#whinnies

thinkin about the funny like. ok it almost feels #problematic to say but like the funny overlap between being hsn autistic and being a little. my girlfriend/mommy recently said smth about how she always automatically helps me with things and she hopes shes not infantilizing me or annything and maybe its funny but my first thought was "well but id like it if you were anyways". i like that she helps shift my plates around for me or hands me things. i like having stuff ordered for me or cut up for me. i like that she reads me bedtime stories. honestly, i'd love help with dressing and stuff too sometimes. and these are all things that help with my autism, since they're things i really struggle to do for myself (including reading, im cognitively/intellectually disabled in a way that makes it hard, thats why she started), but they also make me feel little sometimes. but is that such a bad thing? if it makes me happy and makes my life a lot easier?

Now that I'm on testosterone I briefly considered working out, but I know in my heart of hearts I don't fucking want to do that