“I’ll be honest, John,” she sounds tired. And she is. It’s not like Beecher’s Hope isn’t a lovely homestead. It is. It’s being cooped up there, agony creeping up into her side from the festering knife wound. “I try real hard not t'think about most of it. I’d lose my mind.”
Sadie winces, shifting to sit up. “Besides, some things are heavy enough all their own.”
❛ hey, easy there, ❜ ( sadie’s independent, hardier than most, with twice as much drive as the devil — john understands that, respects it. he tries to avoid overstepping her convalescence, but he does stray in moments like these, rising from his bedside seat to adjust the pillows against the headboard, lest her back strains. ) ❛ you don’t want that wound to open up. plenty nasty business gettin’ it closed the first time. ❜
for a second, john’s not sure if he’s only talking about the gash in her side. sadie’s right, of course: some things are heavy enough all their own, and he should know better than to flirt with memory’s long drop with that much weight on his shoulders and too little rope.
❛ — guess you got a point. a good one, ❜ john says, resignedly, easing back into his chair, spine round. his fingers meet in the wide gap between his knees. ❛ just . . . seein’ dutch again, it got my head all worked up, you know? ❜