#withdrawing

Every person needs to take one day away. A day in which one consciously separates the past from the future. Jobs, family, employers, and friends can exist one day without any one of us, and if our egos permit us to confess, they could exist eternally in our absence. Each person deserves a day away in which no problems are confronted, no solutions searched for. Each of us needs to withdraw from the cares which will not withdraw from us.

-- Maya Angelou

Loyal to the foil.

But lookin fine, like aged wine!

Lord, help me find solace in the things that I do to prevent me from getting any further or in depth into this addiction.

The addict life isn’t for me anymore.

My health is at an all time low.

I’m dying, slowly more than anyone would truly believe.

Help me, I want peace.

I want to be beautiful forever.

Last week I had the urge to delete all my writing, fanart and social media, but I drew this instead.

[Poem] Withdrawal

Withdrawal from attention Withdrawal from affection Withdraw from interaction

I get a grip Tell myself it's not a coping mechanism if there's little benefaction And then I do it again

Creation, absolution, then inaction

I write And write And expect some good will come of it But I'm chasing a temporary high

Maybe people only create when they're unhappy Maybe that is why it's like this Searching for the sunlight in a forest Waiting for a chance to be more honest

But there is just no cosmic satisfaction

I feel like I'm an addict Maybe it's not normal Because it's itching like a drug

Affection, interaction, inattention