You had stupidly left yours behind in your bedroom.
âI thought they took you away,â you managed to say in between your tears that had begun flowing.
âDonât worry, Iâm here. Iâm not leaving.â
His words were assured, but his voice trembled with a great effort to keep himself steady. To keep from breaking, too. It was a frivolous attempt, because soon enough, you could hear his stifled sobs by your ear as he pressed his face into your neck.
You couldnât imagine what he was feeling, what he was going through. Woonhakâs family had gone without him, whether willingly or not. Instead of sitting on one of those caravans with them, he was standing on this empty street with youâand that was willingly. You continued to hold onto one another with desperation and a settling realization that you now understood what it meant to be two lovers who had each other completely.
He had promised, and he had remained.
You placed your faith in the constellations.
It was amazing what a little imagination could do for humankind. It was sometimes the driving force behind peopleâs lives when the days became too dreary and the nights droned on in an identical manner. People often saw it as a privilege to be creative, but at times it could be necessary.
âThereâs the Big Dipper,â you recited, pointing your index finger to the northern sky. The formation of stars was easy to spot if you knew where to look, coming together to connect the mental picture of a tilted ladle. It was always found in the night sky year-round, never disappearing below the horizon. Or, it wasnât supposed to. It wasnât lost on you that your finger traced over nothing, but Woonhakâs eyes still followed. âThey also call it the Seven Stars of Fate.â
âSounds pretty important,â Woonhak responded, turning his head to regard you. You both lay on your favorite secluded hill, one you two claimed with a small flag made from a wooden skewer and crumpled snack wrapper. Here, you could rest with your backs on the grass and eyes on the blanket of night. âWhyâs it called that?â
âPeople prayed to it in the past. They believed that the constellation oversaw fate, lifespans, andâŚâ
âAnd?â
You ducked your eyes to meet Woonhakâs. âThe protection of children.â
Everything from birth to death, each star in the Big Dipper was believed to write and erase names from the Book of Life. It was a story passed down through the generations, once viewed as a belief as true as water flowed downstream, now more of a folktale of forces beyond your time.
âThatâs a lot of pressure to put on a few stars.â
âYeah, it is,â you agreed solemnly. âBut you gotta place your faith in something.â
You wondered how those people were like in the past, praying to a deity in the stars they could not see. Attributing good fortune to being heard by the heavens while the ignored suffered with bad omens. In a way, it was admirable, holding onto a blind faith in spite of any challenges they faced. To be honest, you were starting to understand how that must have felt.
âLook there. Do you think thatâs a star?â You pointed up in the sky again as both of your attentions shifted toward the space. You knew the answer already. It was just a satellite in orbit, a single light in the otherwise bleak span of the night. But you had imagination on your side.
âAbsolutely.â Woonhak just smiled at you brightly, and you wanted to believe it more than anything. âWe should give it a name.â
âWhat do you have in mind?â
He hummed, taking a long pause to ponder. âThe Little Helper.â
You had to stop yourself from snorting, an amused smile tugging at your mouth. With how long he took to come up with the answer, you expected it to be some sort of profound name.
âThe Little Helper?â you repeated as a question.
Woonhak just nodded cheerfully. âOr also called the Eighth Star of Fate. It can share some of the responsibility and help out the Big Dipper.â
Your laughter subsided, but a soft smile was left on your face as you appreciated the sweet boy next to you. Time and time again, he never ceased to amaze you.
The two of you continued to spend the night drawing constellations with your fingers outstretched into the air. To the two of you, the empty sky was just a blank canvas waiting to be drawn on. You lay on your backs in this grassy knoll, his warm hand held constant over yours as he guided your finger to connect the imaginary dots. Each of these dots held meaning, held potential. It held the trust that these stars were right where they would be. You might not see them at this very moment, but you knew they were there.
Stars werenât snuffed out that easily.
Maybe they wouldnât be there for eternityâyou wouldnât go as far as to hope for thatâbut maybe they would bless the earth for at least the next 50, 100, or even 400 years. Strangely, it felt like a nice, concrete number, carrying more promise than the abstraction of forever. It was a mere blip in the greater timeline of the universe, so maybe the universe would be more willing to grant that small wish. Maybe the stars would be more willing to listen.
You wished the night didnât end.
The earth shook as the lights went out this time. The source was distant but strong enough to cause a jolt in the homeâs foundation and a drop in your stomach. There was a small crash in the living room as everything went pitch black. You stood frozen for a moment, letting your eyes adjust to the sudden change. Thankfully, a bit of moonlight trickled in from the window to light your path as you carefully stepped forward out of your room.
When you made it into the living room to investigate the noise, you noticed an object laying on the middle of your wooden floor. Nearing closer, you recognized it to be a picture frame that must have been knocked off of the mantle above. You stooped down to gingerly pick it up from its faced-down position. While no glass or broken pieces littered the surroundings, a large crack ran straight across the expanse of the clear pane.
It was a picture of your father.
You had never been a religious person, but you felt a instinctive pull to pray in that moment. You werenât sure who you were praying to, whether it was a starry entity from the past or an all-knowing figure from the present. All you knew was that you felt like a child again, holding your father close to your chest as the darkness cradled you like a doting guardian. It felt neither chilling nor comforting. It just was.
You didnât know how long you knelt there in the middle of your home when you heard the familiar crack of static. Muffled words resonated from your bedroom as your walkie-talkie sprung to life. You couldnât catch the content, but you knew it only meant one thing.
Woonhak was nearby.
Picking yourself up off the ground, you made a beeline toward your room. You pushed aside your pillow to reveal the walkie-talkie just as another message transmitted through.
âHey, can you hear me?â
You picked up the device, pressing the button to respond. âLoud and clear.â A burst of white noise signaled he was speaking again.
âIâm in front of your house. If youâre not asleep, letâs go on a walk.â
It was an invitation that normally would send a giddy flutter through your heart. But rather than a spike upward, you felt your chest sink into the words. You were no strangers to the late nights, fully prepared to face the dangers of getting caught or stumbling in the shadow. You had written your story in the dark, illuminated only by the TV screen or the infrequent flashlight. Tonight was no different, you told yourself. You breathed out, allowing for just a brief moment to let your heart rise once more before replying.
âIâll be right out.â
Leaving your walkie-talkie behind, you stepped back into your living room. You carefully placed the photo frame upright back onto the mantle, regarding the face of your father one more time before heading out the front. You didnât bother to lock the door behind you.
All thoughts left your head when you saw Woonhak standing a few paces away from your porch with his gaze held high. He was shaded under the lightless street, but as soon as he set his eyes on you, his entire expression lit up. An immense smile greeted you, and you swore it was enough to brighten the entire area from one end of the road to the next.
âWhat are you doing here?â you asked as you stepped forward to meet him.
âThere were so many stars in the sky, so I wanted to walk with you for a bit.â
That was when you finally looked up. For the first time in your life, you saw the stars. Thousands of twinkling lights that could never be mistaken for anything other than what they were. The skies were strikingly clear, opening up the faint outline of an entire galaxy watching over you. Your smile matched Woonhakâs, stretching across your face so wide it almost hurt. There were far too many dots to count, but you wanted to connect them all.
âLetâs get a better view!â You took Woonhakâs hand and led him through the paths you were most familiar with.
Not one streetlamp was on as you traversed the terrain, but it was okay. The light from the stars above guided you on your journey. Your necks craned back to keep their eyes on the miracle, running as fast as you could through the sidewalks and alleyways. Your shoes hit the pavement, echoing through the otherwise silent atmosphere until a fit of laughter rose to join in the harmony.
âLook at us,â Woonhak called out into the cool night air, breath hitching with each stride. âWeâre like a scene from one of our movies!â
He was right. As you laughed wholeheartedly, louder than you had in a very long time, it felt like the two of you were the stars of your own youth film. You felt like a firework ready to explode, oxygen and glee caught in your throat from the exertion of the prolonged run. Still, you persisted, running and running until your entire beings burned almost as bright as the stars. Your legs protested as you two trekked up the steep hill you had once met on until finally, you stood overlooking the city before you.
It was uncanny, standing at this vantage point to witness a completely novel scene. The entire city was blacked out, from the residential neighborhoods to even the factories at the outer border. It felt like a world flipped upside down, as if the stars swiped the lights straight from the city and painted their once-blank canvas with wondrous glowing colors.
The more you blinked, the more stars seemed to become visible with nothing to hide them anymore. You wanted to check for all the constellations, point out each and every one now that they were in full view. You wanted to capture them in your memory: Cassiopeia, Draco, the Big Dipper. But your eyes didnât stay upward for long, because you realized in all this breathless wonder and dire excitement, you had something more important you wanted to capture.
And when you looked down at Woonhak, you saw that he was already staring back at you.
Your hands wouldnât stop shaking. You didnât realize it until they werenât anymore. Woonhak drew closer, slipping his fingers with yours and clasping you steady, grounding you and keeping you from floating away. He gazed at you like you were the only person in the worldâthe only thing that mattered. And you believed it. You believed it to be truer than any fact of the universe, and you didnât need the power of the constellations to confirm that.
So, you kissed him. You threw your arms around his neck and he pulled you close by the waist. You felt like a puzzle piece, resting into a place created just for you, the only place you fit. The only place you wanted to be.
Late nights, shining stars, and sunsets didnât mean a thing without him. Even as the stars refused to shine and the sun hid from sight, these were not missed opportunities but precious memories. Time and shared space were few and far between in this realm, but you chased them like an eclipseâtogether. And you longed for the days to relive them. Not for their beautiful views but for him.
âI love you,â you whispered when you pulled away.
Your desperate confession was met with a tearful smile. It broke your heart and mended it again, because only he could hurt and heal you in this moment. Woonhak leaned forward, pressing his forehead against yours as a sorrowful laugh wracked through his body.
âI love you, too.â
All the stars in the sky, and yet you were staring at each other. Despite the darkness, the two of you burned the brightestâmore than any star above your heads or sun across the horizons. You were the main characters of your own story, and the universe finally came out of hiding to become your witness.
Above you, the stars began to shine impossibly brighter. Then, they began to fall. Even as the lights streaked down across the night sky, blooming to reach the level of daylight, you remained in each otherâs arms.
After all, the brightest stars burned the fastest.
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IN WHICH your missions with Superboy always ended in biting words and rolled eyes, so being sent to Fort Marshall as a newlywed couple felt less like co-ops and more like a cruel joke set up by Batman and the rest of the Young Justice for a quick laugh. The charade forces you into close quarters where every glance and every touch has to look convincing under scrutinizing eyes. What begins as another battle of stubborn pride shifts when the mission unravels around you, and the rivalry youâve always clung to no longer feels like the whole truth. Disabling the satellite should be simple, but between the staged dances, the tightrope of secrecy, and the way every touch lingers longer than it should, you both begin to realize that it takes two to tangoâand somewhere in the act, you may have stopped pretending.
FEATURING boynextdoor's woonhak as superboy and reader as seraphim, protĂŠgĂŠ of saturn girl ft. uncle kibong as alfred
GENRE frenemies to lovers, golden retriever x black cat, fake marriage au, action, humor, mutual pining, and the one bed trope (WC. 16.8k)
WARNINGS cursing, mentions of violence, injuries and bleeding, and mentions of weapons
NOTES FINALLY !! ik i haven't been the most active recently and i apologize for that T^T uni has been totally kicking my butt . BUT ALAS i managed to find some time to write and participate in this wonderful wonderful collab ! thank you soso much to gill for hosting and thank you so much to the rest of the members of the collab for the constant support, talks, and laughs even tho i went m.i.a halfway thru đ also plz forgive me and my insane wc i actually don't know what happened... i just blacked out and there was 16k words,, anyway hope you enjoy !! <3 not proofread we ball lolz
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The sun bled across the horizon, a molten spill of oranges and deep crimsons that clung to the sky like fire on water. Long shadows stretched over the empty desert highway when you and Woonhak finally pulled over. The engines of your motorbikes ticked faintly as they cooled, the only sound in the vast silence of Nevadaâs nothingness.
The gas station looked like a forgotten relicâits neon buzz barely audible over the cicadas, its convenience store glowing faintly against the dusk. Inside, it smelled of bleach and old coffee. Fluorescent lights hummed overhead, bathing the empty aisles in a sterile glow. You wandered slowly, basketless, arms gradually filling with garish snack bags and neon-colored energy drinks until it felt like you were carrying a mountain of sugar and sodium.
The automatic door sighed open as you pushed through, a bell chiming weakly overhead. âThanks,â you mumbled to the lone, half-asleep cashier before stepping back into the desert air.
Outside, Woonhak leaned against his motorbike as if he belonged in a glossy magazine spreadâthough with his chin drooping to his chest and arms crossed, he looked more like a kid dozing in detention than a poster boy. His hair shifted slightly with the wind, and for a fleeting moment, the painted sky behind him made the scene look almost cinematic.
âSo,â you called, dropping your spoils onto your bikeâs seat with a clatter of crinkling wrappers, âgot any bright ideas about how weâre sneaking in?â
His head lifted slowly, eyes hazy, and then sharpened just in time to catch the energy drink you offered. He cracked it open like it was second nature, downing the first sip before answering.
âNope. Figured youâd think of something. Youâre the brains.â
You rolled your eyes, the faintest smirk tugging at your lips. âWhich is why I already called Alfred. Heâs got something lined up.â
Woonhak tilted his head, brow furrowed. âThen why ask me at all?â
âWanted you to pretend you were helping,â you said, shrugging with a playful grin. His frown softened into a pout.
âYouâre so mean.â
âYouâre just a big olâ baby,â you teased.
He opened his mouth for a comeback, but the sharp beep-beep of your wristwatch silenced him. You glanced down, smirking at his aborted protest, and tapped the display. A soft blue glow unfolded in the dry evening air as Alfredâs hologram materializedâtall, steady, and comfortingly familiar, though tinted with flickers of static.
