#withheldhope

stop lying it’s not nice

Facts are so hard though :c But okay -  

1. I like to run and go for walks and all that nice stuff~

2. Growing I used to want to be a model, then a dancer (still do but eh), an actress, a lawyer, an architect, a psychologist, baker, and now the only thing I know is that I want to travel. 

3. For some reason running water sets me on edge and if I’m around it too long I tend to black out.

4. I make a wish on every opportunity that comes my way, but never on myself.

5. I love when people tell me stories (either about their lives or made up), draw me something, tell me facts about themselves, sing around me, or like make me anything for no reason or as like a surprise. 

6. I have this bad habit of saying I want things, but I never really mean it. Like sure, maybe I do want it, but I don’t want anyone to get it for me, like it makes me feel really bad ^-^;;

7. I always try my hardest to not be rude to anyone, but I mean we all have bad days right? I feel really terrible afterwards and will apologize for a million years to come. 

8. I have this thing for like cute animals like hgkjrfdgfrvjkd alpacas and pandas and huskies and bunnies and turtles and kittens and owls and just.. yeah~ ^-^;;

9. I really absolutely love hugs okay. But like I don’t like people so like I can hug certain individuals for a million years and then others it’s like one of those awkward quick hugs? Yeah I dunno.

10. Let’s finish with a lame fact okay~? I wear glasses 

Because we’ve been complaining about having any kind of chocolate cake for like two weeks, and “this might be your only chance to have something you baked"

Eat it anyway

Oh god I just got back on tumblr and saw this and my paranoia just went through the roof

Hey guys look how pretty my best friend is go love her kthxbye

Soo my friend Gaby tagged me right? Right. And I like JUST  woke up, so I'm sorry if my answers are like, all over the place and nonsensical okay? okay~  Rule 1: Post the rules. 

Rule 2: Answer the questions the tagger set for your in their post then make 11 new ones.

Rule 3: Tag 11 people and link them to your post.

Rule 4: Let them know you’ve tagged them.

I was tagged by whydontijusth8marrymyself! <3

Questions~

Something that you should be doing, but you aren’t? Um I should really be working on that final project that's due Wednesday but I'm not and I know I'll start freaking out as soon as I do start so I'm putting it off until I start to panic that it's getting too late, that way I'll only panic once?? (my logic is wonderful .__. not really, but whatever)

Do you have favorite person? Favorite person?? Not necessarily. I mean, in my opinion it's kinda rude to just have this one person you put on a pedestal.. Like, I have a best friend and the some close friends and then those others that are more acquaintances than friends. But I don't know, I don't have a favorite???  

Something you can’t live without? Well technically no one can live without food/water ((I kinda can, but that's a different story)) or air. But personally, um I dunno.. Music, hugs~~, stuffed animals, my best friend, my "good luck" charms, the ability to bake sweets and go om nom nom, the ability to dance ((horribly, and alone in my room where no living soul shall see)), um yeah.. I don't know okay? Stop yelling at me geez.

Favorite book/comic/thingy? THIS IS A TERRIBLE QUESTION  GABY!!! I DON'T/CAN'T HAVE A FAVORITE!

Something you want to do? In general? Like in life?? Or specifically? Like at this moment?? Okay, so let's start specifically then.. Um, I'd love to go for like a walk/jog/run/bike-ride, or hang out with friends or something to get out of this house ((I need a life guys, I never leave my house except for like school and those really rare occasions I get invited somewhere and my parents actually let me go)) Generally, I'd like to travel the world ((probably not gonna happen ;n; )), I'd like to do something with my life if I'm still around. Like I dunno. I'd love to be able to help others, maybe become a psychologist??? ((I'm terrible with plans, I just have unrealistic goals and dreams and hopes and then I end up letting myself down.. ))

What would you change about yourself? Can I answer this question with a question?? "What wouldn't I change?" So like EVERYTHING Okay, maybe not everything, but like everything.  Like, my eyes I'd keep, the color of my hair too. My desire to help could stay, but I definitely need to change the aspect of myself that allows everyone to just use me, walk all over me, take what they need, and then stab my in the back and leave. Like, I'm not a wimp or nothing (( mess with a friend and you'll be lying on the floor unconscious okay )) but like I never stand up for myself. Like I can tell when someone  is going to treat me like a doormat, but I let it happen anyway.. Um, can I change my mental stability alongside all the disorders?? Please??? I'd definitely change my body Um yeah, let's just go with everything.

