21. What I love most about myself

I like my sense of humor and taste in music

39. My favorite ice cream flavor

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?

Oh geez these are all gonna be mega hard because I’m chaste as fuck.

Shit I dunno. This would be like, sophomore/junior year right? No one. I kissed no one. Kissing doesn’t exactly make sense to me to be honest. I mean yeah, I’ve kissed people, and I’ve been kissed, but I still don’t understand it? You’re literally poking someone with your mouth. I dunno.

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

Oh no these questions are indeed hard to answer fuck

1. Me being to trust you.

I actually have deep seated trust issues molded by my not so good childhood, so trust is high on this list. 

2. Me actually knowing you

This goes in hand with the trust bit. I can get super paranoid and half the time think that there’s someone after me. I can’t walk down the street without looking around my surroundings.

3. Honesty

Literally all of these are turning out to be “I need to trust you”

I have been lied to countless times. Had things hidden from me. That kind of speaks for itself.

4. Be able to accept all of me.

I’m actually a really weird person. I make random noises and flap my hands and can’t sit still very long. There’s also probably a bunch of other stuff but I also have a plot of anxiety and panic attacks. If you can’t understand that this happens we probably wouldn’t even be friends.

5. Call me out when I’m being ridiculous.

I hate pushovers I’m a pushover if I’m being a dick tell me please. This was a problem with my last relationship. It felt like the person would do anything to keep us a thing and I eventually felt fucking trapped and shit. They put me on a pedestal and then couldn’t hold it up.

Don’t glamorize me. That’s creepy af.

If I’m saying or doing something offensive/rude someone has to tell me to stop.

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

Oh geez this is also gonna be hard.

-I dunno my orientation leader Karin?

-My buddy a-kiirii-on-board

-C, my friend.

-My sweet fae prince sassmasterhoebagel (They/Them for this one guys)

-Shit I dunno my sister’s roommate is nice looking.

Whoa I totally forgot about the ask post thingy I just reblogged. Heh.

11: Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had.

Okay, this is gonna be really hard because I get these really vivid dreams.

Maybe I should talk about my dreams in general? idk

Okay, so I used to be able to lucid dream. I’d just write things down and then the next time I went to sleep I’d start lucid dreaming, really easy. 

Whenever I lucid dream I fly. Doesn’t matter if I make myself any wings or some shit but I always try it, you can’t do it in real life, why not take the chance? 

Sometimes it’s a running start. Other times it’s just some really high jumping. I’ve had dreams where I’m saving and taking someone out of Hell.

And sometimes I have dreams where I’m running. Away from like, the government, the police, I dunno I’m just trying to survive. Sometimes I’m some suped up vigilante, or I’m part of a street gang, or like, the Chosen One and have to go do a thing, journey dreams, I guess.

But those high action dreams aren’t the best. Those are probably just stress or anxiety dreams.

My favorites are the calming ones where I’m just hanging out with someone, like a friend of mine I know in real life. Maybe it’s the ferris wheel with Soph, maybe I’m walking home with Chris, or in the school hallways with Jemma. Maybe I’m napping on a couch on a calm afternoon. Those are the kinds of dreams that make me both happy and kind of sad. I’m not the kind of person that’s very physically affectionate with people. Chris is really the only person who’s really done that with me. Normally I’m not fond of being touched. She’s gained my trust and we’ve really clicked. I know I’ve got a lot of stuff to work on if I’d ever want any relationship that’s more than platonic. I guess those dreams help me get a sense of what that’s like.

14: Talk about a vacation.

Okay. This is tough, because I haven’t been on very many vacations. Like, trips. 

For school vacations I rarely leave my house because my parents don’t let me go anywhere. I’m holed up in my own room and yeah, sleeping in is nice but I don’t like having nothing to do. I don’t really work on my hobbies anymore. I can’t get the interest.

Peony: What’s your favorite hot beverage? chamomile tea

Tulip:For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for? I haven’t asked for a bday cake in a long time, tbh, but my fav flavor is red velvet

The Hermit: Favourite way to spend a day alone

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

Shoes. I’ve been needing new shoes.

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

Fuckit let’s get lost in South Korea.

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

17. A fact about my life

I've lived in Germany and five different states in my 22 years of living c:


18. Phobia

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Well I was a photography major and I’m the least photogenic person I know, soooooooo….

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

My greatest weakness is a tough one because there are so many to choose from, but if I had to pick one it would be that I have a hard time controlling my emotions. Anyone who’s been in a car with me when another driver does something mildly impolite knows this. My greatest strength is that I’m super reliable. 

27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?