âYouâre in luck,â he began, voice carrying the crisp precision of someone who had been through a hundred such briefings. âFort Marshall is hosting a two-day military ball for its seventy-fifth anniversary.â
Woonhak slid closer, his shadow overlapping yours on the cracked asphalt. He leaned just enough to peer over your shoulder. âAnd that meansâŚ?â
âIt means youâll infiltrate as a military couple. Superboy as a decorated officer, Seraphim as his wife.â
Heat shot to your cheeks so fast it startled you. âHis wife?!â The words cracked out too loud against the quiet desert. You fumbled, voice lowering. âThatâs absurd. Isnât there another way? Weâve snuck into tighter places than this.â
Alfredâs holographic head shook. âNot this time. The fort is locked down. Security is layered thick, especially with the high-profile guests in attendance. Disguises are your only option.â
You sighed, fingers twitching against your thigh. The silence stretched, broken only by the faint fizz of Woonhakâs half-finished drink.
Then, warm and close, his voice slid into the space between. âWhatâs the fuss, honey?â he drawled, each word dripping with mock sweetness. âSounds perfect to me.â
Your teeth clenched. You wanted to elbow him square in the ribs. âDonât start.â
Turning back, you exhaled slowly. âFine. Whatâs the plan?â
Dawn rose pale and merciless, the desert sky already bleached toward white by the coming heat. The Nevada air clung like sandpaper to your skin, seeping into every seam of your dress. You tugged at the thin navy strap digging into your shoulder, irritation building with the humidity that wasnât supposed to exist in the desert.
Behind you, Woonhak wrestled with his bowtie, the crisp fabric of his ceremonial uniform at odds with his restless hands. His chest gleamed with pins and medals whose significance you couldnât name, though they caught the sunlight with each frustrated movement.
Beyond the lot, sleek limousines glided up the paved road toward the fort, pausing beneath the scrutiny of armed guards before being waved through the towering gates. The glint of sunlight on rifles was impossible to ignore.
You bent slightly, checking the straps hidden beneath your skirt. The cool press of knives against your thigh grounded you, the last piece of you beneath layers of someone elseâs costume. The hem of your dress brushed against your knees, swishing like something foreign and delicate.
âGoddamn it!â Woonhak exploded suddenly, fists dropping in defeat. His bowtie dangled crooked and useless.
You let out a scoff, heels wobbling as you crossed to him. âCome here.â
He obeyed instantly, bottom lip jutted like a child caught misbehaving. He held the tie out to you, big hands clumsy in their frustration.
You took it with deft fingers, standing close enough to smell the clean starch of his uniform, the faint trace of motor oil still lingering on his skin. He averted his gaze, eyes fixed on the horizon as if the rising sun was more interesting than your concentration.
âThere,â you said, tightening the last loop and stepping away quickly. âDone. Now letâs go.â
The trunk of the black sports car Alfred had provided shut with a satisfying slam. Inside, the leather smelled faintly of soap, the polished interior almost too pristine for the dust of the desert. You slipped into the passenger seat, sighing in relief as the cushioned leather cooled your overheated skin.
âYouâre driving,â you declared.
His brows arched. âWhy?â
âBecause weâre a traditional couple now. The wife doesnât drive.â
He barked out a laugh, shaking his head as he slid into the driverâs seat with smooth ease. âIf you say so. For the record? I think women are terrifyingly good drivers.â
âCareful. If this werenât an op, Iâd strap you to the roof.â
âAwh, you flatter me, darling.â
His hand brushed over yours in mock affection, and your powers jolted before you could stop them. The telepathic sting bit sharply enough that he winced, clutching his temple.
âJesusâthat hurt! What was that for?â
âDonât just grab my hand like that!â you hissed, heart still racing. âYou scared me.â
He gritted his teeth, wincing. âScared you? You nearly fried my brain.â
ââŚSorry.â The word slipped out too quietly. You fixed your gaze on the tinted window, cheeks burning hotter than the rising desert sun.
He shot you a sideways glance, surprise flickering across his features. âDid you just apologize?â
You smirked faintly. âI do when Iâm wrong.â
âCorrection: youâve never apologized to me before.â
âMaybe Iâve just never been wrong when it comes to you.â
Woonhak knew there was no point in retorting.
The car purred down the desert road, its engine smooth as silk, a stark contrast to the gravel-throated roar of your bikes. Ahead, Fort Marshall loomed like a jagged shadow against the pale morning sky. Its walls of concrete and steel fencing rose high, barbed wire glinting with cruel sharpness in the sun. Guard towers dotted the perimeter, rifles angled down, watchful and unblinking. Even from here, the weight of scrutiny pressed against the windshield, making the air inside feel thinner.
The closer you got, the more your pulse quickened. Lines of glossy cars inched forward at the checkpoint, their polished chrome flashing in the light. Security moved briskly from vehicle to vehicle, their clipped voices muffled but authoritative, their eyes darting with the practiced sharpness of hawks. The air reeked faintly of gasoline, hot asphalt, and the unmistakable tang of military-grade tension.
Beside you, Woonhak drummed his fingers against the steering wheel. Not nervousânever nervousâbut restless, like a predator forced to crawl instead of sprint.
By the time you rolled up to the gate, silence had fallen between you.
âGood morning,â the soldier barked, his face obscured by aviators. His posture was ramrod straight, voice rehearsed down to its syllables. âName?â
âKim, Woonhak,â your partner replied smoothly. His voice carried the easy weight of someone who belonged here. He tilted his head toward you, lips curving faintly. âAnd my wife, Y/N L/N.â
The soldier typed rapidly into his terminal. Seconds stretched. His frown deepened. âThere is no such name in the system.â
A cold current slid through your veins. For the first time, Woonhak faltered. âThere must be a mistakeââ
You leaned forward before he could unravel the illusion. The seatbelt tugged tight across your chest as you slid across the console, angling yourself so your eyes locked with the soldierâs.
âOfficer,â you began, your voice low, steady, a hum beneath the desertâs dry air. âThere mustâve been a mix-up. We declined the invitation at firstâmy husband was still overseas, on assignment. But then the situation changed.â
You let the words pour slower, dripping into the cracks of his focus. Your power brushed against his mind like fingertips smoothing fabric. His thoughts were taut, ordered, rigidâand you pulled delicately at the threads.
âHe couldnât bear the thought of missing the seventy-fifth anniversary of the first ever base he called home,â you continued, your voice laced with warmth. You tilted your head toward Woonhak, who blinked but caught on.
âRight,â he said quickly, leaning into the act.
âAnd surely,â you murmured, your eyes still locked on the soldierâs, âyou wouldnât turn away Colonel Kim. Second cousin to the Minister of Defense.â
The name fell like a pebble into water, rippling through the soldierâs composure. His gaze faltered, shoulders loosening by imperceptible degrees. You felt the exact moment his mind began to bend, the rigid walls softening, making space for the version of truth you painted.
âYes⌠yes, of course,â he stammered. âColonel Kim. And his wife. Please, forgive me. You may enter.â
The gate arm lifted with a hydraulic groan.
You slumped back against your seat, pulse thrumming, your body heavy with the aftertaste of the exertion. Woonhakâs lips parted in a silent whistle.
âYouâre terrifying when you do that,â he muttered, easing the car forward.
âYouâre just noticing now?â
The car rolled beneath the looming arch of the fort. Barbed wire blurred past the windows, replaced by the ordered sprawl of the baseâbarracks lined with precision, parade grounds trimmed within an inch of perfection, the air carrying the faint metallic scent of oil and gunpowder.
An attendant in a starched uniform opened your door with mechanical courtesy. The moment your heels hit the asphalt, the world around you shifted. Soldiers moved like gears in a clock, their steps sharp and synchronized. A few cast glances your wayâpolite, but assessing, as though weighing your worth against the medals stitched to Woonhakâs chest.
He stepped forward, offering his arm with a gravitas so uncharacteristic you almost laughed. âShall we?â
The fabric of his uniform pulled taut against the swell of his bicep. You bit your lip before slipping your hand into the crook of his elbow.
âWe shall,â you answered softly.
Together, you walked into the lionâs den.
The parade grounds smelled of fresh-cut grass. Morning sunlight bounced off rows of brass buttons and polished boots, the air vibrating with ceremony. Flags snapped crisply overhead, their colors vivid against the pale sky.
You stood beside Woonhak, who looked every inch the decorated officerâeven if you knew his bowtie had nearly defeated him an hour earlier. His posture was stiff, chest broad, medals gleaming like theyâd always belonged to him.
âQuit fidgeting,â you whispered, noticing his fingers twitching against his sleeve.
âI canât help it,â he muttered back, his voice pitched low. âThis shit is so boring.â
The remark nearly pulled a laugh out of you, but someone a few rows back hissed, shushing sharply. You pressed your knuckles against your mouth, shoulders shaking with suppressed giggles.
The commanderâs voice droned on, carrying tales of legacy and sacrifice. Words blurred together in the heavy heat, but the 21-gun salute that followed cracked through the monotony like thunder. Each shot rolled through your bones, echoed by the roar of fighter jets slicing across the sky. The crowd stiffened in awe, while you fought the urge to jump at each booming report.
Beside you, Woonhak stifled a yawn, his eyes glazed with impatience. And despite the danger surrounding you, you almost wanted to laugh again.
The commanderâs speech finally faded into polite applause, and the crowd slowly dispersed into smaller knots of people. Sunlight spilled over the parade grounds, catching on medals and polished heels, painting the morning in hard, unforgiving brightness.
You barely had a moment to breathe before an officer in a starched white uniform clapped his hands sharply. âLadies and gentlemen, if youâll follow me, weâll begin a brief tour of the fort before refreshments are served.â
Groups of couples formed almost instinctively, clustering in neat rows like chess pieces on a board. You and Woonhak fell into step with half a dozen others, your arm still looped through his, the heat of his body radiating against your side.
The officer guiding your group had the voice of a seasoned lecturerâdry but practiced, his words rolling out like bullets chambered one after another. He gestured with sharp precision toward each landmark you passed: the barracks, the old mess hall, the training grounds where the dirt was pitted from years of drills.
âThis fort was founded in 1950,â he said proudly, his boots clicking in time with his cadence. âIt has stood as a cornerstone of American defense for seventy-five years. Over twenty thousand soldiers have trained here, including our own colonel, who is with us today.â
Heads turned toward Woonhak. For one awful second, you felt his hand tense against yours. His smile froze on his face like a photograph, bright but brittle.
You jumped in before the silence had teeth. âYes, darling, youâve told me so many stories about this place.â
âHave I?â he said blankly.
A ripple of polite laughter rolled through the group, the other couples exchanging knowing looks. One woman in pearls leaned closer, whispering loud enough for everyone to hear: âNewlyweds. Theyâre still figuring each other out.â
Your cheeks flushed hot. You forced a brittle laugh. âAh, yes, newlyweds. Of course.â
Woonhak tilted his head at you with infuriating amusement, eyes glinting. He leaned closer, his breath brushing your ear. âGuess that makes you my blushing bride.â
âPlay along or Iâll fry your brain where you stand,â you muttered through clenched teeth, your lips stretched in what you hoped passed as a smile.
Another round of chuckles rippled behind you. One man nudged his wife knowingly. âAh, young love. Always bickering, arenât they?â
You wanted to sink into the asphalt.
The officer droned on, oblivious to your unraveling cover. âThis section of the fort was used during the Cold War as a missile command centerâŚâ His words blurred at the edges of your focus, drowned beneath the steady hum of your telepathy.
Keeping two hundred minds bent around the same illusion was like holding your breath while running uphill. Every second stretched your focus thin, every slip of concentration threatening to expose you. Already you could feel cracks formingâsome soldiersâ thoughts leaned toward suspicion, while others softened into a hazy certainty that you and Woonhak had been married only weeks, still caught in the glow of honeymoon fever.
A woman in a bright red dress beamed at you, her voice dripping with delight. âHow long has it been since the wedding?â
Your stomach flipped. Before you could answer, Woonhak chimed in with a grin too wide. âFive years.â
âSix months,â you corrected instantly.
The group burst into laughter again. One of the men clapped Woonhak on the shoulder. âDonât worry, Colonel. They always remember the dates better than we do.â
Your jaw ached from forcing your smile.
As the officer led you deeper into the fortâpast armories that smelled of oil and steel, past memorial walls carved with namesâthe hypnosis stretched tighter in your mind. Threads of thought tangled, dozens of voices weaving their disbelief into questions you had to smother before they reached their lips.
You caught Woonhak sneaking a glance at you. For once, there was no teasing in his expressionâjust a flicker of unease. He could sense it too: the fragile balance of your illusion, the razor-thin line between success and exposure.
You squeezed his arm lightly, both a warning and a reassurance. âSmile,â you whispered, lips unmoving.
He did, and to anyone watching, you looked like nothing more than a bickering couple, caught between irritation and affection. But beneath the smiles, both of you knew the truth: one wrong word, one slip of concentration, and two hundred people would remember that you werenât supposed to be here.
The officerâs voice marched on, steady as a drumbeat: statistics, dates, names of generals who had once walked these same grounds. But the sound blurred in your ears, like words underwater. The sun was too bright, the air too thick. Every breath you took was tangled in the threads of two hundred minds, their thoughts a relentless tide pulling you in every direction at once.
It wasnât just bending one soldierâs suspicion. It was bending them allâofficers, spouses, aides, every pair of eyes and ears in this place. Their disbelief rose like weeds, and every time you pulled one out, another sprouted. You felt it in your bones, the sheer drag of maintaining the illusion.
Your legs wobbled.
âY/N?â Woonhakâs whisper was sharp at your ear, but his voice came from far away, muffled by the buzzing swarm in your head.
You blinked, tried to focus, but the ground shifted beneath your feet. The officerâs white uniform blurred into the bright blue sky, and thenâdarkness.
The world tipped.
Strong arms caught you before the gravel did.
âY/N!â This time his voice was raw, stripped of its usual playfulness. Gasps rippled through the cluster of couples, the weight of their stares pressing down like heat.
Woonhak cradled you tight against his chest, one hand cupping the back of your head. Your hair brushed his cheek as he looked wildly at the officer leading the tour. âSheâs overheated,â he barked. âWhere are our quarters?â
The officer froze, startled. âC-Colonelââ
âNow.â His tone cut like steel.
That did it. The man snapped to attention, motioning frantically toward the nearest building. âThis way, sir!â
Woonhak didnât wait. He shifted you in his arms and strode forward with long, unhesitating steps. The murmurs behind you swelledâconcerned voices, sympathetic whispers, amused chuckles. Newlyweds. Poor thing. Such a devoted husband.
