#wing 4

Hogwarts House: Ravenclaw, sometimes Gryffindor (took two separate tests on Pottermore)

MBTI: ENFP

Big 3: Pisces Sun, Gemini Moon, Sagittarius Rising

Enneagram: Type 2, Wing 4

Sure thing!

I see that you are a very emotional person. You feel your emotions very deeply, and that's fine.

You are optimistic, even though you have your sad times. But that's normal, so don't worry about it!

Bastion of the Penitent (Wing 4) - Boss 1 --  Cairn the-- something something. --

Hi everyone! These documents are maybe a little old, but the boss mechanics certainly haven’t changed since they were introduced. I know some people don’t like video guides, and if you’re watching Point of View videos to learn an encounter (PoV) can be very overwhelming. 

Überleben – Meisterwerke der Science Fiction

Gefahr aus dem All Als die Menschheit die Oortsche Wolke am Rande unseres Sonnensystems erreicht, erwartet sie eine Überraschung: Das an Bodenschätzen und Wasser reiche Gebiet ist bereits besiedelt! Flüchtlinge und Vertriebene aus anderen Sonnensystemen leben dort bereits seit unvordenklichen Zeiten. Während die Menschen noch damit beschäftigt sind, ihre Gebietsansprüche notfalls mit Gewalt…

I feel too much and what I mean by that is my emotions are very strong. But I find that expressing my emotions makes me extremely vulnerable and I already am vulnerable. I do not want to appear weak at all so I hide most of what I feel behind false smiles and the phrase, "I'm okay." I am constantly appearing to others as an aloof, cold person when in actuality, I am very warm.

I care very much about others but it is when others treat people in negative ways that I truly hate people. I cannot stand stupidity and selfishness. I am constantly seeking knowledge and trying to find ways to make myself more useful to others. I suppose in the process, I've made a very nice doormat for some.

I want to be close to people, I want everlasting friendships and good relationships all around. But I find myself unable to relate to a lot of people and I am always detached from it all. I am paranoid that whoever I may get close to, they will turn around and hurt me. I fear pain and betrayal and so, I barely have any relationships to speak of. I value trustworthiness to a very high degree and once I'm crossed, I can never forget it. I may be able to forgive but I definitely never forget but I think it best to be a bigger person and show them kindness. Their own guilt is their punishment and it is enough for me.

Right now, I am at a war with myself. I constantly wonder if I should trust a person whom I care about. But I am deeply terrified that they actually don't care about me like I do them and I'd really rather not have a repeat of my last relationship. I'm not sure what to do...

And this probably didn't make any sense to anyone. I apologize. :(