#with lily.

          “   i don’t know what i’m saying,   ”   were the muttered words of axel, as he rested his elbow on the table and allowed his fingers to run through dark locks of hair,  “   maybe i do miss them, but it’s not like there’s anything to do about this. i made my decision, didn’t i   ?   ”   he was referring to the only people in his life he would have had to miss. his family. in this moment, he supposed he had everything he could wish for   —   everything he needed to hold on, to make it through every day with a smile at the very least. he had everything he needed to be happy, yet that did not stop the tug at his heart. nonetheless, it had been at least five years, if not longer, that they had not said a word to each other, that he had not seen them, that he hadn’t reached out. he made the decision five years ago to cut loose from the ties to his family. he had his reasons, he even had multiple, however never had he considered that his siblings would be included in the equation. his imminent focus on his own needs had caused him to fail to see how he’d be leaving his younger siblings without another word. and he didn’t realize it now, until the same imminent focus on his own needs made him realized he missed them.   “   i’m sorry for this. we didn’t meet for me to dump this all on you.   ”   he threw the blonde a forced, yet apologetic smile.   “   what’ve you been up to   ?   feel like i haven’t heard of the iconic lily caine in a while.   ”   @lilyissms.

          “   to say it was insane would be an understatement,   ”   were the words that axel muttered under his breath, as he tilted his head to be able to look at the blonde that sat by his side. he was talking about renegade’s performance   —   the one at the ama’s.   “   can you imagine that only a few years ago i was still telling my siblings about how i dreamed about taking a stage like that   ?   things have changed a lot since then.   ”   in more ways than one.   @lilyissms