He ignored them all. His jaw was tight, eyes narrowed, each stride radiating command. The image of the protective officer with his delicate wife played perfectly for the crowd, but you could feel the anger simmering beneath his skin.
Inside the quarters, the door slammed shut behind him, the echo rattling in the plain, sterile room. He lowered you onto the bed as if setting down something fragile, then crouched low, searching your face.
âY/N. Hey.â His hand hovered near your cheek, not quite touching, uncertain. âLook at me. What the hell was that?â
Your throat burned, but you forced the words out. âToo many⌠too many at once.â
His brow furrowed, shadows cutting across his face. âYou didnât tell me it would do this to you.â
You swallowed, the taste of copper on your tongue. âI didnât know. Iâve never⌠stretched it this far.â
For a moment, his silence was heavier than any words. His fists clenched at his sides, knuckles pale. Then, in a voice quieter but no less sharp, he said, âTwo hundred people, Y/N. Youâre tearing yourself apart just to make them believe we belong here.â
You managed a thin, wry smile, though it trembled at the edges. âYouâre upset.â
âOf course Iâm upset,â he snapped, then bit back the volume. His voice dropped, softer, raw. âDo you have any idea what it felt like to watch you fall? To feel you go limp in my arms?â
That silenced you. For a second, you thought you saw fear flicker across his features, too quick for him to hide.
You shifted slightly, wincing at the ache in your head. âDonât get sentimental on me.â
He exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair, frustration clear. âYou scared the shit out of me.â
The words lingered in the sterile air, heavy and unguarded.
Your gaze slid past himâand landed squarely on the bed. A single bed, centered in the middle of the room. The crisp white sheets were tucked too tightly, military corners sharp enough to cut. There was no sofa, no cot, nothing else. Just the bed.
You laughed weakly, though it came out more like a rasp. Woonhak followed your gaze, then froze. âWait.â His voice went flat. âNo.â
âYes,â you said, a flicker of mischief curling in your tone despite the exhaustion. âWeâre married, remember? Newlyweds, apparently. Wouldnât it look suspicious if we asked for separate rooms?â
His face twisted, half disbelief, half exasperation. âThis is insane.â
âConvincing,â you countered softly, easing back against the pillows. The sheets were cool beneath your skin, a faint comfort against the pounding in your skull. âBut insane, yes.â
He groaned, dragging a hand down his face. âYouâre impossible.â
âAnd you pout too much,â you shot back, even as your eyelids grew heavier.
For a long moment, he stared at the bed like it was a battlefield he wasnât prepared to fight on. Then, with a resigned exhale, he toed off his polished shoes and sat at the edge of the mattress. The springs dipped beneath his weight, the movement rolling gently toward you.
He stayed there for a moment, hands clasped loosely, his back hunched forward. Then, tentatively, he reached out and brushed the back of his fingers against your temple. The touch was fleeting, hesitant, like he wasnât sure he was allowed.
âIâll keep watch,â he murmured, more to himself than you.
Your lips curved faintly. âThatâs supposed to be my line.â
He huffed out a quiet laugh, though it carried no real amusement. When your eyes finally slipped closed, the last thing you felt was the warmth of his hand still lingering near yours, as if he was anchoring himself to the proof that you were still there.
The first thing you registered was the texture of the sheetsâcoarse, scratchy against your fingertips, not the kind of softness anyone would choose for themselves. The second was the light: dim and slanted, filtering through the blinds in thin golden stripes that painted across the floor. The third was the weight in your skull. Not sharp, not blinding, but heavyâlike youâd been carrying the world on your shoulders and only just set it down.
You stirred, groaning as you forced your eyes open.
âCareful,â came a voice, low but steady.
You blinked, vision blurring until it steadied on Woonhak. He sat by the small desk lamp, slouched in a chair pulled close to the bed. His jacket and bowtie hung carelessly over the backrest. Without the stiff uniform, he looked less like a decorated officer and more like himselfâbroad-shouldered but tired, shadows carved beneath his eyes.
âHow long?â you croaked.
He tilted his head, studying you with something like relief. âA couple hours. Long enough for them to finish the tours.â His gaze softened, though his voice stayed clipped. âYou scared me.â
You pushed yourself upright, wincing as your head swam. âDidnât mean to. I thought I could handle it.â
âYou shouldnât have had to handle it,â he snapped, then pressed his lips together, pulling the edge off his tone. âTwo hundred people, Y/N. You never told me it would hit you like that.â
You let out a breath, your voice quiet. âIâve never tried it on that scale before. I didnât know.â
His jaw worked. For a moment, he looked like he wanted to yell, but the sight of you still pale against the pillows stopped him. Instead, he leaned forward, elbows braced on his knees, and dragged a hand through his hair. âYouâre insane. Brilliant, but insane.â
A thin smile tugged at your lips. âIs that your version of a compliment?â
He huffed, almost a laugh. âTake it how you want.â
Silence stretched. The only sound was the faint hum of the vent and the distant muffled noise of the fort outsideâboots on gravel, the occasional bark of an order. You could feel the mission pressing in again, the weight of it creeping back onto your shoulders.
âWe need a cover story,â you said finally. âA real one, not just⌠patchwork lies. People already think weâre married, but we keep tripping over the details. If we donât get it straight, someoneâs going to notice.â
Woonhak straightened, nodding slowly. âAlright. Ground rules first. Then the story.â
You shifted against the headboard, raising a hand as though you were about to lecture him. âRule one: physical contact is limited. Only whatâs expected of a married couple in public. Hand on the waist, maybe holding hands. Nothing sudden, nothing surprising.â
He smirked, leaning back in his chair. âThat oneâs for me, isnât it?â
âYou think?â Your glare was sharp, though your lips twitched. âYou grabbed my hand earlier and nearly gave me an aneurysm."
He lifted his hands in mock surrender. âFine, fine. No surprise hand-holding. Got it.â
âRule two: no nicknames.â
âBanned completely?â He tilted his head, feigning innocence.
âBanned.â
He leaned forward, resting his chin in his palm. âSo I canât call you sweetheart?â
âNo.â
âDarling?â
âNo.â
âWifey?â
You groaned, grabbing a pillow and shoving it into his chest. He caught it easily, laughing under his breath.
âAlright, no nicknames,â he said, a grin still plastered across his face. âYouâre no fun.â
âFun doesnât keep us alive,â you shot back.
âNeither does acting like strangers when weâre supposed to be married,â he countered smoothly.
You narrowed your eyes but didnât argue. He had a point. â... Fine. If the situation calls for it, then.â
âRule three,â you continued, ignoring his smug look, âwe agree on consistent answers. Married eight months. Wedding in Malibu. Met at a friendâs party.â
âEight months, Malibu, party,â he repeated like a soldier memorizing orders. Then he frowned. âShouldnât it be something more interesting? LikeââI saved you from a runaway train,â or âwe locked eyes across a battlefield.ââ
You snorted. âWhat kind of romance novel are you living in?â
âOne with more spice than âwe met at a party,ââ he said, leaning back with a grin.
âBelievable is better than spicy,â you said firmly.
âDebatable.â
âNot up for debate.â
He chuckled and let it go, though you could tell he was still imagining ridiculous meet-cutes.
âRule four,â you pressed on, âwhen weâre alone, we drop the act. No pretending, no nicknames, no⌠whatever it is you do. Professional. Mission first.â
The grin faded slightly, replaced by something steadier. He nodded. âProfessional. Understood.â
âGood.â You let out a breath, sagging against the headboard. âSo we agreed: eight months married, wedding in Malibu, met at a party. No surprises, no nicknames, and professional when weâre alone.â
âSounds airtight,â he said. His expression soured instantly.
âYou scared me,â he said again, quieter this time. âDonât do that again.â
You closed your eyes, letting the weight of exhaustion press you down. âNot planning to.â
There was a pause, then the soft creak of the chair as he leaned forward. His voice was low, almost tender.
âYou donât have to do all the heavy lifting alone, you know.â
Sleep tugged at you, but you caught the words, tucked them away like a secret.
By the time the sun slipped below the horizon, Fort Marshall had transformed. The parade grounds that only hours earlier had rung with gun salutes now shimmered with strings of lights. The mess hallâscrubbed and polished within an inch of its lifeâhad been remade into a ballroom, its bare walls softened by draped banners and the low gleam of chandeliers. Music floated through the air, the lilting strings of a military orchestra weaving beneath the buzz of conversation.
You caught your reflection in the full-length mirror before stepping out. The navy gown Alfred had chosen for you clung in ways that felt deliberate, the fabric heavy but elegant, every seam a statement. The slit up the leg had made you curse when you first saw it, but now it seemed almost practicalâif you needed to reach for the knife strapped against your thigh. A necklace glittered at your throat, subtle enough not to draw suspicion but fine enough to look real.
When you turned, Woonhak was staring. He wore his evening dress uniform as if it had been built for him, every button aligned, every ribbon gleaming. The crisp black bowtie sat at his collar like it had never been a problem in the first place. The sight made your stomach dip, though you smothered it quickly.
He whistled low. âNot bad, newlywed.â
You leveled him with a look. âRule two. No nicknames.â
He lifted his hands in mock surrender, smirk tugging at his lips. âRight, right. Professional.â
But when he offered you his arm, there was no mockery in the gesture. Just expectationâand necessity. You looped yours through, skin brushing his sleeve, and together you walked into the lionâs den.
The ballroom was a sea of uniforms and gowns, the air thick with cologne, perfume, and the faint tang of champagne. Conversations rose and fell in waves, punctuated by laughter and the occasional clink of glassware. Officers stood in tight circles, their spouses glittering at their sides, while waiters slipped through the crowd with trays of hors dâoeuvres.
Everywhere, eyes lingered. Some curious, some assessing, others outright suspicious.
The hypnosis still stretched like a net across the room, tugging at the corners of your mind. Two hundred people, each one convinced you belonged here, each one convinced you were married. It was easier now, lighterâthe initial strain had passedâbut the effort was constant. You had to keep the web taut, or it would unravel.
âSmile,â Woonhak muttered, his voice low enough only you could hear. âYou look like youâre about to stab someone.â
âI want to stab someone,â you hissed back, still smiling.
He chuckled under his breath, leaning just slightly closer. âThereâs the charm I married you for.â
The first hour blurred into polite smiles and introductions. You spoke to generalsâ wives in pearls and to younger officers eager to please, trading pleasantries you could hardly remember minutes later. The guiding thread was your hypnosisâa constant, subtle pressure smoothing over doubts, nudging thoughts toward acceptance. You were married. You belonged here. No questions asked.
And yet⌠cracks lingered.
âSuch a sweet couple,â one woman cooed after you and Woonhak accidentally spoke over each other about how long youâd been married. She leaned toward her husband with a laugh. âThey canât even get their story straight. Newlyweds always forget the details.â
More laughter. More smiles. You forced one of your own, but your head throbbed faintly with the strain.
Later, as the orchestra swelled into a waltz, a middle-aged couple approached. The man wore his medals with the quiet pride of someone whoâd earned every one, while the woman beside him had the kind of elegance that came from decades of moving in these circles.
âColonel Kim,â the man said warmly, clasping Woonhakâs hand. âAnd your lovely wife. Weâve heard so much about you.â
You pasted on your best smile. âAll good things, I hope.â
The woman laughed politely, eyes glimmering. âOf course. Though I must sayâŚâ Her gaze lingered on the two of you, assessing. âFor newlyweds, you two are very⌠mellow.â
âMellow?â Woonhak repeated.
âYes. No offense,â the woman added quickly, âbut most couples your age canât keep their hands off each other. You seem almostâŚâ She tilted her head. ââŚprofessional.â
You felt your stomach tighten. The net in your mind strained.
Woonhakâs grip on your arm shiftedâsubtle, but firm. âExcuse us,â he said smoothly, his smile unchanging. âMy wife needs a moment.â
His voice brushed your ear. âOutside. Now.â
You blinked at him, startled, but let him tug you toward the balcony. The cool night air hit instantly, sharper than the warmth of the ballroom. Stars stretched endless over the Nevada desert, the faint hum of cicadas filling the spaces between music drifting from inside.
âWhat the hellââ
âChange of plans.â His voice was firm, eyes sharp in the moonlight. âWeâre not convincing enough. Too stiff. Too cautious. Theyâre expecting more from us.â
âMore?â You narrowed your eyes.
âMore PDA.â He said it flatly, like it was a tactical maneuver. âHand-holding. Touching. Hell, maybe even kissing if it comes to that.â
You stared at him like heâd sprouted horns. âAre you out of your mind? We agreedââ
âRules donât matter if we blow our cover.â His gaze didnât waver. âIf theyâre already whispering, we need to overcorrect. Sell it. Hard.â
You scoffed. âOh, so your grand plan is to suddenly act like we canât keep our hands off each other? That wonât look suspicious at all.â
âItâll look natural,â he shot back. âBecause thatâs what they expect newlyweds to beâloud, clingy, disgusting.â
âDisgusting,â you repeated flatly.
âExactly.â He smirked, and for a heartbeat you wanted to punch him.
You argued in circles for several minutes, your voices low but heated, until finally you threw up your hands. âFine. PDA mode. But if you try anything stupid, Iâll break your nose and tell everyone it was an accident.â
He grinned like youâd just agreed to something fun instead of torturous. âI wouldn't want it any other way, sweetheart.â
When you returned inside, it started almost immediately. His hand found yours, fingers lacing deliberately. He laughed too loudly at one of your fake anecdotes, draping an arm over your shoulders. You elbowed him lightly in the ribs, muttering under your breath, but he only leaned closer, eyes glinting with mischief.
To everyone else, you looked inseparable. To you, it felt like walking a tightrope blindfolded.
The clink of silverware rang sharp against the steady hum of conversation. Every table in the mess hall glowed under soft light, candles flickering in polished brass holders, chandeliers scattering fractured gold over crystal glasses. The smell of roasted meat and buttered rolls thickened the air until it felt almost indulgent, almost decadentâan illusion of luxury wrapped over the bones of a military base.
You and Woonhak were seated near the center, close enough to be seen but not so close as to be under constant scrutiny. You sat shoulder-to-shoulder, your navy gown brushing his crisp uniform whenever either of you shifted. The chairs were close, too close, forcing his knee against yours beneath the table.Â
He didnât move it.
On your left, a generalâs wife launched into a story about her sonâs engagement, her pearls catching the light with every emphatic gesture. Across from you, a younger couple asked endless questions about âmarried life.â Every word felt like a test, every glance like a spotlight.
You smiled when expected, nodded when polite, and offered vague answers that left no openings for suspicion. But beneath your calm exterior, your mind tugged like thread drawn too tight. The satellite. The radar tower. The mission.
You reached for your champagne glass, swirling it slowly, and slipped into his mind.
Tonight, we locate the satellite.
The glass in his hand nearly slipped. His head jerked toward you, eyes wide.
You canâ His thoughts burst into your head like fireworks, loud and chaotic. Waitâwait, youâre actually in my head right now? This is insane. Youâve been holding out on me! This isâ
Shut up, you snapped in his mind, wincing as his excitement rang like a bell against your skull. Youâre yelling.
Iâm not yelling, he thoughtâloudly. This is just how my thoughts sound! Wait, youâve been able to do this the whole time and youâre only showing me now? Oh my god, do you realize how game-changing this is? We donât even need comms, we can justâ
You cut the connection abruptly, slamming a door in his mind. Blessed silence returned.
Across the table, his mouth opened in protest. âHeyââ he started aloud, but caught himself when half the table turned at the sound of his voice. He coughed into his napkin, smiling sheepishly, and leaned closer to you.
You cut him a side-eye glare, lips still frozen in a social smile.
Out loud, he muttered under his breath, âNot fair.â Then, softer, âLet me back in. Iâll behave, scoutâs honor.â
Scoutâs honor? you echoed dryly, reopening the link with hesitation. Youâre insufferable.
His relief was so palpable you could feel it bleed across the tether. Better insufferable than silent. Okay, letâs focus. The satelliteâ
Is in the radar tower, north side of the base. If we can disarm itâ
We donât have to keep playing house, he finished, his thoughts calmer now, steadier. Good. Because I donât think I can handle much more of this âsweetheartâ nonsense.
Youâre the one who keeps pushing it, you shot back.
Because youâre fun to tease, he thought, grinning into his wine glass.
You ignored the heat creeping into your cheeks and pressed on. Weâll need a distraction. Security around the radar tower will be tight, especially after curfew. If we move during cocktail hour, most of the guard force is stuck here babysitting drunk VIPs.
He nodded faintly, spearing a piece of roast beef as though he were just another officer indulging in small talk. Means timing is everything. We slip away while theyâre distracted, head to the tower, disable the uplink, and return before anyone misses us.
Sounds good. No heroics, you warned.
No delays, he countered.
Your gazes met briefly over the rim of his wineglass. For one charged heartbeat, your thoughts aligned, the plan sealed in silence.
âColonel Kim?â one of the younger wives chimed in, breaking the spell. She leaned across the table with a bright smile. âHow did you two meet? You make such a lovely couple.â
Your stomach dropped.
âUhââ Woonhak started.
âAt a party,â you blurted at the same time.
Silence. Then laughter rippled around the table.
âA party, was it?â the woman teased. âHow charming.â
Her husband grinned knowingly. âNewlyweds always forget the details. Give them a few more years and theyâll finish each otherâs sentences.â
You forced a laugh, fingers tightening around your glass. Beneath the table, Woonhak tapped twice against your knee, his version of relax, Iâve got this.
He leaned in, his breath brushing your ear. See? They think itâs adorable.
Youâre reckless, you shot back.
You worry too much, he countered.
You rolled your eyes, keeping your smile fixed.
Dinner wore on in that rhythmâplating after plating, course after course, all while you maintained the performance. His arm found its way draped along the back of your chair, his hand brushing over your shoulder in practiced affection. Once, he even leaned close enough that his lips grazed your temple when he whispered, âSmile.â The surrounding couples melted, sighing at the sight.
At one point, you adjusted the fall of your gown and muttered under your breath, âFix your tie. You look like a rookie.â
Without missing a beat, he murmured back, âYou snore, you know.â
A ripple of chuckles passed down the table. âAww,â someone cooed, âtheyâre such a cute couple!â
You wanted to sink beneath the tablecloth. Woonhak only smirked, eyes dancing with mischief.
We need to end this cover fast, you thought bitterly. The longer we play house, the harder it gets.
Then we finish it tonight, he replied. His mental voice was steady now, confident, threaded with something sharper beneath. We get to that radar tower, shut down the satellite, and walk out before sunrise. No more husband and wife. No more cute couple routine.
Your chest tightened with relief. Good. I donât think I can stomach another toast to âyoung love.â
Yeah, he thought, smirking as he reached casually for his glass. And maybe next time, youâll thank me for being the best fake husband youâve ever had.
You nearly choked on your champagne.
Cocktail hour loosened the hall like a sigh.
The dinner tables were cleared with military efficiency, replaced with high trays of hors dâoeuvres and endless champagne flutes. The string quartet traded waltzes for light jazz, the volume rising just enough to drown conversation into a pleasant blur. Already, cheeks were flushed and laughter came freerâthe stiff formality of the ball giving way to tipsy camaraderie.
Perfect cover.
You lingered close to Woonhak as couples drifted toward the bar. He leaned casually against a marble column, champagne in hand, while his other arm looped easily around your waist. To everyone else, you looked like the picture of a man doting on his bride. To you, it was a countdown.
Now, you whispered in his mind, slipping your glass onto a passing tray. Before they get suspicious weâre not drinking like the rest.
He set his own glass down without taking a sip and tilted his head toward the side door. His fingers squeezed your hip lightlyâa signal, not affection.
The two of you slipped through the throng with practiced ease. Most eyes were too glazed with alcohol to notice, too wrapped in their own laughter. By the time the heavy doors shut behind you, the hum of the ballroom was nothing but a muffled echo.
The night air was sharp and cold. The desert sky sprawled above, a wash of stars brighter than any chandelier. Crickets hummed low in the dark, the scent of dust and motor oil heavy around the fortâs perimeter.
âNorth tower,â you whispered aloud this time.
He nodded, falling into step beside you. The gravel crunched under your heels until you bent quickly to slip them off, carrying them in one hand as you padded silently forward. Woonhak smirked but didnât comment, his boots silent despite their weight.
The night air outside was sharp, carrying the desertâs chill now that the sun had long sunk beneath the horizon. Stars spilled endless across the black sky, but all you could see was the fortified outline of Fort Marshall stretching in every direction. Barbed wire gleamed under floodlights. Towers loomed with their watchful silhouettes. And northâfaint but undeniableâthe radar tower rose like a jagged spear, its blinking red lights pulsing against the dark.
âThatâs our mark,â you whispered, careful not to move your lips too much.
âRomantic,â Woonhak murmured back, his smirk audible. âMoonlight stroll to a radar tower.â
You elbowed him lightly in the ribs, keeping step as you circled away from the main building. The ballroomâs glow faded behind you, replaced by the hush of crickets and the crunch of gravel underfoot.
The path to the tower wasnât empty. Guards patrolled in twos, rifles slung across their shoulders, boots thudding in practiced rhythm. Each checkpoint glowed under harsh floodlights, shadows stretching long across the yard.
You brushed his hand lightly, just enough to open the telepathic tether again. Weâll need to go silent from here. No chatter, no noise. Follow my lead.
Copy that, came his thought, quieter now, steadier.
You pulled him into the shadows of a storage shed, pressing your back to the cool metal siding as two soldiers passed just feet away. Their conversation was muted, but the click of their boots echoed like gunfire. You didnât breathe until their voices faded.
Woonhak glanced down at you, eyes shining in the dark, and whispered against the bond: Youâre terrifying when you get like this.
Good, you shot back. Be terrified quietly.
He chuckled under his breath, earning another jab of your elbow.
The closer you crept, the more oppressive the tower loomed. Its steel frame bristled with antennas, cables running like veins into its heart. A blinking red beacon pulsed rhythmically at its tip, casting intermittent flashes across the compound like the sweep of an eye.
Guards encircled the base, their movements precise, predictable. You studied their rhythmâthe three-count turns, the way two passed each other and exchanged words, the beat before they moved on.
Weâve got thirty seconds when the two on the north side cross paths, you calculated, eyes narrowing. Thatâs our opening.
Thirty seconds is more than enough, Woonhak thought, rolling his shoulders. His body coiled, ready to spring. You cover. I move.
No heroics, you warned.
No delays, he countered.
The moment came. Two guards paused, muttering quietly as their paths intersected.
âNow,â you whispered.
Woonhak darted from cover, silent despite his size, slipping across the open stretch and into the towerâs shadow. He moved like liquid steel, all the lazy bravado stripped away, leaving nothing but precision. You followed seconds later, your gownâs hem whispering across the dirt, knives hidden beneath the fabric pressing reassuringly against your thigh.
âThis is it,â you breathed.
Woonhak glanced at you. His grin returned, faint but sharp. âLadies first?â
You scowled. âNot a chance.â
Inside the tower, the air vibrated with low, steady hums. Machinery thrummed in the walls, servers blinking like constellations in the dark. You could feel the data rushing through the uplink, a current feeding straight into The Lightâs hands.
âThere,â you said, sliding into the console chair. âGive me five minutes.â
Woonhak paced by the door, scanning the windows. âYouâve got three.â
Fingers flying across keys, you tunneled past the firewalls, layer after layer of defense meant to keep intruders out. The code was goodâbut not good enough. Youâd broken worse. Sweat trickled down your temple, the hum of the servers growing louder in your ears untilâ
âGot it.â The uplink stuttered, then cut. The stream of data blinked to static. You sagged into the chair, relief spilling from your chest. âWe did it.â
But before he could answer, the console flashed bright red. ERROR. AUTO-REBOOT INITIATED.
Your blood ran cold. âNo.â
âWhat?â His voice sharpened instantly.
âThey built in a failsafe. A secondary channelâif the first linkâs cut, it reroutes. We stopped it, but itâs already rebooting.â Your fingers flew over the keys, trying to kill the process. âI can stall it, butââ
Footsteps.
Heavy, booted, closing fast.
Your blood froze. The door rattled.
âShit,â Woonhak hissed, hand flying to his sidearm before rememberingâhe wasnât Colonel Kim the soldier tonight. He was Colonel Kim, the dutiful husband.
In one motion, he hauled you up from the chair, spun you toward him, and crushed his mouth against yours.
The world tilted.
His lips were warm, firmer than you expected, almost bruising in their urgency. You gasped, and he used the opening to deepen the kiss, his hand sliding to the small of your back, pulling you flush against his chest. His uniform pressed stiffly against your gown, medals biting faintly into your ribs, but all you could register was the rush of heat.
You felt Woonhak smirk against your mouth. Instead of pulling away, he angled his head, his lips moving against yours with a maddening slowness now, as if savoring it. His other hand cupped the side of your jaw, thumb brushing your cheek as though the two of you were the only ones alive.
The door burst open.
Boots scuffed against concrete. A voice barked, âColonel Kim? Whatâs goingââ
Then silence.
Your heart thundered. Your fingers fisted in the fabric of his dress shirt, not sure if you were trying to push him away or hold him closer. His breath mingled with yours, champagne-sweet, heat spilling into your lungs.
Behind him, the guards coughedâawkward, embarrassed. One muttered, âOh. Uhâsorry, sir.â
But Woonhak didnât let go. He pressed forward, lips moving over yours again, slower this time, almost tender. You felt the curl of his smile even as your own knees wobbled.
It wasnât just for show anymore.
Finally, he broke the kiss, but only just. His forehead rested against yours, his hand still cradling your cheek. Both of you were breathing harder than you shouldâve been.
âForgive us, gentlemen,â he said, his voice husky with fake amusement that didnât quite hide the rasp. âMy wife and I⌠got carried away. Honeymoon phase, you understand.â
One soldier stammered, âO-of course, Colonel! Weâll, uhâweâll⌠leave you to it.â
Another voice: âWonât happen again, sir!â
Their boots scrambled against the floor, the door slamming shut in their retreat.
The moment it closed, you shoved him back, chest heaving. âWhat. The fuck. Was that?!â
âImprovising,â he said smoothly, though his lips were still flushed, his chest rising hard. His grin was infuriatingly smug. âEffective improvising.â
âYou kissed me!â
âYou kissed me back.â
Your mouth opened, closed, then betrayed you by pressing into a thin line. Heat still lingered on your lips, on your cheeks, in the pit of your stomach.
âThat wasââ you started, then faltered.
âConvincing?â he supplied, his tone dripping with satisfaction.
You wanted to deny it. You wanted to shove him into the wall. But instead, your silence betrayed you, your heart still racing in a rhythm that wasnât all adrenaline.
Finally, you managed, âWeâre stuck here now. They think weâre out here⌠doing this.â
âThen Iâd say we nailed the cover,â he murmured, leaning closer, the glint in his eyes far too amused.
You stepped back sharply, dragging a hand across your mouth like you could erase the memory. âTomorrow night. We have to finish this. And thenâno more fake husband crap.â
But as you slipped out of the tower, hand still tangled stubbornly in his like the picture of a devoted wife, your lips still burned with the phantom of his, and you hated how real it had felt.
Morning crept in slow, desert light spilling through the slatted blinds in pale gold stripes. The air smelled faintly of dust and starch, the muffled sounds of drills already echoing somewhere outside the barracks.
You stirred with a groan, body sore from the strain of the night before. The first thing you registered was warmthâsolid, steady warmth cradling the back of your neck. Then came the realization that your barricade of pillows had shifted sometime in the night, collapsed in a messy pile at the foot of the bed.
Your eyes cracked open.
His arm was beneath your neck, bent in a lazy cradle like a pillow that had been there all along. Your own arm was draped shamelessly across his torso, your hand splayed against the broad plane of his chest where his uniform shirt should have been. He wasnât in uniform nowâjust the thin gray undershirt Alfred had packed. Warm. Soft with sleep.
Woonhak lay on his back, still half-asleep, lashes dark against his cheekbones. His lips were parted slightly, the rise and fall of his chest slow and even. The faint shadow of stubble dusted his jaw. For a fleeting second, you let yourself stare, let yourself remember the heat of his mouth on yours, the way the guards had gasped before scrambling away.
Your cheeks burned.
