#which. yeah

Of one mind– acrylic ink on toned paper

"Would it be cruel of me to say that the stone heart I was cursed with during those years felt like a blessing? That it made the desicion to send my friends to thier deaths easier? To be the male that my father had designed.... but now, I can't stand it.

To have this living, beating..thing within my chest while everything, no, everyone I've cared about has withered away?

I want to tear that wretched organ out." — tamlin & his survivor's guilt

So the idea that tamlin's issues partially manifesting as the idea that if he was more ruthless, more apathetic, sadistic even; he could've prevented all the tragedy he lived through. That aramantha's occupation of prythian could've been prevented if he tried harder, was more resilient. That feyre wouldn't have died and been traumatized by him in return... and it warps into these intrusive manifestations of tamlin's psyche that continues to plague him past canon.

Almost as if tamlin's very existence is cursed.

Kanade’s a third year now. Kanade’s dad has been in the hospital for years, leaving his daughter in a house that’s losing the warmth of a home. She’s had to become an adult, has been becoming an adult since even before his hospitalization really but has had this process expedited due to her being left alone for so long.

Not only that but Kanade’s rebuilt her entire life- her habits, her mindset, everything- around what would allow her to work more without spending time on other things. She stocks up on so much instant and canned food she once was thought to be storing up for an earthquake. Her hair is to the floor and yet she won’t cut it cause she thinks it’s a hassle. She’s so focused on making music that we have at least two accounts of her collapsing due to overwork. I would not be surprised if there were more

Her current room is her dad’s old work room, which now doubles as her own work room. Her bed is shown to be covered in composition sheets, we have several accounts of it being messy due to her being so absorbed in her work she neglected to clean up, there’s so much grief and so many memories within this room and yet she barely leaves it. Has barely left it for years. We’ve seen her leave it more recently with help of Nightcord and Honami but without them I doubt she’d step an inch outside of that room outside of getting groceries (which. while she needs food and sustenance to survive there is an early area conversation where she’s working in the sekai in the hopes that maybe she won’t have to stop working to eat or sleep. Do with that what you will) or visiting her dad. Which brings me to my next point

Kanade’s dad getting better wouldn’t erase all of this. This is years worth of self conditioning Kanade engrained into her bones that you’d be trying to undo. Kanade’s dad simply being there wouldn’t immediately fix that. Especially considering the fact that she’s following his footsteps. Kanade’s been shown having to go to her dad to make sure he eats, not unlike the way Mafuyu and Honami currently have to remind her to eat. There’s also the obvious collapsing parallel.

HHEEELLLOOOOOOOOO ‼️‼️🔥🔥 ITS NOT A BOTHER AT ALL IM HAPPY TO YAP!!

The Shadow Wizard Money Gang was initially an animation meme trend I hopped on two/three years ago. The video did REALLY well- it was my first, and it got 1M views!!! Im still quite flabbergasted (and proud)

I had gotten quite a few comments telling me the character designs were quite cool and unique and people really liked them! So I thought "huh, maybe I could keep those in my pocket. They are quite fun to draw after all."

And so over time I kind of built up a lil story-ish..? Lore? Kind of?? It’s not very far for now. Ive yapped abt the characters’ lore in the speedpaint video and well I can’t say it’s like a concrete artistic project or anything but it’s something I genuinely like and feel reluctant to let go of :)) I rlly like my wizards

...was I too vague