#witchy diary

I am protected before I am exposed.

I am loved before I understand how to love myself.

I am provided for even before I have a need.

I am supported before I begin to fall.

I am at peace before I feel any pressure.

i thought this was fun to do since i journal physically and it’s true that the witchy community on here lacks a bit of personal tales and experiences  ♡

soo i’m trying to manifest something for the first time (a job) and i don’t know why i waited so long to actually start working on manifesting it, if i nknew i had the tools. 

anyways, since i’m learning about this, the universe won’t stop giving me all kinds of signals, some more evident than others. And it’s like it’s  telling me “goddamn it start manifesting already” lmaoo.

the other day saw a post on here where someone said that before they started manifesting they asked the universe to show them a pink car, and it did! i was like ‘omg cool! but what if i asked for it to show me a car of my favorite color? nah there’s no such thing’ I THOUGHT LMAO. My favorite color is pastel indigo so it’s a pretty rare color, especially for a car.

just yesterday I was walking down the street an I saw a pastel indigo car and was like “ wow what a beautiful color!”.. and then i was like 

lmao

when I saw it i was returning from a party with a friend, and idek why but when we were at the party (which was outside, on the street), i was drawn to seeing the number of the house which we were standing right next to, which was 1014. it was like I inevitably went back to it every 2 minutes.

well, we went to the bust stop and waited for the first bus that leaves us home. The bus came and its serial number was 1014. 

🖤To stop comparing myself

🎇To chip away at my anxieties that do more harm than good

🖤To up my personal abundance

🎇To learn a new divination system

🖤To follow through on the promises with myself

No, Hades isn't a version of Satan. Neither is Lord Anubis. Most of the demons that are used of the Infernal Divine aren't anywhere near what movies make them out to be.

Like I recently watched a movie that had Leviathan as the "evil demon" but when he shows up he looks like a very aggressive Baphomet. (Which is absolute bs cos Baphomet is actually a calming healing energy that brings almost instant balance. Their "demonic" appearance shows the balance between male/female, animal/nature and life/spiritual world. What people views as demonic, people that work with such energies in a personal level, will see as divine and pure. )

I've worked with their energy before and believe me there's nothing terrifying about Baphomet. Sorry to burst bubbles to some. Not even their appearance spooks me. Biblically accurate angels are actually the only ones with terrifying appearances to me... and their energy is so powerful that you need various protections to work with them and to be very careful in your petitions. Yes, my evil ass also knows of angelic energies. I study this and have a library at home on these subjects.

But I'm rambling. I'm a huge horror fan and sometimes I like watching horrors from the paranormal or creature genres. But whenever an Infernal Divine is used and they're made into something they're totally not... the fear factor diminishes greatly.

Like I didn't find Hereditary scary because they took Paimon of all demons, to make super evil and creepy when he's actually wise with high intellect. He's also good to go for creative pursuits like writing, art and even inventions.

Still enjoyed the movie... as long as I ignored that they were using Paimon this way.

Things that actually scare me in paranormal horror are nameless demons, angry human spirits (ever heard of "hungry ghosts"? Eeeeek.), locally grown demons 😅 (sometimes the collective negativity in a place can create a whole new demon. Demonic energies can be born out of just negative emotions festering in one spot and being constantly fed. Expect asylums, hospitals, prisons, funeral homes, old battlefields etc to have these kind of beings. Sometimes they take the shape of horrific monsters of human and animals and filth or they pretend to be loved ones... okay I'll stop or I'll write an essay.)

I'm pretty sure everyone has different experiences with demons than I do. (I've had some terrible encounters so not everything is rosy)