You froze, weighing your options: pull away slowly and risk waking him, or stay perfectly still and pray he rolled over first.
Then his chest rumbled. âGood morning, wife.â
Your blood turned to fire.
You jerked upright so fast you nearly headbutted him. âWhat the hellâhow long have you been awake?!â
He cracked one eye open, smirking faintly. âLong enough to know you drool.â
âI do notââ You cut yourself off, flustered, swiping at your mouth just in case.
He chuckled, low and warm, before stretching, the arm beneath your neck flexing as he sat up. âGuess your pillow wall wasnât very effective.â
You glared at the heap of cushions at the foot of the bed. âI knew I shouldâve slept on the floor.â
âOr,â he said, rubbing a hand over his face, âmaybe you secretly wanted to cuddle me in your sleep.â
Your jaw dropped. âExcuse me?!â
He shrugged his shoulders, grin lazy but his eyes sharp with mischief. âNot judging. I am pretty comfortable.â
âYouâre so annoying.â You shoved a pillow into his face, but he only laughed harder, muffling the sound against the fabric before tossing it aside.
For a moment, the room fell into an easy silence. You pulled the blanket tighter around yourself, staring at the floor while your thoughts chased themselves in circles. The kiss. The arm under your neck. The fact that you hadnât exactly pulled away last night.
Finally, you cleared your throat. âWe still have a job to do.â
That sobered him. The grin softened into something steadier. âRight. The satellite.â
âThe failsafeâs still running. Which means tonight we try again.â You pressed your palms into your knees, steadying your voice. âBut until thenâwe keep the act. PDA, banter, all of it. We canât afford to slip now, not after last night.â
His smirk returned, though gentler this time. âSo youâre saying I get to keep holding your hand all day?â
You threw him another pillow.
Life at Fort Marshall carried on with military precision, and yet, in the small, borrowed room you and Woonhak shared, the world felt strangely⌠domestic.
You padded into the bathroom first, hair mussed from sleep, cheeks still warm with embarrassment from the pillow barricade disaster. The mirror was fogged slightly from the nightâs chill, and when you reached for your toothbrush, another hand brushed yours.
âSeriously?â you muttered, giving him a pointed look as he appeared at your side.
âWhat?â he said innocently, squeezing toothpaste onto his brush. âWeâre a couple. Couples brush their teeth together.â
You rolled your eyes, but when you caught his reflection in the mirrorâbent over, brushing lazily, hair sticking up in defianceâyou snorted. âYou look so ridiculous.â
He spat into the sink, rinsing his mouth. âYou drool. At least Iâm hygienic.â
Later, when you tugged on the silk brunch dress Alfred had packed, you cursed under your breath as the zipper caught halfway up your spine. You tried once, twice, and then swore louder, twisting your arm at an impossible angle.
âNeed help?â came his smug voice from the doorway.
You spun around. He was already half-dressed, crisp shirt tucked in, tie dangling uselessly around his collar. âYouâre one to talk,â you shot back, glaring at the limp strip of silk hanging from his neck.
âFair point,â he admitted, lips twitching. âTrade?â
You sighed, turning your back to him. âFine. Just⌠no funny business.â
âMe?â His tone was mock-innocent. âNever.â
Warmth ghosted down your spine as his large hands brushed the zipper. With one firm tug, he pulled it up smoothly, the teeth fastening all the way to the nape of your neck. His knuckles grazed your skin in the process, sending an involuntary shiver through you. He stilled for a moment, then stepped back quickly, as though the touch had burned him too.
âThere.â His voice was rougher than before, though his grin was intact. âEasy.â
You crossed your arms, trying to mask the heat climbing up your neck. âYouâre enjoying this way too much.â
âOnly a little,â he teased.
âNow give me that,â you snapped, snatching the dangling bowtie from his collar.
You accepted the piece of fabric and stepped closer, ignoring the way his breath caught in his throat as he glanced down at youâor the way your palms seemed slicker with sweat than they had three seconds before.
âStay still, or Iâll choke you with this goddamn bow,â you muttered.
He only nodded, his Adamâs apple bobbing as you reached behind his neck to wrap the silk around. Your fingers brushed the warm skin just beneath his jaw as you pulled the ends forward, tying them with quick, practiced movements.
You could feel his dark eyes trained on your face as you worked, heavy and unrelenting. You didnât like the way that weight settled on youâhow aware it made you of every breath, every brush of your fingers against him. Or the way you could feel the heat radiating from his body, close enough to seep through the thin layers of your dress.
Or worseâthe way you caught it: the faint whiff of something musky, woodsy, and undeniably sweet clinging to him.
You tied the final loop a little too tightly, making him wince.
âDone,â you said flatly, stepping back.
He tugged at the knot, hissing softly. âAggressive.â
âYou were staring.â
âCan you blame me?â His grin was maddening, smug and unguarded. âYou look good when youâre concentrating.â
âDonât get used to it.â
But when the two of you finally stepped out into the morning light, his bowtie perfect and your dress fitted snug along your frame, the memory of his hands on your zipper and your fingers brushing his throat lingered like static in the air between you.
Morning sunlight slanted through the high windows of the mess hall, chasing away the glitter of last nightâs ball with a softer, golden glow. The room was buzzing alreadyâsoldiers in crisp dress uniforms and their spouses in bright brunch attire filled the long tables, plates clinking, silverware scraping, voices tumbling over one another in a cacophony of cheer.
The air smelled of maple syrup and coffee, savory bacon and sizzling butter. Platters of pancakes were stacked high, glistening with powdered sugar, alongside steaming bowls of scrambled eggs, platters of sausages, and baskets of warm rolls. Waitstaff moved like clockwork between tables, refilling pitchers of orange juice and pouring dark coffee into polished mugs.
And from the moment you and Woonhak stepped inside, every head seemed to turn.
ââŚthere they are,â someone whispered, not nearly low enough.
âSlipped out during cocktail hourâŚâ
ââŚcouldnât keep their hands off each otherâŚâ
ââŚhoneymoon phase. You know how it is.â
Your cheeks flushed hot, the weight of all those amused smiles settling heavy on your shoulders. It wasnât suspicionâit was worse. It was indulgence, fondness, like the whole fort was in on a joke you hadnât agreed to.
You forced your lips into a polite smile, spine straight as a blade, and let Woonhak guide you forward with his arm firmly around your waist. He looked utterly unbotheredârelaxed, grinning, as though heâd orchestrated this rumor himself.
âMorning,â he said warmly to a cluster of officers as he pulled out your chair for you. His voice carried just enough to catch the ears of the nearest tables. He sat beside you, close enough that your skirts brushed his trousers, and leaned in, pressing a lingering kiss against your temple. âSleep well, darling?â
The room melted.
âAww!â someone squealed.
âLook at them,â another woman sighed, her pearls catching the light as she pressed her husbandâs arm. âSo in love.â
You sat frozen, face flaming. His lips had barely grazed your skin, but the phantom warmth lingered like fire.
Heâs selling the act, you told yourself fiercely. Thatâs all.
But when you risked a sideways glance at him, his grin was relaxed, soft at the edges, like it cost him nothing.
You busied yourself with coffee the moment it was poured, your hands trembling faintly as you lifted the mug. The bitter heat grounded you, though not nearly enough.
The officer across from youâa broad man with laugh lines deep around his mouthâsmiled knowingly. âSo, Mrs. Kim, how was your first night in Fort Marshall?â
You nearly inhaled your coffee.
Before you could stammer out a reply, Woonhak spoke smoothly, draping his arm across the back of your chair so his fingers brushed your shoulder. âExhausting,â he said with a lazy grin, âbut worth every second.â
The table erupted with laughter. One man clapped him on the back. A woman leaned over to squeeze your hand with a conspiratorial wink.
âI remember those days,â she said fondly. âWhen my husband and I couldnât go an hour without sneaking away.â
Your mouth went dry.
You stabbed at your pancake with unnecessary precision, cutting it into perfect squares just to keep your hands busy. Your face burned as the laughter rolled on around you, every joke about passion and honeymooners sinking deeper under your skin.
And then you felt itâhis hand sliding beneath the table, finding yours. Warm. Steady. His thumb brushing slow circles over your knuckles, absent and easy, as though it were second nature.
You didnât pull away.
Itâs fake, you told yourself, heart hammering. All of this is fake.
But his touch didnât feel staged. It didnât feel deliberate. It felt unconsciousâlike something heâd do even if no one was watching.
And that unsettled you more than anything.
Conversation flowed around you in waves. Someone asked about your âhoneymoon destination.â Someone else teased about when youâd âstart a family.â You smiled when expected, murmured vague replies, all while Woonhak leaned in closer, his shoulder brushing yours with each small movement.
âYouâre blushing,â he murmured low, lips close to your ear, just for you.
You stiffened. âShut up.â
âAdorable,â he teased, smirk tugging at his lips as he sipped his coffee.
You clenched your jaw, but the heat in your cheeks betrayed you.
And when he leaned in againânot to whisper this time, but to brush a quick kiss against your cheekâyour breath caught, your fork pausing mid-air.
The table sighed in unison. âTheyâre precious,â someone said dreamily.
You wanted to disappear into your plate.
Woonhak just grinned, looking smugger by the second. But when his hand tightened just slightly around yours under the table, steady and warm, you realized with a start that he wasnât letting go.
The mess hall eventually thinned, soldiers filing out in clusters, couples lingering with cups of coffee clutched between their hands. You excused yourself at the first chance, your cheeks still hot from the barrage of âhoneymoonâ jokes.
The fortâs courtyard was quieter. The sun had climbed higher, its light bleaching the Nevada desert into something stark and unforgiving. You found shade beneath a concrete archway and sank onto the bench there, exhaling slowly. The heat pressed against your skin, but your chest felt coldâhollow in a way you couldnât shake.
You pressed your palms into your knees, staring at the cracked pavement.
What the hell is happening to me?
You replayed everything.
The banter that had started as a shieldâyour scoffs, his smirks, the constant back-and-forth that kept both of you sharp. Youâd told yourself it was just dynamic, just the way partners worked. It kept missions alive, it filled silences, it distracted from danger.
But then there had been the smaller things.
The way he always stood a half step closer than necessary. The way he caught your wrist during a mission briefing, grounding you when you didnât realize youâd been fidgeting. The way he laughed when you rolled your eyes, like every jab you threw was a gift.
You remembered the kiss. Youâd sworn it was just a cover. Heâd sworn it was improvisation. But the memory clung to you like staticâthe heat of his mouth, the way his hand had cradled your jaw, the way youâd frozen not from fear, but from something that made your pulse sprint.
And this morning. The collapsed pillow barricade. His arm beneath your neck, your hand splayed across his chest. How natural it had felt, like youâd done it a hundred times before.
At brunch, heâd leaned into the role so easilyâtoo easily. His thumb had traced circles over your knuckles under the table, casual, unconscious. You could have dismissed it as performance. You should have. But what if it wasnât?
What if some of it is real?
The thought lodged in your chest, heavy and dangerous.
Were you into him?
You replayed every scoff, every muttered âyouâre insufferable.â The way his eyes caught yours during arguments. The way his laugh cracked the hard edges of your day. The way his voice softenedârarely, but enoughâwhen you scared him.
You hated how easily you could picture the answer.
Maybe.
Maybe you had been for longer than youâd admitted.
And that terrified you more than any satellite, more than any guard, more than The Light itself. Because missions you could plan for. Enemies you could fight. But this? This blur between fake and real, between act and feeling? You didnât have a blueprint for that.
Boots scuffed against the gravel. You looked up.
Woonhak was there, hair catching in the sunlight, jacket crisp against his broad frame. He had that damned smirk againâthe one that made you want to punch him and pull him closer all at once.
âThere you are,â he said, sliding onto the bench beside you. His shoulder brushed yours as naturally as if it belonged there. âThought I lost my wife.â
You scoffed, masking the heat climbing up your neck. âKeep it up and Iâll file for divorce.â
He chuckled, but his gaze lingered on you a beat too long. And you hated how much that single look unraveled you.
The rest of the day unraveled like a noose tightening around your throat.
Everywhere you turned, someone was there.
The wives, with their manicured nails and curious eyes, took turns pulling you into little circles of gossip. They introduced you to others as âthe new bride,â cooing over your dress, asking about the wedding you hadnât actually had. They wanted stories. Memories. Tender details about a marriage that didnât exist. You offered careful smiles, deflecting with vague platitudes, your mind screaming at every second wasted.
Meanwhile, Woonhak was cornered by officers and young recruits, hanging on his every word. You caught snippets when you passed: elaborate tales of his time âstationed abroad,â fabrications dressed in the cadence of truth. He laughed easily, even mimed scars that werenât real. You wanted to strangle him for how effortlessly he leaned into the lies.
We donât have time for this, you thought, jaw clenched as you nodded through another conversation about someoneâs garden. The satellite is still ticking.
By luncheon, your nerves were stretched thin.
You sat side by side at yet another long table, a delicate plate of sandwiches untouched before you. Conversations churned around you, clinking glasses and laughter blurring into white noise. But all you could see was the clock in your head, the countdown on the console flashing red. Thirteen hours. The Light siphoning deeper into the Leagueâs secrets with every passing minute.
Woonhak leaned close, brushing crumbs from your sleeve like a doting husband. To everyone else, it was charming. To you, it was infuriating.
We should be moving now, you thought bitterly. Not playing tea party.
When the luncheon finally ended and the crowd began to disperse, you seized the moment, tugging him into an empty hallway.
âWhat the hell are you doing?â you hissed, shoving his chest. âTelling stories? Playing soldier? Do you realize the clock is ticking?â
He stepped back, eyes narrowing. âAnd what do you want me to do? Blow our cover by storming the tower in broad daylight? You think I like wasting time?â
âYou looked like you loved it,â you snapped. âYouâve been soaking up the attention all morning while Iâve been stuck smiling through garden club gossip!â
âBecause thatâs the job,â he shot back. His voice rose, raw and sharp. âWe blend. We convince. We survive. You think youâre the only one frustrated?â
Your hands curled into fists. âAt least Iâm not parading around like itâs a game!â
His jaw clenched, eyes blazing. âYou always do this. You act like youâre the only one who cares. Like your brain is the only weapon that matters, and Iâm just muscle to drag along.â
The words struck harder than you expected. âYou think I donât trust you?â
âYou donât!â His voice cracked, louder now. âEvery time, itâs you with the plan, you with the answers, and me left playing catch-up. You donât rely on meâyou tolerate me.â
Your chest burned, anger and something else you didnât dare name tangling in your throat. âThatâs not true!â
âThen prove it!â he yelled.
