#whirledcolors

So much is happening within the next 18 days. Thursday I get my wisdom teeth out, Saturday is the first Ritas meeting for the season, next Friday is opening day at ritas, then March 13th, I move into my apartment with kalla and Monika and Devin and freaking Sara comes down to visit that weekend as well. I going to be super busy and stressed and anxious but I'm so excited nonetheless. Omg.

I dare you to let me be, you're one and only.

I love you so much and it breaks my heart that I can't be with you everyday and help make you feel better because I know life freaking sucks right now. I just wish I could be with you and I know you'll say "it's okay!" But it's really now. It's not at all okay. I could be so much more of a better girlfriend than I am and I'm sorry. I love you so much though it's unreal to myself. I really hope you're okay. I really really do.

In 24 hours, we will have been with each other for 2 hours and I literally can not wait to finally see you!

I literally can not wait to fucking see you on Friday. Like holy shit balls.

I am lonely. But I'm only lonely in the sense of wanting you here. I only want you. Here. With me. Right now.

Everything reminds me of you... And I guess that's a good thing. But the days we don't talk much due to our busy schedules, get to me. My anxiety levels build and I get nervous that we won't make it and I can't stop thinking of you. I can't stop thinking of how much you absolutely mean to me. You are my world, my sunshine, you are everything I've been looking for. You mean more to me than life itself and I can't bare to see it fall through the cracks, and I'm hoping it doesn't. It's days that I miss you and think to myself that it's my fault we don't talk much. We can always skype more and call more and I just need to get over my nervousness... You just mean so much to me and I don't want to loose you like I do everyone else...