#whatever meme

i’ve come to realize recently that i have a desperate need to see people that are unhappy in relatively kind/gentle places in fiction, and aren’t punished or ostracized for it. i mean i’m generally not into what other people’s ideas of soft and happy are, and part of that is that you’re generally supposed to like/travel along with characters who are With The Program, in that they’re relatively Good and Functional and have friends and are nice etc 

i’ve been told to be happy and Get With The Program a lot. you know that one character in every happy story who’s the jerk, the downer, the guy who always finds something wrong with the situation? i’ve always cared most about that guy because i’ve been that guy. even when situations are truly good, i want there to be space for the people who doubt, who criticize, who simply aren’t happy or friendly people. i don’t want their whole arc to be about Getting Better and becoming part of the general love-fest. i want people to show some respect for not being happy in a ‘happy’ place. or for happiness looking different for some people than it does for the general mass

I have a personal goal of never writing ‘i love you’ as A Big Moment in a story, even between characters that have a romantic relationship. (I mean people in my stories often don’t say it casually that much, but there’s a couple). imo it’s incredibly fun working out what good Big Moments or Gestures would work for each individual dynamic and I don’t understand people who take unique characters and then just go for them saying ‘i love you’ as the Big Deal. at least mix it up a little!! ‘i adore you’ or something. jeez*

one of my fond dreams that I’m not sure if I’ll ever have the skills to achieve is to build my single universe where i stick all my sci-fi stories, Steer by Saturn, to the point where I can invite other people to write stories in it if they want. I’d also like to do the same with the universe featured in The Last Spell (and other short stories coming in the future). They both have a few fundamental rules that I think would lend themselves to a huge variety of stories, and I’d be fascinated to see what other people would come up with; I was always fascinated by anthologies I stumbled across as a kid where a bunch of people wrote in the same world. 

also: I’ve been having intense emotions over one of the power couples from the Steer by Saturn universe all of today. goddamn that amnesiac pilot and intergalactic criminal really love each other 

‘’i will find you. and i will kill you’’