Silence crashed down, so heavy it made your ears ring.
The corridor was empty save for the muffled hum of voices drifting from the luncheon hall. Pale light from the narrow windows fell in sharp bands across the floor, dust motes swirling in the beams. The walls pressed close, the silence after your shouting heavier than any security checkpoint youâd faced.
You stared at him, chest rising and falling too fast. His shoulders heaved, his fists clenched tight at his sides. For once, he wasnât smirking, wasnât teasing, wasnât hiding behind easy charm. He looked furious. And underneath that fury, he looked wounded.
âYou donât rely on me,â he repeated, quieter now, his voice hoarse. âYou never have.â
âThatâs not true,â you snapped automatically, but your throat tightened around the words.
âIsnât it?â His jaw flexed. âEvery op, every missionâyou keep me at armâs length. You plan, you decide, and I follow orders like Iâm just your personal bodyguard. Do you even see me as your partner?â
The accusation stung, sharp as glass. âOf course I do.â
âThen why does it feel like you donât trust me?â His voice cracked, loud again, reverberating off the narrow walls. âWhy does it feel like Iâm just here to break down doors and take bullets while you do the real work?â
You flinched. Not because he was wrong, but because he wasnât.
Your silence stretched, heavy.
He laughed bitterly, shaking his head. âThatâs what I thought.â
Anger surged, hot and choking. âYou think itâs easy for me? Carrying the weight of everyoneâs lives every time I use my powers? Holding two hundred minds in line at once until I collapse? You think I like doing everything myself?â
His eyes snapped to yours, dark and burning. âThen why wonât you let me carry some of it?â
âBecause you make everything a joke!â you shot back. âBecause you donât take anything seriously until itâs falling apart! Because if I lean on you and you mess up, we both die!â
The words hung sharp in the air, and the moment they left your mouth, you regretted them.
He recoiled like youâd struck him.
âI mess up,â he repeated, softer than a whisper, but the hurt laced through it cut deeper than any shout.
Your chest caved in. âThatâs notââ
âNo, I get it.â He raked a hand through his hair, pacing a tight circle, then turned back to you, eyes bright with frustration. âIâm just a hammer to you. Point me at a wall, Iâll smash it. Point me at an enemy, Iâll fight it. But donât you dare trust me with anything else.â
âThatâs not fair.â
âIsnât it?â He stepped closer, close enough that you could see the pulse pounding at his throat. âYou donât trust me to lead. You donât trust me to plan. Hell, you donât even trust me with your hand without frying my brain.â
The words hit too close to the truth, and it made your defenses snap up sharper. âMaybe because you never take me seriously!â
His voice thundered back, raw and desperate. âBecause if I did, Iâdââ
He stopped himself. The sentence fractured midair, leaving you both staring, breathless.
ââŚyouâd what?â Your voice cracked, softer, trembling.
His eyes darted away, then back, as if torn between speaking and running. His chest rose and fell like heâd just fought ten rounds. Finally, he whispered, almost broken: âBecause if I did, I wouldnât be able to stop.â
The silence that followed was deafening.
You stared at him, your own anger unraveling thread by thread until only confusion and something far more dangerous remained.
âYouâŚâ Your voice faltered. âYouâre not justâthis isnât just about the mission, is it?â
His jaw tightened. He didnât answer.
But he didnât need to. You could see it. In his clenched fists, in the way his shoulders shook, in the way his gaze refused to leave yours even when it burned.
All at once, every memory of him crashed into you like a wave. His stupid jokes, his endless teasing, the way he always stood a half-step closer than anyone else. The way heâd kissed you last night, too convincingly for it to be fake. The way his hand had stayed in yours under the table this morning, his thumb brushing circles he probably didnât even realize he was making.
You thought of how your heart had hammered then. How it was hammering now.
You swallowed hard, voice trembling when you finally spoke. âWoonhak⌠are we even pretending anymore?â
The question hung between you like a live wire, sparking, dangerous, impossible to ignore.
And in his silenceâraw, vulnerable, unguardedâyou realized you werenât sure of your own answer, either.
Woonhakâs chest heaved, his fists flexing at his sides like he didnât know whether to punch the wall or reach for you. His jaw worked, tight and angry, but underneath the anger was something elseâsomething that scared you more than the fight.
âYou always do this,â he said finally, voice rough, quieter now. âYou pretend itâs just the mission. Just tactics. Just survival. But you never admit itâs more than that.â
Your breath caught. âMore than what?â
His gaze snapped to yours, dark and unflinching. âMore than partnership. More than banter. More than⌠whatever this game is.â
The words cut straight through you, sharp and clean. You wanted to deny it, wanted to shove the truth back down where it couldnât touch you. But the look in his eyes burned through every defense you had left.
Your voice wavered. âYou donât know what youâre talking about.â
âThe hell I donât.â He stepped closer, the air between you buzzing. âEvery time you roll your eyes at me, every time you call me insufferable, every time you look at me like you want to strangle meâyou think I donât notice? You think I donât know what it means?â
Your back hit the wall before you realized youâd been stepping away. He stood in front of you now, too close, his shadow blotting out the sunlight streaming through the window.
âAnd what does it mean?â you whispered, your voice trembling.
His chest rose, fell. His hand lifted halfway, hesitated, then finally pressed against the wall beside your head. His eyes burned into yours, raw and furious and aching all at once.
âIt means,â he said, voice low and shaking, âthat I canât keep pretending this is just fake.â
The words cracked something inside you wide open.
All the fights. All the teasing. All the times heâd driven you insane just to make you laugh. The way heâd kissed you last night like it wasnât just an act. The way your heart has refused to steady since.
It all crashed into you in one dizzying wave.
âWoonhakâŚâ Your voice broke, the name slipping out softer than youâd ever said it.
His eyes flicked to your lips. And before you could stop yourselfâbefore either of you could throw up wallsâyou surged forward.
His mouth crashed against yours, raw and demanding, and all the fire youâd been swallowing since last night ignited in your veins. This wasn't a cover, wasnât theaterâit was messy, unpracticed, and real.
You gasped, and he caught the sound, deepening the kiss like heâd been waiting for it all along. His hand slid from the wall to your jaw, fingers curling under your chin to hold you in place, his thumb brushing your cheek with a surprising tenderness that only made your knees weaker. The other hand gripped your hip, firm, grounding you even as your world tilted dangerously off-balance.
Your fingers clenched in his uniform, pulling him closer, needing him closer. You hated the way it felt natural, like your body had been waiting for this exact gravity. You tugged at his shirt until the medals pressed against your chest, hard edges biting into silk, and still it wasnât enough.
The kiss broke for airâa heartbeat of panting, of mouths parting just enough to breathe. But his lips hovered, brushing yours with every inhale, unwilling to let go.
Then he kissed you again, slower this time, like he wanted to taste every ounce of your resistance before tearing it apart. His lips moved against yours with infuriating patience, softer, deeper, making your chest ache with something you didnât want to name.
Your hands slid up, almost without permission, fingers threading into his hair. It was softer than you expected, your nails grazing his scalp, and he groaned low in his throat at the contactâa sound that made your pulse slam harder against your ribs. His mouth opened under yours, pulling you in deeper, hungrier, like heâd been starving for this and you were the only thing that could sate him.
The world narrowed to heat, to breath, to the slick slide of mouths and the press of bodies. The corridor, the mission, the ticking satelliteâit all fell away, eclipsed by the dizzying fact that this was him, kissing you like he meant it, and you kissing him back like youâd been waiting for it longer than you dared admit.
When you finally tore apart, gasping for air, you stayed tangled. His forehead rested against yours again, his nose brushing yours, both of you still clinging to each other like the gravity wouldnât let go.
âThisââ you tried, voice cracking, âthis is a mistake.â
His lips curled, breathless, almost laughing against your mouth. âFeels like the best mistake Iâve ever made.â
You wanted to shove him away. You wanted to drag him closer. Instead, you just stayed there, trapped in the wreckage of the kiss, your heart hammering with the awful realization that neither one of you were pretending anymore.
Night fell heavy over Fort Marshall.
From the window of your shared quarters, the desert sky stretched black and endless, stars scattered like broken glass across velvet. The base was quieter now, guards pacing their routes, searchlights carving arcs into the dark. Somewhere beneath it all, the satellite uplink pulsed steadily, mocking you with every passing second.
But tonight, the mission demanded masks once again.
You stared at your reflection in the mirror, smoothing your palms down the silk that grazed the floor with every movement. The blood-red gown was nothing like what you normally wore on missionsâor anywhere, for that matter. It caught the light with every shift of your body, the high slit flashing the pale line of your thigh, the neckline scandalously low, straps delicate against your shoulders. It wasnât armor nor was it a disguise. It was dangerous in a different way.
For a moment, you almost convinced yourself to change. To pick something simpler, safer. But then you remembered Alfredâs words: blend in. Tonight, that meant being the kind of woman a decorated officer couldnât keep his eyesâor his handsâoff of.
Your heart thrummed against your ribs as you opened the bathroom door.
Woonhak was standing by the dresser, fastening his cufflinks with infuriating precision, the black of his tuxedo jacket sharp against his broad shoulders. His hair was neatly combed, his medals perfectly polished. He looked every inch the officer he was pretending to beâpolished, commanding, untouchable.
Until he saw you.
The cufflink slipped from his hand, clattering against the wood. His head snapped up, and for the first time since youâd met him, you saw his confidence falter.
His eyes dragged over you, slow, deliberate, and impossible to misinterpret. From the slit of your gown to the curve of your neckline, to the way the red silk glowed against your skin. His mouth parted slightly, as though words had failed him.
âHolyââ He stopped, cleared his throat, and tried again. âYou lookâŚâ He exhaled hard, almost laughing at himself. âYou look like trouble.â
Your cheeks flamed. You crossed your arms over your stomach as if that could shield you from the weight of his gaze. âDonât stare.â
âCanât help it.â He pushed away from the dresser, crossing the small space between you in just a few strides. He stopped closeâtoo closeâclose enough that the musky, woodsy sweetness of his cologne wrapped around you, grounding and dizzying all at once.
The silence stretched. His hand lifted halfway, hovering near your arm before he caught himself and let it drop. His throat bobbed with a swallow, his eyes still burning into yours.
âYouâre impossible,â you muttered, stepping back to break the moment.
His hand caught your wrist, gentle but insistent. âAnd youâre stunning,â he said softly, simply, the honesty in his voice disarming you more than the words themselves.
The warmth of his touch lingered even after he let go.
You turned quickly, pretending to fuss with the small clutch Alfred had packed, anything to keep from meeting his eyes again. But the question gnawed at youâwas he still acting? Still selling the role of a husband smitten with his new bride? Or was there something else threaded in his voice, something real?
Your reflection in the mirror offered no answers. Only flushed cheeks, quick breaths, and eyes you didnât quite recognize.
Behind you, he adjusted his bowtie, the silk catching between his fingers.
âDamn it,â he muttered under his breath. The knot refused to cooperate.
You sighed, exasperated. âStill? After all this time?â
He shot you a sheepish grin in the mirror. âItâs not exactly a skill a superhero needs.â
You rolled your eyes and gestured towards him. âCâmere.â
The ballroom shimmered under golden light, chandeliers scattering fractured brilliance across polished marble. Black-and-gold banners draped the walls, and the air buzzed with perfume, mulled wine, and the faint tang of anticipation.
You froze at the edge of the dance floor, your crimson gown catching the light like fire, the slit flashing dangerously every time you shifted your weight. Couples gathered in the center, clasping hands, bodies angling close as the first sharp notes of the tango sliced through the hum of conversation.
Your stomach plummeted. âNo. Absolutely not.â
Woonhak turned to you, a grin tugging at the corner of his mouth, eyes glinting under the warm glow. âOh yes.â
âI donât know how to tango,â you hissed. âIâll trip. Iâll ruin the cover. Weâll stand outââ
He extended his hand toward you, palm steady, inviting. âIt takes two to tango.â
The words landed like a challenge.
Before you could argue, his hand closed gently but firmly around yours, tugging you onto the floor. The warmth of his palm against yours sent a shiver straight up your arm. His other hand slid to the small of your back, guiding you into place, pulling you flush against him.
The music swelled.
You stumbled on the first step, but his grip steadied you instantly. He moved with practiced ease, his body leading yours with subtle shifts of pressureâforward, back, side, spin. You realized quickly that the tango wasnât gentle, and wasn't safe like a waltz. It was sharp. Demanding. A battle disguised as an embrace.
And he was winning.
Your leg brushed his with every lunge, the slit of your gown flashing scarlet as he spun you in a quick pivot. You gasped as his hand pressed firmer against your back, arching you into a dip that made your hair brush the floor. His grin was wicked as he pulled you up again, your bodies colliding in perfect sync.
âYouâve done this before,â you muttered, breathless.
âMaybe once or twice,â he said smoothly, lips grazing the shell of your ear as he spun you into another sharp turn.
The violins climbed higher, the rhythm pounding in your chest. You struggled to keep up at first, every step a scramble to match his precision. But the more you fought, the more you realized the tango wasnât about memorizing steps. It was about surrender. About trust.
Two bodies moving as one.
And the more you gave in to his lead, the easier it became.
Your breaths fell into rhythm with his. Your body began anticipating his shiftsâthe subtle tightening of his hand before a spin, the press of his chest before a lunge. Your heels clicked against the marble in perfect time, skirts flaring as he pulled you through a sweeping arc.
You hated how natural it felt.
The dance tightened, movements shrinking until you were locked close, his thigh sliding between yours as you pivoted. Heat radiated through every point of contactâhis hand at your back, his fingers twined with yours, his breath ghosting against your cheek. The push and pull of the tango mirrored every argument, every tease, every kiss that had blurred the line between fake and real.
You werenât just dancing. You were fighting. You were confessing. You were unraveling.
