Being as active as i am in both the mundane and spiritual worlds, balancing all these energies in my space along with social groups, future progress in school, theurgical & financial work, everyday drama and changes in life- silence and stillness are harder to find the more i drag myself to meet every need.

Stillness, hermit moments, reflecting on where you are and have been recently are things i have avoided the past months as life presses forward throwing new things, situations and deities/others my way. I never stopped to adjust what i was carrying before continuing on the journey, so when burnout hit the beginning of the year it wasn’t that much of a surprise. Because i didnt take time to adjust and understand, i then had to stop and sit with stillness to see where i was, wasn’t where i needed to find myself.

But the silent moments are where my deities are reaching me. The memories in the mornings together, the birds in the trees and overhead who visit, shared whispers of support in the kitchen on the quietest of days, the dreams of returning to solitude with them driving the car as i safely sleep finally trusting myself to be carried. My growth is showing again, and the burning nature to show all i understand and who i will be must be hindered, just a touch until my torches are all lit and i am accomplished in myself.