Something that you notice but everyone else doesn't? Um I dunno what others notice or not, so this won't really be accurate..  But um, I tend to see things that aren't there, whether they be ghosts/spirit/entities/whateveryouwannacallthem, or hallucinations Um I also notice when ((most)) people are faking a smile, lying about something, or just not being themselves. I don't know, man. Whet else do I have to say..? ((Again, brain/mind has not completely booted up yet.. ^-^;; )) 

If you could have any pet, what would it be? Oh god I have a list of pets that me and my best friend want. But definitely a Husky~, an owl~, a giraffe~, a penguin~, a bunny~, a bear,~ a white tiger~, a panda~, a turtle~, etc etc~~

What is your good luck charm of sorts? Okay, so nobody can laugh or nothing cause most of these are silly and shouldn't really have any meaning but they do okay? Like do you ever get a feeling that you should do/say/wear something but you don't know why so you just go with it?? Okay, well that's kinda it. Like I just have a feeling that if I need some kind of luck I should wear one or more of these charms So, I have this charm bracelet right? And I add a charm on there every year ((so like it has as many charms as years I've been alive - 17 )) okay? And there's this one charm that's like a turtle. And I consider it lucky for no other reason than that I've always found turtles to be kinda like really lucky and I don't know why.. ^-^;; ((Stars too)) Okay, another thing is this ring I have that's like super wonderful cause my mommy ((my best friend = my mommy )) gave it to me a little over a year ago for my birthday and I dunno why I find it lucky, I just do. So I have many more, but this is getting long and I don't have to explain myself to any of you, so yeah...

What do you think of chain letters? You mean like the whole "Forward this to x people and the love of your life will kiss you tomorrow" or the "If you don't forward this to x people within the next y hours this thing will kill you in your sleep" or what not?? HAHAHAHAHA I pity the fool who believes in those.  But in all seriousness, they're silly and a waste of time

What do you think your future is going to be like? rdbgkvrediofkc Thinking about my future ((which I am completely unprepared for)) causes me to panic okay? I don't like thinking about it.  Like I have all these dreams and fantasies and such that I would love for them to come true but I know that won't happen and I'm so awful at like everything that I'd end up homeless in a box on the side of the road begging or change or like under a bridge like a troll or just dead cause I'd end up killing myself cause I was/am such a failure that I couldn't handle it or with my luck I'd piss off some like big shot gangster/mob leader and I'd get murdered in the most painful way and oh my god my future looks dark and bleak and painful and sad and just noooo ;n; O.. okay, I'll stop now...

Questions~ 1. What's one thing you've never told anyone? 2. If you could switch lives with a friend for a day, who would you switch with and why? 3. What is your favorite band/color/food? 4. If you could travel anywhere, where would you go and why? 5. What would you do if you won the lottery, or suddenly inherited a lot of money? 6. If you could chose to be anything other than human (animal/mythical creature/whatever tickles your fancy), what would you like to be and why? 7. What is your biggest fear? 8. Describe to the wonderful world of tumblr the person(s) you love the most and couldn't live without. 9. If you could do anything knowing you would not fail, what would you do? 10. Describe a day in your life. 11. Now, describe a day in your life if you knew you only had 24 hours to live. ((I feel like a teacher of some sorts. Like an English teacher that tells you to describe/explain everything. Sorrynotsorry )) tagging time, (◕‿◕✿)

((Doesn't really know anyone well enough so I apologize to everyone I tag))

lostinworldthatnobodyknows

pocahonass

fighting-the-monster-within-me

alyce-lost-in-wonderland

withheldhope

sports-and-hopes

zackwhorris

peachbloss0ms

shallowgirlinthedeepend

far-from-u