The music built to its peak. He spun you one final time, your dress flaring like flame, then pulled you back into a dip so deep you felt the world tilt. His arm held you steady, his face hovering just above yours, his breath hot against your lips.
Hours later, when the ball was in full swingâglasses clinking, laughter spilling freer with every refillâthe plan bore fruit.
A young soldier in full dress uniform approached, his boots clicking against the marble as he made his way through the throng. Conversations softened around him, curiosity stirring as he stopped in front of your table and bowed stiffly.
âColonel Kim. Madam.â His voice was clipped, official. âGeneral Lyle requests your presence. Immediately.â
Heads turned. Whispers flitted. The general wants them. No one would question it.
Woonhak stood smoothly, offering his hand to you with all the polish of a decorated officer. âOf course.â He pressed a kiss to your knuckles before guiding you to your feet. âCome, darling.â
The soldier pivoted sharply, leading the way out of the ballroom. You walked arm-in-arm with Woonhak, your crimson skirts whispering across the floor, his presence solid beside you. You felt eyes on your backs all the way to the doors.
Once outside, the night swallowed you whole. The cool desert air wrapped around your bare shoulders, stars burning above. Searchlights swept across the yard, guards pacing like shadows.
The soldier led you toward the courtyard. His steps were steady, unaware of the trap already closing.
You brushed against his mind, the hypnosis still wrapped tight around his thoughts. The illusion of urgency kept him marching forward until you reached the shadowed corner of the base where the light thinned.
Then, with practiced ease, Woonhak moved.
His hand shot out, clamping around the soldierâs mouth. In one swift motion, he yanked him back into the shadows. Your palm pressed to the soldierâs temple, sending a psychic pulse sharp enough to drop him unconscious before he could resist. His body slumped, dead weight, into Woonhakâs arms.
âOut cold,â Woonhak muttered, easing the soldier against the wall. He adjusted the manâs hat so it covered his eyes. To anyone glancing from a distance, heâd look like another guard grabbing a smoke break.
You exhaled, your heart pounding. âThatâll buy us time.â
His hand caught yours again, the contact firm and urgent. âCome on.â
The radar tower loomed above you, its red lights pulsing steady as a heartbeat. The hum of the uplink thrummed in the ground beneath your boots, the countdown etched into your mind like a drumbeat.
You and Woonhak crept closer, breaths even, steps silentâ
âuntil metal shrieked.
A heavy body dropped from above, boots slamming against steel with a clang that reverberated down the tower.
The man rose from his crouch slowly, grinning like heâd been waiting for this moment. His skin shimmered faintly under the floodlights, veins glowing a sickly yellow that pulsed in time with the towerâs lights. He flexed his hands, knuckles cracking, his grin sharp.
âWell, well,â he rasped, voice gravel ground into words. âThe League sends children to do their dirty work. Cute.â
Your stomach sank. âMeta-human.â
âLow-tier,â Woonhak muttered, his stance shifting. His shoulders squared, his body instinctively angled between you and the intruder. âStill dangerous.â
âOrders were simple,â the meta said, pacing slowly around you, eyes glowing brighter. âGuard the tower. Kill intruders. Looks like I get to have some fun.â
Then he lunged.
He moved faster than his bulk should have allowed, his fist a blur. You ducked just in time, his punch exploding against the concrete where your head had been a moment ago. Shards sprayed your arm, slicing shallow cuts across your skin.
Woonhak was already moving, shoulder slamming into the metaâs chest. The impact cracked the air, both men grunting as they locked in a brutal grapple. Their fists collided, the sound like thunderclaps, each blow shaking the air.
You scrambled back, ripping the knife from your thigh sheath, its weight solid and familiar in your palm. You hated fighting. You always had. But the missionâthe countdownâthe heat of blood already trickling down your armâleft no room for hesitation.
The meta swung wide, backhanding Woonhak across the face with enough force to send him staggering into the towerâs base. The manâs yellow eyes locked on you.
âPretty little thing,â he sneered. âLetâs see how long you last.â
He lunged.
You sidestepped, slashing your blade across his arm. The metal sheen resisted at first, then split, blood spilling in a hot arc across the concrete. He snarled, whipping his other fist toward your ribs.
Pain exploded through your side, white-hot, your breath torn away as you flew back, colliding with the gravel. The knife clattered from your grip.
âY/N!â
Woonhak let out a shout, launching himself back into the fray. He tackled the meta from the side, slamming him against the steel tower with enough force to rattle its beams. The metaâs head snapped back, blood spraying as Woonhak drove a fist into his jaw once, twice, a third time. Bone cracked.
The meta only laughed, spitting crimson teeth onto the ground. âNot bad,â he rasped, swinging back hard. His glowing fist caught Woonhak in the stomach, the impact a deep, sick thud. Woonhak staggered, coughing blood onto the gravel.
âBastard,â he growled, wiping his mouth.
You forced yourself up, ribs screaming, vision blurred with pain. Your fingers found the knife again, sticky with your own blood. With a sharp breath, you surged forward, slashing low across the back of the metaâs leg.
This time, the blade cut deep, severing muscle. Blood gushed, dark and hot, spraying across your arm.
The meta howled, his balance faltering. He spun, his fist catching your shoulder and sending you sprawling again. Your back scraped raw against the concrete, the knife nearly slipping from your grasp.
He loomed over you, grinning through the blood spilling down his chin. âYouâve got fight, Iâll give you that. But youâll bleed out long before you take me down.â
His hand closed around your throat, fingers tightening, crushing. You clawed at his grip, knife slicing desperately at his forearm. Blood welled, but his strength didnât falter.
Then his grip vanished.
Woonhak slammed into him like a battering ram, wrenching him off you. They crashed to the ground, fists flying, the sound of flesh meeting flesh sharp and sickening.
âDonât touch her,â Woonhak snarled, his voice guttural. His fist smashed into the metaâs mouth, splitting it wide open. Blood sprayed in an arc, painting Woonhakâs cheek.
The meta spat, laughing even as teeth scattered across the gravel. âYou think you can save her? Youâre nothing but a blunt weaponââ
His words cut off in a gurgle as you drove your knife into his side. Deep. The resistance of muscle gave way to the sharp scrape of bone. Hot blood gushed over your hand, warm and slick.
He yelled, his glowing eyes flaring brighter as his elbow cracked against your temple. Stars exploded in your vision, the world tilting dangerously.
âY/N!â
Through the haze, you saw Woonhak grab the metaâs head with both hands. His arms bulged, veins straining, teeth bared. With one violent twist, there was a sickening crack.
The glow in the metaâs eyes flickered, then died. His body collapsed to the gravel with a heavy thud, blood pooling beneath him.
For a long, horrible moment, there was silence. Just your ragged breathing, the metallic tang of blood, and the steady thrum of the radar tower overhead.
Woonhak crouched beside you, his face streaked with bloodâsome his, some not. His hand cupped the back of your head gently, steadying you. âYou okay?â
You coughed, wiping blood from your lips. âDefine okay.â
He almost laughed, shaking his head, but his eyes were dark, fierce. âYou fought.â
You looked down at your hand, still slick with the metaâs blood, your knife dripping steadily onto the gravel. Your stomach twistedâbut you met his gaze, steady.
âHad to.â
And for the first time since youâd met him, he didnât smirk, didnât tease, didnât argue. He just nodded.
âTogether,â he said. His hand squeezed yours, grounding. âWe finish this together.â
Then the alarms shrieked.
Red strobes burst to life across the base, painting everything in flashing crimson. Radios crackled. Boots thundered. The entire fort had been roused.
âThey know weâre here,â you rasped, pulling the small black case from your belt.
âThen we end it now,â Woonhak growled, planting himself between you and the incoming storm.
Inside the case, nestled like the last bullet in a loaded gun, was the chip Batman had given you: a sleek sliver of obsidian circuitry no bigger than a flash drive. When inserted into the console, it would erase every byte of stolen data and fry the satelliteâs link for good.
You sprinted across the open yard, ribs aching, the chip clutched tight in your bloodied palm. Bullets cracked overhead, guards shouting as they spilled from the barracks.
âCover me!â you shouted.
âAlways!â Woonhak yelled back.
He opened fire, each shot precise, brutal. A soldier spun and dropped, blood spraying. Another lunged close, only to be met with the snap of Woonhakâs elbow breaking his jaw. The air filled with the acrid bite of gunpowder, the metallic tang of blood.
You slid beneath the console canopy, coughing through the smoke. The uplink screens glowed angry red, streams of encrypted data racing skyward. 23 minutes. 18 seconds.
You yanked the panel open, exposing the ports beneath. Sparks snapped against your knuckles as you jammed the chip home. For a breathless moment, nothing happenedâ
Then the system screamed.
UNAUTHORIZED DEVICE DETECTED.
You bit down hard, fingers flying as you bypassed locks. âCome on, come onââ
Guards swarmed. Woonhak dropped two with precise shots, but a third barreled in from the side, blade flashing. Woonhak caught the man by the throat, slammed him into the steel beam with a sickening crunch, and finished him with a single, bone-breaking twist. Blood sprayed across his sleeve.
âY/N!â he barked, glancing back at you, eyes wild.
âAlmost there!â
The screen flickered, corrupted code eating through the data streams line by line. Files collapsed, names shredded, secrets burned away. The chip was working.
A soldier broke through the chaos, rifle leveled at your back. You spun instinctively, knife flashing. The blade sank deep into his stomach, hot blood spilling over your hand. He gurgled, eyes wide, before crumpling at your feet.
You yanked the knife free, chest heaving. âI hate fighting,â you muttered under your breath.
âYouâre damn good at it,â Woonhak grunted, slamming another attacker into the ground, his fist ending the man with one bloody crack.
The console beeped, shrill and final.
UPLOAD: TERMINATED. DATA ERASED.
âYes,â you breathed, yanking the chip free just as sparks erupted from the panel. The entire tower shuddered.
âMove!â Woonhak grabbed your arm, dragging you back as the uplink screamed, electricity arcing wildly. The red lights sputtered before going black. Above, the radar towerâs crown blinked once, twiceâthen died.
The satellite was blind. The Leagueâs secrets were safe.
And the tower began to collapse.
Steel screamed overhead as the structure buckled, explosions blooming along the spine. You and Woonhak dove behind sandbags, the shockwave tearing across the ground. Shards of metal rained like knives, fire clawing at the night sky.
For a long, terrible moment, there was only ringing in your ears, the acrid burn of smoke in your throat, the weight of his arm thrown protectively across your body.
Thenâsilence.
You lifted your head, coughing, eyes stinging from ash. The tower was a twisted husk, fire chewing through its remains. Sparks popped and hissed where the consoles had burned out, the smell of ozone thick in the air.
Youâd done it.
Woonhak shifted beside you, blood streaked across his jaw, soot smeared down his neck. His eyes met yours, raw and unguarded. âTold you Iâve got you, sweetheart.â
Your throat tightened, the chip still clutched in your trembling hand. âYeah,â you whispered. âYou do.â
THE AFTERMATH
The medbay was too quiet.
Machines beeped steadily, curtains swayed faintly in the draft from the air vents, and antiseptic stung sharp in the back of your throat. You sat propped up against pillows, bandages tight around your ribs, trying not to think about how the last 48 hours had gone.
The curtain rustled.
WoonhakâSuperboyâslipped inside, his broad frame filling the small space. He was cleaned up now, bruises fading purple and blue along his jaw, fresh gauze wrapped around his knuckles. He looked sharp even in the plain shirt Alfred mustâve shoved at him, though his shoulders hunched in a way you rarely saw.
âSeraphim,â he greeted quietly.
âSuperboy,â you returned, a little too formal, a little too careful.
He hovered at the foot of your bed for a second, shifting his weight like he wasnât sure he belonged here. Then he sat on the edge of the mattress, the dip pulling you both closer.
For a moment, neither of you spoke. The silence wasnât heavy this timeâjust strange, delicate, like glass that might shatter if you moved wrong.
âSo,â he said finally, clearing his throat. âHowâs the rib?â
You raised a brow. âBroken. Wrapped. Hurts like hell when I breathe. Standard procedure.â
He winced. âRight. Guess that was a dumb question.â
âNot your dumbest,â you said lightly, and to your surprise, he laughed.
Silence fell again, softer this time.
âYou?â you asked. âHowâs the jaw?â
He touched the faint bruise at his cheek with a crooked grin. âStill attached. Canât say the same for the other guyâs.â
Despite yourself, you snorted. âShow-off.â
His grin widened, but faded just as quickly. He leaned forward, elbows on his knees, staring at the floor. âFeels weird, doesnât it? Being back. Mission over. JustâŚâ He gestured vaguely at the white walls. âThis.â
You nodded, staring at your hands. âToo quiet.â
Another beat of silence. Then, softly, âDo you think theyâll remember us? At the fort?â
You tilted your head. âThe wives?â
He smirked faintly. âThe ones convinced we were sneaking off every five minutes.â
You groaned, dragging a hand down your face. âIâm never living that down.â
âCouldâve been worse,â he teased. âAt least they bought it. I mean, the tango alone sold the whole âmadly in loveâ thing.â
Your cheeks heated before you could stop them. âYouâre insufferable.â
âAnd youâre blushing,â he shot back.
You opened your mouth for a retortâbut stopped when his expression shifted. The grin slipped. His shoulders tensed. His hand flexed against his thigh like he was bracing himself.
âSeraphimâŚâ His voice was low, careful. âWhat are we?â
Your head snapped toward him, caught off guard.
He kept talking, words tumbling too fast, nerves finally cracking through his usual bravado. âI mean, weâve been partners forever, right? And we bicker, and we fight, and yeah, weâve saved each otherâs asses more times than I can count. But thenââ His voice pitched higher. âThen weâre pretending to be married, and kissing for cover, and suddenly it doesnât feel like pretending anymore, and I donât know where the act stops and where⌠whatever this is starts, andââ
You stared at him, blinking slowly, as his rambling grew wilder.
ââand maybe itâs just me, maybe Iâve been reading into things, maybe you really do just think Iâm an arrogant pain in the ass, but I canât stop thinking about the tango, and the look on your face whenââ
You cut him off, your voice flat but your heart hammering in your throat.
âJust kiss me, you idiot.â
He froze. Mouth open. Eyes wide.
