"I can honestly tell you I have never felt this way about anyone in my life. From the second my eyes open in the morning youāre the first thing I think about; hoping you slept well and that your dreams werenāt too traumatic, hoping that Iād hear from you soon. At the start I couldnāt believe that you would want to message me so much, and each day it continued I felt as if I was on borrowed time until you moved on. But you never did; the conversations got more in depth and we ebbed and flowed with each other with the ease of lifelong friends. I love the fact that I donāt have to change how I write and the words I use when Iām talking to you. I donāt have to pretend to be anything other than myself with you. I struggled to contend with the fact that Iād only known you for such a short amount of time and I still do now. I feel like youāve always been here. Iām certain that youāre on my mind almost as much as my key bodily functions like breathing. Itād be a competition, Iām sure of it. I see little things and big things that remind me of facets of you, things youāve said and times weāve shared. I miss your presence being around me and the energy in your eyes and voice when you speak to me; you make me feel like I could walk on water. Thereās nothing more in this world that I want more than for those times to return; the Big Mac sauce with chips, the rally driving, the play fights and just holding you. When youāre with me, I feel utterly complete. I couldnāt care less about what anyone or anything else is doing. The zombie apocalypse could break out and I know I wouldnāt care as long as you were there, looking at me with those beautiful eyes as if Iām something special. I feel like youāre a part of me in everything I do, think, see and hear. I could tell you anything and even if you didnāt understand, youād accept it. I know tonight, like each night before and each night to come, Iāll awake to think about you as you intersperse my dreams in the loveliest ways to find the bed only half as full as it should be. It is because of all this that I know Iām not leaving."
