a sharp breath , feeding the fire that πππππ within his gut ; there's no where to look that feels right , no words that fit in his mouth that don't feel awkward , clunky or unnatural . sawyer wanted the world to α΅α΅Λ‘α΅ α΅Κ·α΅ΚΈ , to bury his head in the sand & never think again . β i can't β β the weight on his shoulders has become ππππππππππ , he can feel his collarbones breaking beneath it ... concrete fills lungs & breath is held , fear of making any move taking a hold of him , as if suspending motion all together might confuse impending overwhelm .
@wervolf . ππππ πππππππ . ΚΈα΅α΅'Κ³α΅ α΅Λ‘Λ‘α΅Κ·α΅α΅ α΅α΅ Λ‘α΅Λ’α΅ αΆ€α΅ αΆ°α΅Κ· α΅αΆ°α΅ α΅α΅α΅αΆ€αΆ°Λ
jack's voice comes into focus all at once , fading in from somewhere πππ ππ€ππ¦ from sawyer's battlefield of a mind . he looks up , vision blurred by hot tears that are quick to leave behind long , wet streaks on his cheeks. β jack , αΆ€Ν β β nothing further comes , just a croak of words that might have been as his body crashes into partner's , rapacious in the way hands snatch the comfort he is offered ; scorching , rising flames of emotion finally begin to ease at the relief from someone who loves him . β i don't β β he takes a π ππππ πππππ‘π© , nudging nose to jack's sternum ; already beginning to αΆΛ‘α΅α΅α΅ the guilt that has been building like a wave . β i don't know if i can do it , if i β i don't think i can help them , jack . β