Then, slowly, a grin curved across his bruised face. âGladly.â
And he leaned in, closing the distance in one smooth, decisive motion. His mouth met yours, softer this timeâno pretense, no audience, no act to maintain. Just him. Just you. His hand cupped your cheek, careful, as if you might break, while the other pressed against the mattress to steady himself.
You sighed into the kiss, your fingers curling into his shirt, pulling him closer despite the ache in your ribs. The world fell away againâno satellites, no missions, no code names. Just the two of you, raw and unguarded, finally admitting what had been burning between you all along.
When he pulled back, breathless and grinning, his forehead resting against yours, he whispered, âSo thatâs a yes?â
You rolled your eyes, but the smile tugging at your lips gave you away. âShut up and kiss me again.â
He chuckled, low and warm, before doing exactly that.
playlist two, track three: let you break my heart again - ęšě´í
(1k words)
warnings: angst!! one sided love, woonhak is as clueless as they get.
a/n: ahh my love for laufey should be studied⌠also lowkey writing from experience with this one so heh. thatâs fun.
pretend that we are more than friends
and of course iâll let you break my heart again
not every love story can have a happy ending.
it is a common misconception that love always finds its way - that if you want it hard enough, if you try hard enough, if youâre willing to sacrifice parts of yourself then itâll work and youâll get the fairytale-like ending every little girl hopes and dreams of while listening to tales of a knight in shining armor, coming in to rescue the princess from evil before marrying her and living happily ever after.
but real life doesnât abide by the laws of fairytales.
in real life, there is no princess, and certainly no knight: only a boy you sat next to in class, the liveliest of them all, with a smile that could light up even the darkest of your days. and you - so small compared to him, so quiet, so⌠insignificant.
if you and woonhak were fantasy characters, youâd surely be from two completely different universes - different lives, different relationships with people, different emotions, different outlook on life, different circle of friends. amd yet somehow, in all of it, heâd still noticed you.
it was almost an unnatural ordeal to the bystanders, seeing woonhak chat up to you in class: his smile as bright as the sun, cheeks rising, eyes shooting an excited glance your way as he sat down in his newly designated seat, one right next to you. his hand extended towards you like it was natural and from that moment on, you knew it wasnât gonna end well.
they say that opposites attract, and you and woonhak were certainly a great example of such a situation - a difference so clear and vast it was almost night and day. many were surprised when finding out you were friends, even more so when he would proudly proclaim that you were his âone and only closest friend.â
what a shame that this widely stated âone and onlyâ would only ever be tied to friendship in his eyes.
âyouâre spacing out again.â woonhakâs voice was a sharp pull back into reality, into the present. your gaze fell upon him - a signature sulk gracing his face, lips curved downwards as he tried his best to pretend he was annoyed with you. âyou werenât listening, youâre supposed to help me out!â
you shook your head slowly, mumbling a quiet apology with the slightest hint of a smile, eyes falling back to the coffee in front of you, to the notebooks sprawled out on the small table. contrary to what most people passing you two wouldâve assumed, the help woonhak asked for was far from being even remotely tied to solving math equations or dissecting literature pieces to find the hidden meanings and innuendos. his mind was somewhere else entirely.
âokay, so, i need to know the following.â he continued, voice excited and entirely too fast as he fumbled with the piece of paper he held in his hands, a list of sorts. âher favorite flowers, whether she prefers snacks sweet or savoury, what her favorite colour is⌠oh, and what her favorite music genre is! that one is extremely important.â
a sigh left your lips - and yet you tried not to let it show on your face that you would rather be anywhere else than here, having this conversation right now.
âyou could just⌠ask her out, you know.â you mumbled, and though your voice was soft, each word felt like a knife to your own gut - with you holding the handle and twisting it deeper. âlike normal people do. thereâs no need for extravagance. iâm sure sheâll appreciate the gesture and say yes either way.â
woonhakâs eyes met yours, a pout on his lips. he looked like a kicked puppy - the expression on his face almost cartoonish. and yet it did its job: another sigh leaving your lips, deeper this time, like standing your ground and not giving in wasnât an option anymore.
âher favorite flowers are roses - pink specifically. she prefers sweet treats, but doesnât necessarily like chocolate all that much, her favorite colors are any pastels and from what i know she listens to a plethora of different genres.â
woonhakâs whole face lit up in no time with the kind of enthusiasm you could only see in a little kid on christmas day. he stood up almost just as fast as - backpack already thrown over one of his arms, the brightest smile on his face.
âyouâre the best, you know?â he exclaimed, so much excitement filling him you were afraid it would begin to spill out. âiâll text you if my plan works out!â
and just like that, he was gone.
only you remained. you, the perfect silence of the cafe, your notebooks on the table taking up almost the entire space, a mug of coffee which has long forgotten the feeling of warmth and a slice of pie still left untouched. you and the absence of your light - only the mundane and heart crushing reality remaining.
woonhakâs words still hung in the air like a lingering touch, like an arrow piercing right through your beating heart. the best.
and yet despite these words being uttered towards you with utmost honesty, he was still so⌠clueless. so or maybe the best just wasnât enough for him.
you took a bite of the pie, followed closely by a sip of the cold coffee - a bittersweet sensation in your mouth, almost as bittersweet as the ache inside your chest. only thing you could do was shove those thoughts deep down and pretend they never existed, though: for youâd let him break your heart over and over again if only it meant having him in your life for a fraction longer.
one day, your feelings for him will vanish - fleeting away into the nothingness, letting something new bloom. maybe someday youâd find someone who looks at you the same way you look at him. but for now, thisâll have to do.
just you and a love with no hope of a happy ending.
ŕłŕż boynextdoor as exes who cannot get over you
warnings: boynextdoor x reader, angst, break up, pining, bonedo crying bcs i have thing for crying boys lmao
wc: 1.8k
sunghoÂ
đŻ he isnât the annoying, embarrassing ex who canât take a hint. no, sungho is far from that. his inability to move on is quiet, almost invisible. itâs in the small things youâd never notice unless you looked closely enough. Â
đŻ whenever he misses you, he doesnât flood your inbox with desperate texts or try to insert himself back into your life. instead, he scrolls through your old messages, reading each line as if searching for something he missed, something that might tell him how it all fell apart. on nights when the ache in his chest feels unbearable, he logs into a spam account just to check your social media. he studies your posts in silence, wondering if the smile in your photos is real or just for show. Â
đŻ after the breakup, he developed a habit of overanalyzing everything. he reads and rereads your last messages, dissecting every word, every punctuation mark. he clicks on the names of people who like your posts and studies the profiles of those youâve recently followed, crafting stories in his head that only fuel his misery. Â
đŻ and then there was that eveningâwhen the sun was setting and the orange light softened everything but the weight of the moment. youâd agreed to meet him for closure, ready to draw the final line between you both. you thought it would be simple, clean. a goodbye. but when it came time to leave, he just couldnât let go of your hand. Â
đŻ standing by the side of the street, his grip tightened as though letting go would mean losing the last piece of you forever. his lips quivered as he tried to keep it together, but the tears betrayed him, spilling down his cheeks before he could even form the words. his voice was low, trembling, and desperate. âiâll be betterâŚhm?â his swollen eyes searched for yours, his vulnerability raw and heartbreaking. Â
đŻ in that moment, it was as if heâd fall to his knees right there on the pavement if it meant convincing you to stay. he didnât care who might be watching or how foolish he might look. his hand stayed firm around yours, a silent plea that screamed louder than any words he could manage. he was willing to beg, to promise, to do anythingâif only youâd give him one more chance.Â
riwoo
đŻ in his latest post, he wore a bracelet you both shared during better days, casually wrapped around his wrist. he doesnât mention it, but he hopes youâll notice. itâs his silent way of saying he still thinks about you, even now, after everything fell apart.
đŻ he blames himself for losing you, overanalyzing every fight, every word left unsaid. he tells himself itâs because he wasnât enough or didnât try hard enough. in his mind, if he had just loved you better or held on tighter, maybe he wouldnât have lost you.
đŻ your relationship with riwoo was a cycle of hope and heartbreak, on and off, again and again. each time you tried to fix it, the cracks seemed to deepen, but he refused to let go. he gave everything to keep you, even when it felt like the universe was against you both. and yet, despite his desperate efforts, he still lost you in the end, even though it was never truly his fault.
đŻ riwoo is the type to drunk text you, and everyone knows it. his friends would drag him out for a karaoke night at the ktv, hoping to take his mind off you. but instead of grabbing the mic and singing along, heâd sit in the corner, nursing a drink as his friendsâ voices echo through the room. one shot turns into two, then three, until the alcohol numbs his sensesâbut not his thoughts.
đŻ eventually, heâd slip outside under the guise of needing fresh air. his friends would find him leaning against a wall, his phone screen glowing in the dark as he carefully types out a message for you.
đŻÂ his words are raw, aching with vulnerability: "how are you so good at pretending i never meant anything to you, while iâm here thinking about you all day even at times when i should be happy? did you even love me? do you ever think of me too? why does it feel like this doesnât kill you the way itâs killing me?â
jaehyun
đŻ you have no idea what your absence does to jaehyun. one time when jaehyun couldn't stop himself from crossing your boundaries as exes, he dialed your number and called you. when he didn't expect you to answer, you could hear how his voice wavers when he talks to you, how it almost feels like he's choking in his own tears, asking you to come back, and telling you how much he's struggling to move on.Â
đŻ ây/n, i canât do this. please.â jaehyunâs voice cracked, his grip on your hand trembling as he stared at you with eyes that brimmed with desperation. âi donât want to throw away all the love i have for you. i canât. i could never give this love to someone else. so please... let me love you again.â Â
đŻ your heart clenched at the raw pain in his voice, but you forced yourself to stay firm. swallowing back the lump in your throat, you reached down to pry his hand off yours, even as it broke both of you further. âjaehyun, you can.â your voice shook, but you kept going, fighting through the ache. âright now, you feel like you canât because⌠we just broke up. but trust me, youâll move past this. youâll give that love to someone elseâsomeone who deserves it.â Â
đŻ his breath hitched, and he shook his head fiercely, tears streaking down his cheeks. âbut theyâre not you.â he choked out, the words thick with frustration and heartbreak. ây/n, itâs not the same if itâs not you.â Â
đŻ the weight of his words hung heavy in the air, suffocating. for a moment, you faltered, the pain in his voice slicing through your resolve like a blade. but you knewâno matter how much it hurtâit was over. you had to let go, even if he wasnât ready to.
taesanÂ
đŻ taesan dodges every potential relationship that comes his way, like heâs running from something he canât bear to face. and maybe he isâbecause no matter how hard he tries, no matter how much time passes, he can never get over you. Â
đŻ itâs impossible for him to be with someone else without you creeping into his mind, lingering like a ghost in every quiet moment. every laugh he hears feels dull compared to yours. every fleeting touch lacks the warmth he once knew. even though you couldnât care less that heâs still breathing, you haunt him in ways youâll never realize. Â
đŻ women approach him, some bold, others subtle, each one trying to capture his attention. but none of them could ever come close to you. he knows itâs unfair, knows heâs holding them to a standard they could never meet because theyâre not you. and yet, he lets the comparisons swallow him whole, shutting out every chance at moving on.Â
đŻ late at night, when the weight of it becomes too much to bear, heâll grab his phone and type out messages that he knows he shouldnât send. but he does anyway, each word a quiet plea he canât hold back: âi just feel like⌠we didnât even try enough. donât you think?â
đŻ even then, he knows the answer. he knows youâve moved on without looking back. but for taesan, forgetting you feels like forgetting a part of himself
đŻ taesan might appear composed and nonchalant to the world, but when it comes to you, heâs a storm of emotions he canât contain. the mere thought of you and the life you couldâve shared leaves him unraveling, tears spilling freely as he lets himself feel every ounce of the ache, no longer holding back what heâs been keeping buried inside.
leehan
đŻ when you were together, he never failed to share every detail of his day with youâwhat he ate, the things he saw, even the random thoughts that crossed his mind. but after the breakup, he didnât know where to put all those thoughts anymore. with no one else to confide in, he started typing them into the notes on his phone, just in case there was ever a chance to talk to you again. in his mind, he held onto the hope that one day, he could sit down with you and tell you about everything youâd missed.
đŻ but when reality sank in, when he realized that chance might never come, he couldnât stop the tears from falling. the weight of missing you crushed him in moments like these, and no matter how hard he tried to distract himself, he always came back to the same aching longing.
đŻ of all the members, heâd be the one trapped in the cycle of longing the longest. he wouldnât open up to others, keeping his feelings bottled up instead. he thought if he could just hold on quietly, it might hurt less, but that only made moving forward harder.
đŻ for leehan, moving on felt like losing you all over again. so he never rushed the process, knowing deep down that forcing himself to let go would only make the pain worse. he took his time, letting himself grieve at his own pace.
đŻ he was sentimental to a fault. every little thing that had been yoursâthe mug you left behind, the hoodie you forgot to take homeâstill sat where it had always been, as if theyâd belonged there all along. he didnât have the heart to pack them away. they were pieces of you, and even if they hurt to look at, he couldnât bring himself to let them go.
woonhak
đŻ woonhak would be the type to keep his distance, even when his heart ached to be near you. no matter how much he missed you, heâd choose to stay in the background, silently watching as you moved forward without him. he convinced himself it was for the best, he didnât want to disturb the peace youâd found in his absence.
đŻ every time he thought about reaching out, his fingers would hover over his phone, only to set it down again with a quiet sigh. he couldnât bring himself to pull you back into the tangled mess of emotions he carried. so instead, he stayed silent, swallowing his longing even when it hurt the most.
đŻ one thing about woonhak is when he cries, he doesnât hold back. tears fall freely as if each one carries the weight of everything heâs been holding inside. he doesnât hesitate to let it out because keeping it in feels unbearable. but reaching out to you? thatâs a step heâs too afraid to take.
đŻÂ so instead, he turns to his most trusted friends, the ones who know him better than he knows himself sometimes. with shaky breaths and tear-streaked cheeks, he crumbles in their presence. âwhat the hell did i do wrong?â he chokes out, his voice breaking under the weight of his heartbreak. âwhere did it all go wrong? all i did was love her.â the words spill from him like a flood, his sobs filling the silence as his older friends wrap him in their quiet understanding.Â