#winter!steve

He was looking on at himself...confused and scared. He knew not what was coming for him. He was still wounded from his activity at the Triskelion. He didn't even really know his own name but he was waiting for something or someone to find him.

And this was dollar store Captain Shamerica....

"What are you looking for?"

Captain Barnes looked down at the man he’d just spent the last twenty mintues beating the hell out of. Unkempt blonde hair, dark with the river water he’d been dragged out of. Strong cheekbones under snow-pale skin. Did they ever let him outside, Barnes wondered. He sighed. There were enough broken ribs that that probably wasn’t the best idea; but what else could he do? Fighting someone he thought died seventy years ago on a crashing helicarrier, nearly drowning, Fury barely seeming to care when he’d radioed for help. But honestly? Just sitting next to the man who he used to be friends with, brothers with… That hurt worse than everything he’d been through combined. A sputtering cough drew his attention. He fumbled for his shield only to remember that it was somewhere at the bottom of the river they were next to. “B-… Bucky?” Those words froze him. Ice blue eyes fluttered open and it was like Captain Barnes was crashing into the arctic all over again. “…Steve?” A slim cresent of a smile played around the corners of his lips. “Hah… I’m dreaming again…” “No, hold on,” said Bucky, unconscious or uncaring of the fact that he’d grabbed Steve’s hand. “Help is coming, just hold on.” Steve continued, his eyes just slightly out of focus. “They could never take that away from me; you know… Hydra cont-controlled-” he paused, lapsing into a brief hacking cough. “They controlled my body, my actions, some of my mind…” Ice-blue eyes drifted over to Bucky’s. “But you… I remembered you…” “Shhh, don’t talk, save your strength,” Bucky pleaded. “Help is coming soon, you can talk all you want then.” “Re-remember when the pharmacy had the free sodas that summer day? I got sick on those and you kept explaining where the bubbles came from?” He chuckled despite himself. “You got sick off of anything but vegetables and beef broth in those days, Steve.” Steve’s voice seemed to gain strength as he spoke. “Or that winter when even with every blanket in the house and the two of us together the bed was still freezing?” Bucky grimaced that time. “That was a terrible year… Sometimes I still wonder how you made it through it.” The former Hydra asset fell silent. It wasn’t until Bucky saw his lips moving that he he realized he was still conscious. “Steve, are you still awake?” “I feel like I’m slipping back… I just wanna go back holding your name…” He fell silent again and this time Captain Barnes realized that he was whispering ‘Bucky’ over and over again.

I know I know more winter!Steve?! This was supposed to be just Erskine and Steve feels but it ended up being also SteveBuckyPeggy lol because I couldn't resist involving my OT3. I was rereading itsmylifekay's​ i'd be your anchor but i'm scared you'd drown series one of my favorite winter!Steve fics and got inspiration by the last part. Everyone read it and cry with me.

I will never be over Winter!Steve and with romanogers friendship included is like the fucking cherry on top. A fic I desperately want to happen is where Winter!Steve trains a young Natalia and they manage to keep each other human. And Steve helps Natalia escape even though she had to leave him behind. Then years later she returns as Natasha with Bucky to rescue whatever’s left of him. (-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩___-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩)